3 days to end of break

I’m in no spirits to mug for Japanese at this point of time, partially due to lethargy and also the immense psychological stress I’m giving myself. But I’m still pressing on, for the sake of tomorrow.

Perhaps we’re giving the impression that things are moving too fast on our side, but I’m defending us; it’s not a matter of duration, but the feeling that counts. Still, I know where to draw the line when it comes to such stuff, and I’m sure we’re still within what’s acceptable to people and ourselves. So I’ll still keep us in check, and provide that little nudge to put you back in line if you aren’t behaving yourself.

That guy at Settlers’ Café’s really cracked me up with his weird antics; besides, Fay was stealing glances at him whenever she could (please lah, very obvious leh!). Ok, it wasn’t as impressive as it sounded in the words of others, but it shall do for a really boring afternoon. I think we were simply competing with the other cliques there to see which cluster could generate the most noise. Haha.

oh, jack? congrats, kor ;) now got someone to call dasao. HAHAS.
-Skyler

Okay I was really amused.

Content

It seems as though my appetite is shrinking, and that sounds like the best thing in the world at this point of time. Apart from grasping the technique of not losing breath while running, I managed to keep going without the mp3; there’s already a melody playing in my head the entire time.

I’m in love with this semester because:
I get to torture myself with 5 hours of LAJ1201 tutorials every week,
I’ve got far lesser projects to juggle,
I didn’t have to sing at the Bazaar,
And my life just became more meaningful.

Okay, I think I’ll go snooze before my handphone beeps.
Then I doubt I’ll be able to get to sleep.

The answer to my life

Seems like I drove someone into desperation yesterday, and he became uber panicky. Okay, I know you're still waiting for that perfect moment, and til then, I'll still be waiting for your question which you already know the answer to. Speak about formality. You just drive me up the wall with your crazy words, but that's what made you so special. I'm superficially dumb, and yet you're ever-so-willing to be a part of my life. You're only going to make life even sweeter, my Super Sunshine.

Reasons for my insomia:
You
That insane woman who sleeps beside me
You
Projects, projects, projects
You

Looks like I'm only going to get more and more insomiac if you continue with your corny SMS-es.
But I'll get used to it.
We'll get used to it.

CJ 7

I'm having a hard time trying to choose songs to perform for Super Snacks. And that's making me very perplexed now. Hopefully I'll be able to pull through that particular song without breaking down or choking on my tears. Even he's worried I might lose control of my emotions. Haha. I'll try my best.

I'm sorry I'm always feeling lethargic before every meeting; I've got less than a day's sleep these few days, and Japanese tutorials never fail to get me down. Thanks for the movie CJ 7, I've been dying to watch it. Really touching story of self-sacrifice and humbleness, and Stephen Chow never forgets his hilarious segments. Okay, I was slightly emotionally affected, but I'll be alright. I'm not lying when I said that I seldom stay unhappy for long.

Oh Great~Agenda for next week~

EL Project meet-up
EL tutorial meet-up
LAJ skit rehearsal meet-up
SuperSnacks rehearsal(s)
K-boxing with Geyaorians
Mugging for Mid-terms
And this isn't all.

Undersleep

I couldn’t wash the saccharine sweetness of yesterday, and it’s bugging me to such a great extent that I could almost hear Superwoman playing as the background music when I’m dreaming several short dreams last night. Okay, I need to touch down soon, like what I told you to do.

The rehearsals today were one of the most organised ones I’ve ever seen, although it’s still pretty messy. Haha. Great job by Skyler and her urh hmm. What a great pair to start out with, and I can see greater things for them. OMG I think you’re passing those sheepish grins and mad gurgling of envy to me. No wonder you’re unusually quiet today. Oh, and great job with that May I Love You, I think you fared much better than I did with all my attempts. Great projection, great feel, great falsetto, maybe just the enunciation of that part(okay I’m being extremely picky). I’m just so chuffed. Hope you’re done with Mastering Physics. Kian and Ken are the craziest drummers I’ve ever seen, but their goofiness perked me up a little, especially that ‘haircut’ talk by Kian over dinner and Ken’s impromptu lyrics.

Maybe I should go sleep.
Or shall I wait for you?

Astounded

I should really stop bumping into people in school; over the course of 2 days, I met JiaYing, Xiling, Aileen, and some others I couldn't recall, all by pure accident. Omg, now I know why Reeve thought that I was a Year 3 student.

I know I'm wading in dangerous waters at this point of time by attempting to juggle more than what I can handle. Furthermore, I'm sure there's bound to be gossip and detractors of all sorts. Give me some time to think it over, because I don't know which direction is sensible and beneficial to the both of us. I'm reading your signs correctly, I'm sure of it this time, and things seem to be falling in place. No speculations over anything else, but I'm just glad there's someone whom I can enjoy lunch and dinner with, mug with, chat over MSN til late, do all kinds of weird things just to cheer me up, bus down to Buona Vista for pizza with, share musical ideas with and read each other's minds with. Thanks for the CD, though you kind of scared me.

The concept of keeping busy

Alright, so it isn't all glitz and glamour in the shoes of a showbiz peripheral after all, at least through the eyes Ms.Takeaway. Of course her blog's the ultimate source to the world of David's and A*Mei's concerts, and knowing that these musicians make the effort to test out the concert equipment themselves and love their bandmates like themselves blows me away. Those haughty bigshots should go sit in a corner and cry.

The procrastinator has finished her PS essay~! Before I pop the champagne, someone please assault me with a sledgehammer as a reminder that I still have the following to do:

Bibliography for JS project draft
Japanese skit script draft
Hyojun Mondaishu Chapters 4&5
Japanese Vocab quiz L5
Japanese Listening quiz L3&4
Japanese Lecture quiz 4
JS Reading on Tokugawa Period

I won't dare to say I'm busy, because I know of people who are juggling CCA, studies and infatuation, and they're coping better than I am. Oh great. Back to that biblio. I really have the tendency to call it 'bible' or 'bibo' or 'bimbo'. I dunno; it sounds like a lexical gap that should not have been filled.

PS-essaying

I'm every professor's nightmare; I just started to put my PS essay together last night, when it's due next Tuesday. Thank God I was spared from the Bazaar performance, or else I'll be rushing around like a frantic. Salutes to JiaHui, who has been doing all the crazy planning for the Bazaar. I would have dropped dead from exhaustion if I were in her shoes. Good thing I'm a quarter into my essay, or I would worry about stepping out of the house later. Pray it doesn't rain, so I can give that darling a good scrub before heading down to pick up my other darlings.Steamboat~!

And Esther's email totally made my day. We've got Row 3 for the concert~! Thanks freaking near! And I hope all our plans work out, so at least 2 years into this wouldn't be a waste after all.
I was totally stuck on Gary (曹格) yesterday night. Seriously, he can make anyone fall in love with him with just his voice.I would. *Gushes*

Valentine's Day 2008

Sometimes we just have to count our blessings when it comes to spending quality time with great company. I had more than I had bargained for, to be able to spend Valentine's Day with a great friend and a great listening ear. Thanks for the purple handmade flower, especially when I don't like fresh flowers very much. Thanks for the beaded initial; I thought only those 3 girls in your life deserved them.

Dinner was good, thanks for looking up the internet for such great vegetarian food, although I feel a little guilty that you have to eat the stuff I eat as well. I bet those families having their reunion dinners there must have found it weird to have two crazy morons talking and laughing loudly in a corner. And thanks that listening ear.
Another huge apology to my three darlings, I promise Saturday will be a good make-up for today~! I'll be the driver~!

Jeepers

I don’t understand how I’ll be able to make it through this week without a good deal of organization and moral support. Or rather, I should be blaming myself for procrastinating, like I always do. Besides, my mind just keeps floating off to lalaland every other minute, so it takes double the amount of calories to concentrate. Yes, I’m more than just distracted, but I’ll have to make it through, by hook or by crook.

Breakfast with NX saw the girl dousing her pancakes with scary amounts of maple syrup like a little girl. I’m glad she’s settled into NAFA, and hopefully things will stop going awry for her in every way. Lunch with Pin and JiaYing at the Deck was a laughable affair, because they kept asking for Tweety (which happens to be some lame insider joke way back in Secondary 4), as well as the ring on my finger. You know, sometimes, a ring doesn’t mean that you have a significant half. It just means that you’re emotionally bonded in some way. Once and for all, this ring signifies my love for music, and I’m looking to swapping it for a better ring. ;)

My head ballooning, exploding soon.

CNY day 2

I would like to express my utter discontentment with the TV station. The CCTV CNY countdown programme’s advertisement had broadcasted a part with David singing on it, and viewers like us assume that he’ll be appearing on the programme. However, after staying up until the programme ended at 4am the next day, there was no sign of David on the programme. Did they trim that portion? Or did he not appear on the programme at all? All I know is that I feel damn cheated and I’m super lethargic after waiting for 6 hours.
WTH.

Chinese New Year never fails to make me feel extra guilty not just because of all the sinful goodies that had invaded my kitchen, but chucking aside that humongous stack of pending homework and pretending to take in the sights with much enthusiasm just sounds like taboo. I need to get started on that Political Science essay, my Japanese Studies project, my New Media project, my EL1101E tutorial, and my Kanji. Oh great.

After taking over the wheel for the festive season, I deem myself an errant driver. I never fail to cut into the other lanes by accident, sway my steering wheel, drive the adjacent cars crazy, forget my signal lights, overuse the accelerator, scare the motorbikes weaving in and out of traffic and the list tends to infinity. My vertical parking’s a nightmare as well, but I happen to get it right the first time round most of the time.Beginner’s luck.

P.S: Thanks for keeping me entertained and awake yesterday night with your nonsense while I was waiting to catch David on TV. That was the longest phone call I’ve ever had. I'm still thinking.

CNY day 1

The morning jog was a good chance to burn off the remaining alcohol in my blood and yesterday's sumptous reunion dinner. I took the time to clear my mind, ponder over some stuff and enjoy the morning breeze. It was just the thing to douse all the uncertainties inside.

Then my aunt had to drive me nuts when she commented that it was her house and that she could scold anyone she liked on Chinese New Year. Whatever. I didn't need that, and I can't guarantee that the next time you say that, I wouldn't stomp out of the house.
YOUR HOUSE.

Ah Long Pte Ltd wasn't as good as I made it out to be. Of course there's the laughable parts, but most of it didn't manage to amuse me.

Dinner at Grandma's place was alright. I was more fascinated over my little niece and nephew, who were such darlings. My cousin couldn't keep her cool when it comes to handling them, though. Her sudden outbursts often caught me by surprise. I'm too family-oriented.

The drive home was strangely quiet, but it wa because I was at the wheel and my youngest sister was sleeping soundly.

Been thinking alot, thinking... I'm still thinking.

Happy Chinese New Year

I need someone to shake me violently until I feel nauseous; it's surreal, but I don't know if it came at the same time. After talking it out with Nx, I'm still at a loss for decisions. I quitted the conversation telling myself that I should wait, and came back on questioning the feasibility of it all. I'm not desperate; it just seemed as though things tend to happen at the point of time when which I needed a source of staple emotional reliance and that I'm ready to pay attention to someone else in life. I'm still largely hesitant, and I fear facing an abrupt moment of truth. I won't know if my decision will the best for the both of us, but I'm tempted to give it a shot.

I just wanna say, I'm sorry for running away from it all, but I wasn't ready to manage that
emotional fluctuation you caused yesterday.

Happy Chinese New Year~

Get to know yourself better

Found this on Nx's blog, decided to give it a try.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I'm my own superwoman

Breakfast was lovely, despite the fact that I didn't get my usual tau huey fix. Never mind, that shall wait. I don't have tau huey running in my veins, neither will my steps falter because soya deficiency. Thanks to Jane's mum for the pineapple tarts and cornflake cookies; I'm going to have a hard time swearing off them.

Second task of the day was to fix up my new PC monitor single-handedly, since my sisters couldn't care more than to wait for everything to be fixed up so that they could continue watching Romantic Princess on Youtube. That darn PC table was a hell to start with, because I had to adjust the metal bar which propped the monitor platform up. Screw that metal bar, literally. Wrestling with that darn thing almost costed me a couple cuts if it hadn't been for my quick reflexes. Getting the bar out was a chore; getting it back in was a physical war with metal and metal. But the pretty little thing's finally up and sitting snugly on the computer desk:

I'm a happy woman today because:

1. I got my lovely bag after a month-so-long wait. My mum nagged again, but that woman' probably just jealous. Hello, you're got your Gucci, so stop rattling away.

2. I'm back to mugging, and that's a good sign.
3. I hope he's received the card.
4. I loved the duet we did yesterday. Can we fix that?
5. I'm still missing the dessert.
6. I'm my own superwoman~!

Twice shy

Ok, so those aunts did ask me who was the guy who sent me home the other day and whether he was my boyfriend, and she even added, "You don't get yourself into this kind of things so early ah..." Just to clarify some stuff before I go crazy.

1.He's not my boyfriend.
2.He didn't send me home. He allowed me to drive his car back.
3.I don't have a boyfriend, neither do I have the ability to get one.
4.It's not too early for me to get into a relationship. I'm already 20 this year, for God's sake.
5.I'm not sure if I'll like those kind of guys.

The shouting match did a huge deal of damage to a supposedly perfect day. If you're so smarty-pantsy, go get your own computer monitor yourself instead of asking me to get it for you. I was lucky to have a good friend help me lug it to the MRT station in the rain, or else I would have just chucked it. It's the second time this month you're trying to ruin my day, and it's starting to make me contemplate hostel life next semester so I don't have to survive those brainless comments.

Thanks to Jack, anyway. You made going hungry worth while.