Thursday, November 25, 2004

Grad High Tea

Graduation high tea was crap. Okay, I admit I wasn’t as keen as those who were thrashing the dance floor, but I still thought it wasn’t as good as it would have been if we had graduation NITE instead. I spent the whole morning watching VCDs and ended up being late for meeting my friend cuz my hair wasn’t really smiling today. Bad hair day, I guess. Then the heels which weren’t giving me any problem at all for the past few days were grinding at my ankles, trying to chew them off on the way to the Hilton. Got a few weird stares (from people who thought I was completely out of my mind) during the high tea. Food was okay, especially the very sinful cheesecake (haha I only had 1 piece). The MC was terrible at motivating people to play his games and I was practically bored to tears. Took photos and photos and photos, then I came home. This is so freaking lame. Lamest day of my life.
Chucking that aside, I’m still worrying about what I’m going to do next year. I have no direction, no passion for anything, no ambition whatsoever. I’m practically darting round nooks and crannies like a headless cockroach. Besides, I don’t even have enough choices to fill in the 12 options given. Pathetic. I’ve thought about many things, and things are getting wordy and obscure, so… I don’t know. I’ve only got myself to blame, if I had to, for not doing my utmost to secure a peaceful post exam rest without worries. Sh*t.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

The first cut is the deepest

The First Cut Is The Deepest

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest

Monday, November 22, 2004

Shoe shopping

Went shopping again today with Mum and Dad, this time to get my shoes. I admit it isn’t easy to look for a decent pair of shoes for me cuz I have big feet and I was looking or a white pair of shoes. But with my parents around (a shopaholic Mum and a tag-along Dad), my problems were solved in a jiffy. Love ‘em.My Mum advised me to BITE my shoes so that they wouldn’t ‘bite’ me back. What a weird analogy and besides, it didn’t taste that great.Down to a pair of shoulder dusters. I guess I’m gonna get that tomorrow, plus teach Jane a thing or two on the guitar.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Shop till you drop

Aching all over after a full day of shopping for my stuff. Went to Wisma Atria, then walked to Tangs, then to Lucky Plaza, then Takashimaya, then back to Wisma again. Definitely a crazy ride, but I’m pretty satisfied with my reap today, except I couldn’t get any shoes cuz I wear size 9 (Goodness). Still missing the Coffee Bean coffee I didn’t get to drink. So sad, adding a few blisters to that. Shopping plan part II starting tomorrow. Felz called me on the way home to tell me that she met James Tan at the Zone Presentation Ceremony. Aiyah, people got stead liao, snatch for what. Anyway, i cannot so hua xing ok?

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

History over!

Huge stone off my chest after the History paper today. Okay, I didn’t study for the source-based and I don’t understand it at all, but who doesn’t get through source-based? Well I’m a little complacent now, but it’s true. Studied for China Under Mao, World War 2, Russian Revolution and none of that came out. Definitely a waste of brain cells. Things are finally looking up for my life.

Saturday, November 13, 2004

The rich and the poor

My aunt landed herself in hospital after suffering from a cut on her head while packing her school library cuz the school’s moving. Hope she’s alright, cuz I’m too stressed up to go see her. Still trying the method I used to study Social Studies for my History (which is to diffuse the info in) and it’s obviously not working, that’s why I’m here.
At least the one thing I can get off my chest is the class chalet, cuz it’s been finalized already, courtesy of Mrs Chang. Feel real bad cuz she’s always the one booking for us. Haiz…
Been dreaming of him for the past 3 nights. Yes, go ahead and say I’m mad, cuz I am. Was chatting with a family friend in the morning while cooking lunch and she was lamenting on how her cousin, who’s a university graduate, chose a guy who’s jobless to marry. I mean, it isn’t all about the money, right? HE ain’t the least rich, but I’m still here.

Tuesday, November 9, 2004

Caught in the middle

Half the examinations gone, the other half coming straight up. Still pondering on how to study 4 of my worst subjects in a week. The thought of my English paper is just bringing me down, and i still can't believe i actually freaked out during a paper i could score the best in. Freak...

Thursday, October 28, 2004

5 days to O's

About 5 more days to the first O Levels paper. I still can’t concentrate on studying, partially because of the weather, and also because I just can’t sit still to study. Still halfway thru Social Studies only, and I’m still arguing with myself over the reasons for the Great Leap Forward. Haiz… only if mugging was like sleeping; the only difficulty would be to fall asleep.
Ps: sorry bang seh you… not my fault…

Friday, October 22, 2004

O'Levels Chem Prac

O’Levels Chemistry Practical today. Woke up at 4 am and couldn’t sleep after that cuz I was too excited to make it good. The prac was unbelievably manageable, and I was pretty cool with it. The worst part came in the form of the quarantine, cuz I didn’t bring any food and my brain couldn’t function at all. Thank God it’s all over.
The next hurdle’s the Physics Practical next week, followed by the main papers. Haven’t started studying Social Studies, so I have no idea how am I going to survive the guilt. And I’m also worrying about the Physics paper too, and the History paper, and the Math paper, and the… Oh well basically it’s 10 days to the main papers and what have I done? Nothing.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

So say goodbye, oh don't you cry, cuz true love never dies

Last day of school liao… Perhaps everyone played til they’re so off that they aren’t thinking much about this day as I did. Tong Loong had the initial (stupid) idea that when I said “Class stand!” everyone will greet “Thank you Ms/Mrs … … for teaching us and tolerating our nonsense.” We thought it was dumb, so he came up with another ‘brilliant’ idea- I, alone, yes me, poor chairman, will say that on behalf of the class. Thanks man, that was exactly what I didn’t need. But anyway, I did it (reluctantly) to every single teacher, including Mrs Sim. I wonder if he did the same to Ms Chan. So I decided to sabotage him when it came to Mrs Chang. Haha. That’s for you, from me. Took photos with some of the more significant ones in class and my own khaki. Thanks for everything and everything. Really gonna miss you all.

Friday, October 15, 2004

In this life, I was loved by you

2 days to the end of school. Then we’ll be sitting for our O’Levels. Time flies, and everyone’s known each other for 2 years already (or even 4 years). All this while, perhaps I’ve carelessly overlooked those significant ones in my life, and it’s only til today that I regret my actions. All the things I could have got to know about you, all the joy we could have shared, and all the memories we could have to cherish when we step out of this lift, one by one, to pursue our happiness. But what I do know, is that I’m really blessed to have came across such great people in my life. All of you have definitely made an impression on the beach of my sea of memories, no matter how deep it is. Yes, I’ll miss everyone. Every single one of you. God bless you all, cuz I know I was when I met you people.

Saturday, October 9, 2004

JC or Poly?

Had a talk with my parents yesterday night regarding my pre-U destiny. Both of them encouraged me to go to Poly cuz they said that Poly life is less stressful than JC, and that JC is just too academic for me. And besides, after Poly, I can still go to University, or I can choose to work and take a degree at the same time. But in school, the reaction is different. Jia Ying (if I’m not wrong) said that it’s harder to get to U when you’re in Poly as compared to JC. But my cousins who went to Poly actually made it to U.
Actually, I really hope to make it to JC, cuz I want something conventional and fast. I hate studying so I dun wanna spend half of my life letting studies bog me down. But I’m afraid that I can’t catch up with those who made it to first 3 months, given my especially retarded think tank. And I have no hopes of specializing at this time cuz I have no direction at all. But my parents say that the main priority now is to score well in my O Levels, so I’m chucking my Prelim results aside for awhile.Still doing A math today. I was supposed to study 3 different subjects according to my study table within these 3 days but I spent most of the time doing Math. I know that Mrs Wong did it for our own good, but I guess she probably went over the edge, cuz now we don’t have time to study other subjects. And I was dumb enough to bring half of my chemistry file when Mrs Siew had no intention of going thru that, and instead threw us a paper to do. I guess she really want us to do well, and we really appreciate her effort. But I guess most of us are too afraid of her to open up to her, so that’s probably the disadvantage of the entire situation.

P.s to the one who loves to sing aloud in class: You made my day……….. terrible.

Friday, October 8, 2004

Nowhere to go

Got back all my prelims results already, and i really worry for my future. Haiz… Didn’t expect it to turn out this way. Really disappointed with myself lorz. But I’m focusing on the O’Levels so that I’ll do much better then.ACJC didn’t come to school today, so it was very obvious what they did, especially to the teachers. Xiling challenged me to do that, but my disappearance would be too obvious, so that’s definitely a no-no.

Tuesday, October 5, 2004

Mum's the best

Seemed fine in school, but I unknowingly lapsed into depression after reaching home. Just didn’t expect my results to be like shit. Haiz… Told my mum and she sounded disappointed, but told me to try harder for the O’Levels. Thanks Mum. I Love You.

Sick of my results

Failed my Physics... So damn sad, cuz i studied hard for it, but... Haiz dun say liao. Anyway i think History will be disappointing (although i hope not) cuz there are 3 failures in the class alone. E-math was also disappointing, cuz i missed 1 mark for each paper to a A1. So disappointed about the whole thing. Thanks to Liyan and Jie for their presents i really appreciate them although they're 2 weeks late lolz.Currently thinking of a way to tell my perents. They'll know someday, i guess. It's the breaking part which is the hardest lorz. Haiz. Sian. Just kill me. Haiz. They'll be so disappointed.

Sunday, October 3, 2004

KBox rox

Firstly, just wanna say a big ‘SORRY!’ to my poor 4/10 mates which I have to give up in exchange for the company of my close friends. I really didn’t mean it, and I hope you people enjoyed yourselves yesterday, cuz I did.Jane had to go thru her e-math paper yesterday after the Physics paper so Liyan, Hong Ying and I went to West Coast first to grab a bite. Our initial plan was to go to East Coast Park to ride bikes on a Children’s Day, but we had to kill that idea when Jane met us only around 12++pm. So I (yes, me the brainchild) suggested that we popped into K Box @ JE for a karaoke session, and we compromised on that.The membership only cost $5, and we had a room all to ourselves. Hong Ying left just before we started (Urm you know where you went huh!), so it was down to 3 of us. Had a whale of a time there. Great way to spend a post-exam afternoon. The funniest part was when we were thru Jay Chou’s ‘An Hao’ when his voice became that kiddy voice and we basically freaked out. Even the guy who came in to collect the cups was staring at us cuz he thought we did something to the song. Haha. Apparently it was a glitch, so the other songs were ok. Didn’t know why Jane had to K songs by F.I.R, cuz I swear Faye sings the hardest types of songs. S.H.E songs were peanuts, and I was rolling on the floor when they accidentally K-ed children songs. Lolz.

Friday, October 1, 2004

Beautiful Woman

"Beautiful Woman"

How can I begin to
Tell you what you do to
Me every time I hear ya
More willing to wanna see ya

I know that there's no use in
Tryin' to explain the confusion
But still I'm not complainin'
'Bout my situation

Let's not talk about a Possible ending
The very first time that I
Was lookin' to be your fella I found my inspiration
Hidin' in your expression
So I put myself on forward
For your consideration

[Chorus:] Let's not talk about a Possible ending
Let's not think about it Every day
And I know I'm so In love With you
I'm finding it harder and harder to breath
Every time I'm near A beautiful woman

And so we put the top down
To take you drivin' downtown
I guess we'll know just what to do
When you're lookin' to fool around

It's too late to stop me I know we're gonna get down
A beautiful woman A beautiful woman
A beautiful woman
B is for beautiful as the sunshine
E tells me everything is feelin' alright
A goes to you and me swingin' it down
T is two I want you You've got me actin' like a fool

Finally the new song from BSB after 3 years of hiatus. It will be due to release on US airways on the 4th of October. How cool's that? Just love the guys. Anyway AJ's just had knee surgery so never mind if you see him on crutches. Poor thing.Anyway, tomorrw's the last paper. But i'm going to play myself crazy this weekend so that when i get back my results i won't be so motivated to study that i forget to relax, so why not do it now? Still mourning over my a-math paper. If i'm lucky, i pass; If i'm down, i fail, simple as that. So just wish me luck.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

3 more papers

Just 3 more papers to go before I’m officially free. But the results won’t be exactly what I’ll be looking forward to. Looked back at the papers I’ve done and realized that I’ve made a huge lump of mistakes. Unpardonable, I’ll say. But it’s over so no point crying over spilt milk. Just looking forward to this Friday cuz I’ll get to hang out and relax again.Just wanted to recount what I witnessed. Was taking the bus home, and there weren’t many people on the bus at 11am. There was this ah peh who was probably a little off his rockers, and he was talking to this girl from my school, and I guess she didn’t expect that. So the journey went on for about 10 minutes, with the old guy yakking non-stop about his family and all that (I didn’t understand much of his dialect) and the poor girl was just there, nodding her head and trying to look comprehensive. Then she finally couldn’t take it and went to the upper deck. Lolz… the middle-aged auntie sitting opposite me who saw everything was chuckling, and I couldn’t help breaking into a grin. Ah… life…

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Moony Cakey Festival

Yayun's recent entry in her diary reminded me of last year's 3/10 camp in school. coincidentally, they were holding the Mooncake Festival (back at the old school campus), and the whole calss had to help them stack the chairs and bring it back to the class rooms in Campus 2, all the way up to the top few floors. Lolz.They got around 7 classes worth of chairs so we had to get all that back to the classrooms. Definitely was a good workout there.And of course there was Sec.2, when we all got scolded for running away from the cleaning. lolz...Anyway, sorry to all those whom i had yelled at for the past few days, pretty much because i was so upset about the marks i had lost for my A-math and the difficulties i was facing while studying. Sorry for a very grouchy me. I didn't mean it.The Sims™ 2 is out and i'm damn thrilled. The graphics are cool, the emotions are cool... omg...

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Good luck to all!

The first week of toil is over. For the past 1 week I’ve been forgoing hours of sleep and leisure to mug. Just one week to go and I’ll be free from this thing. For another month, that is.

Had History and A-math today. History was almost a killer. The source-based is ok except for question 1c, where I couldn’t find any similarities at all. The structured was terrible, and that’s all I can say. I’ve already had so much problem getting the information into my head, and I felt as though it was a nightmare trying to pour the information out and organizing it. And I swear I would strangle myself if the 3 marks I didn’t do for A-math cause my mark to drop by one grade.

So now, all I can do is to pray and make sure I don’t kill myself again, cuz I can’t guarantee that I’ll have another life to waste. But for tomorrow, I’ll just be sitting back and relaxing, gearing up for another mugging marathon over the weekends and the following week.

Anyway, just wanna wish all those taking Chinese, Literature and Biology good luck for their papers tomorrow and the day after cuz I won’t be going to school.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Love people around you

Just received a sms from a friend. She lost her brother to leukemia last night. Dunno what to do to comfort her since I’ve never been in her shoes before, but I just wanna let her know that I’ll be there for her no matter what. How unpredictable is life? Today you see a person whom you have no regards for, and he’s gone in a jiffy. Yes, reality’s harsh on us, but we’ve gotta learn to overcome ordeals set for us in life. We’ve gotta cry for things we didn’t treasure, but become stronger after that. I believe that no matter how far a person has gone, as long as your heart stays, his stays too. So do learn to treasure the ones you love and the ones who loves you cuz you never know when they’re gonna leave you. I’ve seen this one in my life, and I’ve learnt from it.

Physics Practical

Managed to get home early cuz there was Physics Practical today and i didn't feel like studying at the CC. Shuwen was a nervous wreck during the Practical. She was banging the stuff all over the place and kept dropping things and gave me that 'save me!' face during the last 5 minutes of the first prac. Relax lah, must be like me... Realised that i was working like a crazy ass for the entire week so i've decided to come back home and catch some sleep.

The little girl who stays just below me loves to play 'Itsy Bitsy Spider' on her recorder and i think that's pretty sweet cuz she plays so well (unlike my sister) and i guess everyone enjoys listening to her.

Jia Ying blew up today cuz i made fun of her and .. ... aiyo no need so petty mah... must be like melah... Always get teased by you people in front of him i also dun care... Already used to it liao... Anyway Check asked me to lend him the Microsoft Office 2003, but he was saying that if i couldn't use it after he used it, he'll pay me back. And i was like,'I think you sell yourself also not enough...' Lolz...

Friday, September 17, 2004

Just trying to get by

Just wanna say a BIG thanks to ACJC+ Shuwen for contributing to my birthday fund. (You rock people!) Anyway, today was a crappy day, cuz we bored most of the day away since most of our lessons were free periods. How I wished I was at home the entire day, since I could do with most revision in the comfort of my own space.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

The sweetest thing... :)

Happy Birthday to me!!! Finally sweet 16! Waited for such a long time for this day, cuz it cuts off some restrictions (no I don’t mean the legal age to watch NC-16 movies)which I’ve been tied to for so long. Thanks everyone for the present. I can open a zoo with all the stuffed toys I got. Thanks for the mere ‘Happy Birthday’ you wished me cuz I wanna let you know that I appreciate even a greetings cuz it means a lot about you. Thanks for the smses I got at 12 this morning and thanks to the ONE who offered me pizza in class today. HE made my day. : )

Anyway, wanna wish everyone who’re taking the Prelims EL Paper tomorrow all the best!

The most beautiful thing in the world is a friend.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

My ambition

Chem Prac today and i was laughing my head off. Comparatively, this was definitely easier than what we had for the Mid-Year exams (hello i scored 8 for mid-year what can i say) and it was less tricky. But i'm definitely gonna hate QA for my entire life cuz 1.I scalded a friend accidentally during a QA lesson, 2.i scalded myself today, 3.i smudged the ink on my exam paper and 4.it just sucks. What can i say? But it's well over and done with so i won't be doing that til the GCE O'Levels. Thanks God.

Finally! I got new guitar strings out of my own pocket and (unfortunately) blew my pocket. But it was finally something ticked off my agenda. I'm currently trying to save money (in vain) to collect guitars. Acoustic, classical, electric (that'll be later on) and even vintage guitars (perhaps when i'm old enough to have that money). My ambition.

Monday, September 13, 2004

Hil rules!

Tomorrow’s the start of the Prelims. I’m not shaking, not yet. I’m just planning to go with the flow, make sure I get the facts right and basically stay cool cuz I guess it’s no use panicking over an exam. Pretty much satisfied about the amount I did until this point of time, and let’s just hope that I don’t slack further to run behind time. Wish me luck.

Holy shit for me, cuz I blew my handphone bill. Thank God Mum doesn’t know anything or she’ll be breathing down my neck again. Dad’s quite neutral about this, cuz I ain’t the only one who blows the bill at home. The only exception’s that my Dad’s company pays his bills for him. This is so unfair.

It’s nearly sweet 16 for me in another 2 days time, though I’m not exactly looking forward to it, for the fact that it sits comfortably in the middle of my exam, and that totally kills the fun. I hope this is the last time I’m gonna celebrate my birthday in this fashion.

Dug out all my past magazines just to read about Hilary Duff and Chad Michael Murray. Chad’s totally cute, but Hilary’s just became my new idol. She’s just the sweetest person in the world.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Bursting out

Mum and Dad took leave yesterday just to bring me out to get something for my birthday. Got a treat at Tony Roma’s, a new pink purse and a movie treat to watch Cinderella Story. How cool’s that? And I just wanna say that Chad is soooooo cute!!!

Went to school for Physics today. Mrs Chang released us half and hour earlier so Conrad, Xiling and I decided to play Speed in the canteen. The snack stall auntie asked me to help her write ‘Chicken Porridge’ as a notice and was rewarded a bowl of chicken porridge. Now, how cool’s that? Anyway, the Prelims are just around to corner so I’m totally gearing up for another burst of energy to study. Wish me luck.

Thursday, September 9, 2004

Study study study

Thanks for the comments, Pin. But i'm currently too tied up to bother about the lovey-dovey stuff right now. Woke up this morning and all the examination dates just came pouring into my head and it really scares me. So i guess it's safer to invest my time in studying than to think up of ways to chat HIM up. Besides, HE's such a pain in the ass.

Wednesday, September 8, 2004

Crazed...once more

Chemistry was sheer torture today. The air-conditioner was terribly cold and most of us were freezing to death. As usual, Mrs Siew dragged on for almost an hour and she insisted that she only took half and hour.

Signed up for membership at Yuhua CC just to use the study room. I guess it’s worth the $15 after all. The study room’s pretty spacious, plenty of bright lights and it’s darn quiet in there. Met my ‘long-lost’ primary school friend Hao Yi there. He looked as surprised to see me there as I am seeing him there. Lolz… And there are plenty of okok-looking guys there (you can ask xiling-now I know why she doesn’t crush on school guys). The whole spectacle was plain hilarious, if you’d ask me. There are primary school kids(from my primary school) blowing gum balloons there, the constant ruffling of tidbit packs and sniffs here and there from the air-conditioner. Definitely a place I wanna spend my quiet afternoon at.

I find it extremely disturbing to realize that a conversation between me and HIM doesn’t last longer than 1 minute. Yes, it’s pathetic. I don’t know if we’ve grown to fear each other, but talking face-to-face just isn’t our fort for each other. On the brighter side, HIS smses never fail to cheer me up. Haha. I’m driven crazy.

Sunday, September 5, 2004

Birthday wish

Same old boring Sunday, except the fact that it marks the last week before the Prelims. Yes, I’m getting the jitters, but no, I’m not intimidated. At least I’m starting, you know.

Dad was going through a class list I kept in my A-math textbook and he was trying to guess the dialect groups of them by their surnames. He said that Lees(like us) are Cantonese and all that. Then he came to Tong Loong, who has ‘Teo’ as his sur, and my dad says that he’s a ‘ke’(a Hakka), and my dumbass sister was like, ‘Cake? What cake?’ ….

Time flies and I’m happily counting down to my birthday. I’ve decided to get something special for myself this year, since I’m 16 and all grown-up(urm, not quite, actually). Like? A guitar. For the past 2 years I’ve been playing my aunt’s very vintage guitar and have acquired more than just a few scratches for her. So I’ve decided to get one for myself instead of using hers. I’ve been checking out one at the Music Lodge, which cost a pretty hefty $280 for a guitar, but it’s going to be mine at all costs. Wish me luck.

Saturday, September 4, 2004

Nightmares

Start of the holidays=start of a terrible time. The Prelims are like2 weeks away and i haven't done any revision. Wish me all the best.

Anyway, today was ultimately boring, and it would be if worse if we actually stayed back for Chemistry lessons.

Anyway the school had to book a ballroom for our grad night by today so they asked us to make a decision toay. We were choosing between Hilton and Le Meridian, but we got the worst news that Hilton dinner is fully booked. Shucks. And the thing was they were pushing us for high tea instead of dinner. Helo? grad nite is grad nite, not grad afternoon. I can't believe it. Anyway the class stood firm on dinner, and the guys even went to the extent of going class to class, trying to persuading the other classes to opt for dinner instead. Not sure if it worked, but it definitely got Mdm Sia pissed cuz their discussion with Ms Wassan ate into her lesson. Aiyah...

Was taking 198 home today when there was this guy who came on the bus smelling as though he just ran 2.4km. Pooh... I almost wanted to die but the seats were occupied and i couldn't find somewhere else to stand. Can't imagine if he had sat besides me... Pls guys, if you know that you have BO, god damn it use deodourant!!!

Wednesday, September 1, 2004

Happy Teachers' Day...not

This year’s Teachers’ Day celebration really sucked. I pity the teachers, cuz I guess this is probably the worst Teachers’ Day celebrations they ever had.

Teachers’ Day will probably be the day I fear most every year, and especially this past 2 years as a chairman. But thank God, it’s over, so I have no more projects to ponder in for the next few months.

Had English in the morning and the guys 'serenaded' Ms Leong & Mrs Chang with a song by Hoobastank. Then we had a chat with Mrs Chang and found out that *gasps* she's going to the US at the end of the year. Or is she moving there? Anyway, we were pretty saddened by that fact. Mrs Cang is a really good teacher and i want her to know that.

Anyway, as usual, our class took part in the inter-class Captain’s Ball competition and came in first. Thanks people.

Before that, I’ve had plans to go study with Xiling at the CC this afternoon after school, but Jane asked me to go out. So I bang seh Xiling. Then the girls proposed a class outing for lunch, so I bang seh Jane. But in the end everyone was going back to primary school so I decided to go out with Jane in the end. So messy…

Got earrings at Aries, MORE Harry Potter stickers and was laughing myself crazy with Jane at IMM.

HE may be reading this right now. Or not. I don’t care anymore. I’m too busy to worry about whether HE knows or not. I’m too tired. But good job at Captain’s ball today.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Blow-by-blow account of Rugby Carnival

Thank God it’s Friday. Anyway, I haven’t reported on yesterday’s rugby match, and I’m dying to pour out all the juicy and scandalous info.

The girls were supposed to match 4/3, 4/1 and 4/8 yesterday, but we only got to play the first 2 classes. Won both, of course, thanks to everyone on the team. Mrs Chang played too, so we got to give credit to her, cuz she picked up the game quite quickly and was a great help to us.
The 4/3 match was tricky cuz their defence was really good and strong, although they were a little small on the scale (as compared to me). But they played well, and they deserve applause. But wait, cuz on the sportsmanship side, they clearly, urm, lost out. Pls, people, if you wanna say “Excuse me!” even after we cheered for you, it isn’t a very good reflection of your character.

Playing against 4/1 was pretty okay, but they were obviously trained more on their punting than their passing. Bad choice, I’d say, cuz this is about running, not firing an empty kick at the ball. I, however, find their captain, Ms Meili quite interesting. Whenever we’re back to the start of a game, she’ll yell “Never mind people, we can do it one!” I swear I added a few more words to that.

So, We have another game on Monday and the finals on Tuesday, so how about if we bring home a nice title for the class? Never forget the guys and their “Oleh Oleh” theme, cuz it cheered us on, and the besides that they played well too.

Went shopping for Teachers’ Day gifts. I swear that for the rest of my life I want to be a chairman no more. It’s terrible when you’re planning, organizing, deploying, buying, wrapping, deciding and worrying about everything. Lucky the girls are helping me bake the cookies (right, people?) cuz I can cook but I can’t bake.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Stop that shit, you lambastic idiot

I’m thoroughly speechless. I can’t think of anything more to say if no one likes the way I do things. I got yelled in the damn face by a f*cking idiot, saying that I do things at the wrong time. If that person is so great, go do it his way then! I give up! We’re quits!

Monday, August 23, 2004

My new idol: Lee Jiawei

Yesterday, i saw history in the making. It was a heart-wrenching moment, but I guess almost everyone took it quite well, despite the fact that Singapore’s Gold and Silver medal dream is never going to come true this Olympics. Li Jia Wei, Singapore’s only standing table-tennis player this round, had lost narrowly to North Korea’s Kim. A little sad, I’ll say.

I spent my entire Saturday afternoon watching re-runs of the last few Olympic matches, and I spent the whole night watching the scene replaying in my head. Yes, I had cringed and cursed when that gibberish-yelling woman took home a place in the finals, but I had celebrated the fact that Singapore was able to clinch a position in the last ones standing.

I know people will think I’m nuts for posting such stuff on my diary cuz I’m that kind who’ll only write about what I had for breakfast, lunch and dinner. But I thought it through the entire time after that crucial match, and I reckon that Li Jia Wei deserves this recognition.

Despite being born in China, she was willing to give up that yellow and red passport for a Singapore passport, and even help Singapore squeeze into the Olympics, naming herself 4th in the world of table-tennis. For this fact I truly admire her just for who she is.

Yesterday had been the first time I’d ever sat in front of the TV watching a table-tennis match. And I am proud to say that I’m watching a Singaporean on international TV, fighting for Singapore.

Today, Jia Wei will be battling against South Korea’s Kim for the bronze medal. I hope yesterday’s match outcome had not dampen her spirits, but instead, gave her a stronger will to fight it out.

All the best, Jia Wei.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Common test finally over!

Great I'm really back. My computer's finally working fine, and I'm glad it did at the time i needed it most. Phew. Anyway the Common Test is just over today and boy, does it call for a celebration! Played snap for the first time after school today and was screaming my head off at the others who were playing. The cards just kept piling onto my pile and i was feeling a little groggy from that. The weather added on to this tragic scenario. Anyway the comp's finally working so i've got nothing to complain about.

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Yay I'm back!

Thank God ok I’m at home, using MS Word to type my entry first while waiting for my retarded computer to load diaryland. Even with my new computer I have to wait and wait and wait cuz I’m using a pathetic 56K modem. And this is driving me nuts cuz even with my old PC (how I miss it) I could get onto any website within seconds… And now I have to wait for yonks before they display the ‘Page not found’ shit. Aiyo… My parents refuse to get broadband cuz they say that ‘you don’t need that much right? Anyway broadband is very expensive you know….’ Dadadadadadadadadadada… What the hell… Anyway I’m just starting to get used to this stupid computer which I have no idea how to work at all, but I still miss my old computer cuz I’ve got tons of stuff inside there and I’m just starting to regret the fact that I didn’t store all my stuff for back-up.

Common Test has just started today, and I’m already getting tired of studying and studying. But I really wanna get into JC and then to Uni and get to do what I really like.

Anyway Chengyi told me about this article written by a member of the public about ‘Nanhua students caught in the act’. I read the article, and both the writer and the students disgusted me. Firstly, the writer is plainly making a fool of himself by kicking up such a great fuss about kissing public. Not that I encourage that, but the writer sounded as though he/she was so monk/nun trying to tell little kids not to play in the playground in case they trip and fall. And the author seemed keen on exposing the identities of these students by mentioning that ‘students should have their names sewn on their uniforms…’. Sadistic, ain’t that? This is an open society, and young people (like us) are out of control. The more you try to grasp their reins, the greater the desire to escape. Of course, this article has invited a couple of aggressive shout-outs from the public.

The students also de… Why let the whole world know you dating huh? Of course I’m not trying to say that they can’t date, but why go to a place where you give the public a chance to scrutinize your behavior? Go somewhere ulu lah… And pls don’t wear your school uniform next time… so shameful…

Monday, July 19, 2004

Worst MOnday in my life

This week is damn hectic. It's only Monday and I got scolded by Mrs Chang in the 2nd period of the day cuz I didn't do the Physics assignment (oops). English wasn't better, cuz the whole class was scolded because nearly no one handed in their newspaper articles. Looks like I'm doomed for homework this week. Damn. Then during Math Mrs Wong scolded the class again cuz not everyone handed in their exercise books. So basically the class gets scolded everyday, for anything. And I'll bet my head that 4/10's gonna be announced as one of the dirtiest classes tomorrow at flag-raising. Til then, I'll just shrug and blame myself.

Was playing Dai-Dee with Conrad and co. when he nudged me and say that it was hard to win with the set of cards I had. The next moment, yinghui and shuwen were giggling their heads off. Anyway, I just picked up Dai-Dee and I thought it's a damn boring game.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Homework

Feeling a little bored since it's Monday, and I guess that's what you call ''Monday Blues''. Anyway, things are coming up real fast, probably at the speed that I want (which is kinda good), so I'm just taking it in my stride. Going real crazy over Harry Potter and the cast. Haha that's just me…

Damn pissed with my mum yesterday. She just had to go all out to piss me off, like she always does. Haiz…

We're talking (after a week or so) and I'm so chuffed. Ha… I guess I'm too sensitive and I can't help freaking out whenever the chance arises.

Was viewing some of the class photos in the computer lab during CME today. Couldn't believe that I was such a dork at 15. The other guys, too.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Inter-unit campfire

The inter-unit campfire was memorable. Lolz. Rushed home after school just to change and come out again. Wore my own jeans but realised that I looked like a total dork at the bus stop. Lucky I brought along another pair or jeans, so it wasn't that bad. Rehearsed own item for the campfire (Yvonne Mdm was a little put off by the line in our song where it went like this -''No more officers to scream into our heads.'') Had a buffet before the campfire, where me and Jane were talking about Ms Yeo the moment she stepped into the canteen.

Jane: (imitating Ms Yeo) Aiyo the food so oily! But I like.

Lolz. I laughed my head off. Anyway, the campfire was interrupted by a sudden downpour so all of us had to move to the hall, where we had ''candle-fire'' instead. Lolz. The idea was innovative, but it did not stop Mr Foo from worrying that we were going to burn holes in his hall. We then did the Friendship Dance (the NCC guys were soooooo naïve) and 'Peace like a River'. It was cool. Then we proceeded to the canteen to cut the cakes for each individual CCA. I had to leave then cuz my dad was swearing over the phone when I called him. Lolz. But it was enjoyable… …

Tuesday, July 6, 2004

One week away... I'm behind time

Haven't been online for the past one week, so I definitely need to update. Had Chinese O' Levels Oral on Thursday. It wasn't hard, but at the same time it wasn't easy keeping stable cuz I was stuttering and stumbling over my words cuz I was so anxious. Thank God it was over.

On Friday it was St. John Day. The whole thing wasn't such a great affair this year, apart from the teases Alana and I got from stupid people who were criticizing our very-lowly ranks. The Promotion Parade was definitely a turning point.

On Saturday morning was the Chinese O' Levels Listening Comprehension. Some of it was tricky, no doubt, though I thought I did ok in it. Following that, ACJC and I went to Clara's house before the Flashcard thing. Particularly liked her PC cuz it was fast (as compared to my 56k-crawling comp) and so it made gameplay great. We took a few photos before leaving for school. The so-called buffet was prepared by the canteen vendors and it was ok except for the very-oily food. Eek. We reached the stadium at 2++pm, waited til about 4++pm before the SYF event started. For the first time yesterday, we saw our own flashcard display and it was just beautiful. And as expected, Tanjong Katong Sec. Military Band won Band of the Year. Great job. Dismissed from the stadium only at around 7++pm. The Sec 2 class which shared the bus with us was making such a huge din that the bus driver seemed a little bu shuang, in addition to the traffic jam which we were caught in. Clara was telling us about her friend making a prank call to one of his teachers to sell prata. It was hilarious.

Went to West Coast Park just yesterday. Wasn't really concerned about playing there cuz I still remember the amount of math I have to do.

Sunday, June 27, 2004

Losing grip

The hike today was okay, except for the frequent hang-ups and all that. The Naval Base people seemed a little bored about the programmes organised. Whatever... if they wanna come hike with us, then accept it. James Tan wasn't there. And yes, i'm thoroughly disappointed. Cuz i didn't bother to take a better look at him after 6++ months, and now at this moment, i'm totally regretting it. Bah... Anyway i wasn't spared from all the rubbish either, but it wasn't that bad. Anyway, i know i won't see that guy again, so i'll like to wish him (and his very-lucky girlfriend if she exists)all the best. See i'm so nice...

James' over, so now it's back to school, on yet another guy. i've been thinking for a fairly long time about it, and i've come to the conclusion that i'm going to give him up slowly, cuz if i do it at one go i'm going to end up losing my life. So it's gonna happen very very gradually, and hopefully it's gonna work. i've lost hope.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

James, James, James... hahahahaha

Am i disappointed? Yes i am. Am i glad? Yes i am. Am i angry? Yes i am. Why am i disappointed? Cuz James Tan of Naval Base Sec is attached. Why am i glad? Cuz James Tan of Naval Base Sec is attached. Why am i angry? Cuz James Tan of Naval Base Sec is attached and still those stuff is flying around. I'm a big fat loser i know; i don't fight for my rights, i don't fight for myself. I fight for other people to make them happy. I fight for others so they don't come and bother me. So i have been the big loser all this while. Esp. in this field, i'm hopeless. Til now, i can still like someone for near to 2 years and not tell him about it. Til now i found James Tan of Naval Base Sec cute for 2 years and not tell him about it. Anyway, i shouldn't say so much in case people get big-headed.


Saw James Tan of Naval Base Sec in school today. Apparently their very small corps came over to paint their flags for the hike tomorrow. Stupid Brandon kept teasing me about him and i was damn furious. I swear the next time he tease me i'm going to slap him. i don't give a damn even if he's my fellow squad mate. He don't respect my rights, i don't give him respect too. This is life. Frankly speaking, he's still very cute!!!!!!!! Ok lah... Dunno who said,"He where got hao kan?" Whatever... But he's attached, so i shall not stay in that spot forever... But he's cute lah, hor?

Friday, June 25, 2004

SYF flashcard

Went for a haircut today. My hair is like... Anyway, the main point today was that i got kicked on the ass... by myself. Mrs Wong called at 1 pm and asked me to report at the National stadium. And i was like,"Damn it!" Apparently she said that "it was irresponsible of me to do this" and that "i may as well finish off with the whole event once and for all". i didn't attend the last session, so even if i attend this session i still won't get any points. What the shit. And shuwen and Clara could escape this, so why couldn't i? Damn it... Anyway when i rushed there on a taxi which cost me $15++, the rehearsal haven't started and i had to squeeze with the other sec 3s whom i don't even know... I was so emotionally stressed the whole time, i didn't eat or drink, and just stared plainly into space. Anyway, NX asked Hong ying to pass me this choker she got from the US. Very nice, but... i don't know. i feel as though we're worlds apart. I know she's trying hard to revive the friendship, and i'm trying to forget...

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Potter craze

Feeling chuffed ever since yesterday. Watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban twice and I still wanna watch it on VCD. Crazy over the show. Daniel Radcliffe and Rupert Grint has grown much older and cuter while Emma Watson's probably the prettiest girl in the whole world. OMG... I'm so damn crazy...

Anyway, i'm not planning to go for flashcard anymore since i think it's a big waste of time and i think i'll have enough points to scrap thru an A la... Looking forward to school re-open cuz the first friday is... St.John Day!!! Really looking forward to it... Aiyo...

Had a real funny dream last night. dreamt of everyone in class, dreaming of netball, badminton, chem prac and ... math lessons. Aiyo... this shows how much i 'miss' school. So much that it's beginning to haunt me.

Friday, June 11, 2004

Happy-go-lucky me

Had SJAB today. Basically we were asked to fill up a form for our achievements and all that. Then for the rest of the remaining hours we were slacking and slacking and slacking. Me, Brandon, Aileen and Belinda did some observations on the Sec. 3s and all that. Spent the rest of the time watching NH bball team play with Queenstown and New town Sec.

Rena kept pestering me to go to the bbq. I didn't want to go cuz 1.) I don't wanna sia sueh myself and 2.) I have tons and tons and tons of work to do. If the reason to go to the bbq is to see James Tan of Naval Base Sec then I have plenty of reason to go see Check play billiards instead. Of, course, I'm " a little sad" to hear some stuff, it's not the end of the world, right? James is not everything, cuz there'll always be someone else, right Felz? (U know what I mean, don't you?) But of cuz, I'm definitely going to the hike. Hehe.

Guess I won't be seeing HIM for the whole holiday. Feeling sick just after 3 days after the last meeting, so I can't imagine how dead I can be by the end of the holidays.

Monday, June 7, 2004

Freak

Ning's got Mum all pissed, now she wouldn't even talk to me. Not even me. Well I guess that was the last straw, though Ning doesn't give a damn about it. She thinks that everyone in the world owes her their life. She just refuses to budge despite risking the chance of eating 'sugercane'. She's the biggest bitch I've ever seen in my life, and she's still unrepentent. Channel 5 showed Harry Potter & the Sorcerer's Stone and it was bloody brilliant. Harry's cute in the Sorcerer's Stone, but he's even cuter in the Prisoner of Azkaban. There's this GCE O'Levels English Course @ the Singapore Power Auditorium tomorrow and I'm totally looking forward to it. I'm definitely expecting an A1 of my EL. Anyway, I finally went to the newly-renovated JE library. It now stands at 4 storeys high with a basement, a café and a jazz band. And it's damn cool, cuz it has a centre stage for jazz band performances, a DJ booth, listening booths and the latest CDs. I swear I'm gonna go there every week.

Anyway, there was SJAB on Saturday but it was pretty boring, except the fact that we had Crime Prevention course by the NPCC. But still, it was pretty boring. Then the good thing is that the hike's been finalised and it's gonna be on the 26th of June. Yay!!! (James!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Boy Alert!!!!!!) Saw Jie and her junior walking to the bus stop, followed by YX. I 'm not sure what's going on, and I'm also not interested to meddle with other people's affairs, but if she ever needs a shoulder to cry on I'll always be here.

A friend(whom I do not wish to identify ) asked me if he could zhui qiu me. I don't know if it was a big fat joke or what, but I was damn shocked. He was pestering me the whole time on Friday on who I liked and all that but I just wouldn't tell him. Freak.

Saturday, June 5, 2004

Math and Chemistry lessons

Today was pretty fine. Went to JEC to celebrate HY's birthday, but had to leave early cuz i had lessons at 10. At first i was dreading the Math lesson cuz it would be 2 hours of monotonous mumbling of Mrs Wong, but it turned out surprisingly relaxing. We had a 2 hour break before

Chemistry lessons so me and Jiaqi went with some of the guys in class to Ginza Mac's for lunch. Weiming initially wanted to go play billards with Chee Hsiang but he got bang seh so he had lunch with us instead. Then he came to look for Weiming at 1 cuz they had a dental appointment, and he was munching on our fries. And a warning for those who are eager to try Mac's Cheeseburger Deluxe, DON'T. it sucks. Thank God he finished up the yucky stuff for me... Then Weiming was talking about how much he hated Tong Loong and all that. lolz... Chemistry is slack with Mdm Sabrina, and there were some who turned up when we were about to be dismissed. lolz. Jokers... Now i'm just sitting at home, waiting for death to claim me during Math tuition.

Wednesday, June 2, 2004

End of May, Start of June

I survived this miraculous day. The narrative writing workshop was interesting with Mrs Howard, but i can't say the same for Mdm Sia's summary workshop. I swear i could have fallen asleep if not for Clement's constant chattering...

The whole world's asking me to tell him about my feelings, but i just can't bring myself to do it... It means too much to me, and i just can't let go like that. How i wish he can just come here and read it all for himself...

Tuesday, June 1, 2004

Chinese O Levels over!

The Chinese O Levels are finally over!!! To think i actually slogged my guts out for this paper, it was not as hard as i thought. Paper 1 was tricky, but i eased pass Paper 2. Came home straight away cuz no one asked me out (how sad *sniff*). And so far all i did after coming home at 1pm til now was eat my lunch and watch TV. How meaningless... I realised that everytime there's an exam i can hardly breathe but once everything's over, i could breathe so easily i could hyperventilate. Pin and the gals asked me for dinner at Sakae Sushi but i just couldn't be bothered to step out of home. Besides, I'm saving for a movie marathon next week. Sorry gals...

It was so scary testerday, cuz i suddenly broke down before dinner and was wailing like shit in the toilet. Mum and Dad didn't find out cuz it was normal for my eyes to be red since i have dry eyes. Haiz... Scared myself to death. Can't relax much cuz i'll still have to go to school tomorrow... Haiz...

Was chatting over sms with Clara and she was asking me to go tell him that i like him for the umpteenth time. I don't know, cuz we seldom talk except for the occasional sms, and i guess i'll be scaring him away...

Friday, May 28, 2004

Cinderella

Life sucks til now for me. It's less than 4 days before the Chinese O'Levels and I'm still slacking online... courting my own death... Haiz... Just not in the mood to study. The stupid Chinese

Department planned a sucky timetable for our revision this week cuz we have revision in the morning for 3 hours before going on with other subjects (mostly Math) for the other half of the day. I'm not grumbling; my other friends are becoming crankier and crankier, but i don't know if it's due to the exam stress.

Life's still ok though. It's good with him, at least. Haha... And he's more sociable these days so i guess it was easier communicating with him the past few days.

Monday, May 17, 2004

Exams over!

Finally have the time to come online to update my diary. Broke my last record of staying offline for 6 days. Guess i can't do without my computer. Anyway, the Miad-Year is almost over, and i believe i'm going to suck at it. Quite disappointed with myself cuz i thought that i was going to work hard for my papers, but in the end i choked when i saw the quetions. Haha... Just my luck...

Anyway I'm damn excited, cuz i finally found the site to The Mysterious Play, all thanks to YY's diary. I've been trying to look for the story ever since i started watching it... So damn cool...

Going to Far East tml to look for whatever stuff i wanna buy. But the thing is, i'm broke, and that's the worst situation for anyone whose exams are over. Shucks.

Saturday, May 8, 2004

Is it ending?

First Paper today. Chinese was ok, except i think i sucked at the first part. Then for Math again i missed out on alot of stuff.

I dunno if he's angry with me, but he ain't talking to me ever since that stupid thing happened. Ok, i guess it was all my fault, but i can't believe he's so petty. I've been laughing myself silly the past 2 days to suppress the hard feelings inside me. I guess, that is it.

Saturday, May 1, 2004

Chem Prac

Time, look where we are and what we've been through. Time, sharing our dreams. Time, goes on and on every day. Time is what it is, come what may…

Chemistry Practical today, and I can only rejoice over the definite grade I will get: fail. That's what's on everyone's mind after the exam. I was pretty pissed by the Practical at first, cuz I didn't understand the first table where we have to fill in the time/second and 1000/s-1, and I totally didn't figure it out until I conked my head and realised it was simply 1000 divided by the time I obtained. F***k. Then my bench became so very messy and I got frustrated working on a messy bench. By the time I moved on to QA I was down to half an hour so I was rushing like mad. The first experiment required us to test for the gas emitted after heating and I tested it with red and blue litmus paper but there was no change. So I tried with limewater and ended up pouring limewater all over myself and my question paper. I tried with a glowing and burning splint but nothing happened. I wanted to kill myself then. After scrambling through the few experiments there was this question to get us to test for whatever… I told myself to prepare for the worst. Then I realised I didn't draw my graph for VA and I didn't have a ruler nor pencil. Haha… I laughed it off. But the worst was that since we were the last shift we had to clear EVERYTHING from the bench. And I got damn frustrated and irritated cuz the stupid male teacher keeps yelling at us and that. Thank God we're gonna do another practical a long time from now.

Didn't talk to him today, cuz I just wasn't in the mood. He didn't talk to me as well, so I guess it's equal. And I got really jealous these few days because of something not worth getting jealous about, but I guess every girl feels it when the boy talks to another gal. But again, I have no right to get jealous at all so I'll just have to keep it here in my heart. But now if anyone asks me if I really treasure him, I'll say yes.

Thursday, April 29, 2004

NAPFA test

Had NAPFA test today. Managed to pass all, but my standing broad jump's like shit. Haiz… Wasn't feeling anxious at all and didn't have that thump, thump feeling in my chest, but I wasn't motivated at all. Haiz… I guess I know the reason why. Had a water fight with Xiling in class and got scolded childish and wang ba dan by Tong Loong… Well, I can't help but say that his chinese vocabulary is so limited…

CME test tomorrow, but please, tell me who would study for that. I rather concentrate on my Chemistry practical, cuz I have absolutely no idea how to identify cations and anions and chemical calculations. Please tell me I suck.

Saturday, April 24, 2004

Me, the cat and I

E Math test was okay, except the last part of the last question was tricky. Chemistry practical was a nightmare, and I wouldn't imagine whatever which happened to me just now might just happen on the day of the Mid Year Practical test. Broke a measuring cylinder and was laughing about it. Lolz. Was raining after school.Is this really fate? I dun wish to know. In the end I became the idiot who was pacing round the pillars of the block just opposite the school for half an hour, looking at the stupid cat which was crouching between the bicycle tyres. Even the ice-cream man left the place before I did. Then those people with umbrellas basically walked past me like I'm a moron or what. Totally pissed. And though I'm home now, clean and dry, I'll still have to mug for the History test on Stalin tomorrow. Thank God, it's a source based, so I guess I dun have to study that hard. Absolutely looking forward to the Archery course tomorrow. Yay!!! And of course, meeting HIM again.

Friday, April 23, 2004

quite playing games with my heart

Haven't been writing in my diary for almost a week. Just 2 weeks left to the exams. And i haven't done a bit of revision. But aiming to score at least 3 As.So must jia you. Anyway, i finally passed my 2.4km run with timing of 16.02. What a relief. But Mr Chee still called me for remedial. Such a waste of time. Shaun and company asked me to Lot 1 but i was like "not another joke..." I totally believe that everything is fake. So i left quite unwillingly. It's all fate. Haiz. Waiting for tuition, so i can watch my Meteor Garden 2. So touching... Haiz...

Then the guys came up with a government system for the class. Quite stupid, but it was cute of them to think of such stuff. Lolz.

Friday, April 16, 2004

They gorge their asses with trophies, we nibble at humbleness

Sports Day today. I'm totally speechless to whatever happened, but I'm damn proud of those in class. The guys and gals both did well and I'm so damn proud of them. Haha. Anyway, the whole class was certain that we would get the class champion for B division Boys cuz we won most of the races, but then 4/9 said that they were the class champion. What the hell. So Mrs Chang helped us to check the results. And what the hell we were 2 points behind 4/9. But it was impossible because our class guys won higher honours than the boys of 4/9, and many of them were golds. So we went to verify all our positions for all the races, and found out that Tong Loong was placed in 3rd place for 200m singles when he came in 2nd. And 4/9 was placed 2nd, when they actually came in 4th. I just can't imagine how can one jump 2 places. The worst thing was that the time keepers who were supposed to time our lane wasn't paying attention, so only the position noted by the position keepers for that race is taken into account. Tong Loong said that the moment he finished the race, he was told by one of the position keepers that he was in 2nd place. But when 4/9 came in, he was declared to be in 2nd place and it was written down. So technically we lost by 2 points but Tong Loong was supposed to be in 2nd place. But Mr Chee did nothing to change the result. Even 4/11 agreed that we were in 2nd place. Haiz… So we went to find Mr Chin who was in charge of the time keepers to verify. So he called on all the position keepers and they were visibly in doubt about it. So they said that 4/9 was 2nd. What the hell. How could it be when 1000++ pairs of eyes saw Tong Loong come in 2nd and one pair of eyes said that he was 3rd? Unreasonable… But never mind, let them be champions for all they like, cuz they never were the champions in the first place. So we just laughed it off and enjoyed what we have, and what we know in our hearts we have gotten. The bia song really works, for a matter of fact. It kinda bonded our class. Never seen 4/10 like this before. I think even Mrs Chang and Ms Leong were shocked. Took a lot of pictures after the event, but did not join them for dinner cuz it was getting late. And not to mention Tong Loong made a fool out of himself!!!Three cheers 4/10!!!

Thursday, April 15, 2004

Come and step on me

Haiz... There was 3 periods of Maths today... Got back my test on Loci... expected grade i got. Tomorrow's going to be a busy day, cuz there's the class flag to do, and i have tuition in the night. Every time i have tuition, i'll have nothing to ask. But every time i don't have, tuition, the questions come pouring in. What the heck. Hate the assembly today. Why can't the teachers think of anything better? Plain boring. Haiz. Almost fell asleep. Haiz.

And i can't help but express all the thoughts in me for the past few days. Firstly, i think that no oneappreciates me. No one. I'm not trying to gain self-pity or get called a bitch, but that's just a plain ol' fact, all smacked in your ass. No one appreciates my help, no one bothers to say a thanks after a favour and no one will ever do me a favour. Secondly, The people around me just take things for granted. Take things for granted. They think that EVERYTHING will be done for them. From today onwards, sorry. I'll just do my utmost and i'll leave the rest to rot under you. I'll still remind on class duties, things to hand up, but i'll axe out the possibility of me doing all the duty, me planning for the noticeboard and me carrying the blame for all the shit whoever did. Don't blame me for all that cuz i guess no one really appreciated all the shit the class committee did. So whoever can litter all they like, get scolded for all they like, get 'D' for class cleanliness for all they like, hand up late or never at all for all they like, attitude me for all they like. I'll just sweep it off my shoulders like how they sweep all the dust out of the door rip off my conscience like what was done to my things. Sayonara.

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Happy b-dae Yin

Happy 13th B-dae Yin!!!

Finally opened an account on Friendster and anyone can add me just by adding my e-mail addie.

Got the greatest shock of my life. First, I thought i would fail my history test, but it turned out that i actually scored quite well. Same for SS. Phew. At least can get my this month's progress report with no regrets. Haha.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

I'm the angriest person in the world right now

I, am the angriest person in the world. Yes, dun mess with me or you'll die like shit. From the start of the day, I did the History test like shit. I did not finish the first question nor did I finish the second question. Then Ms Leong sprung a surprise English test right after my 2.4km run. Today was a great achievement for me cuz I actually out-ran myself. Okok, I know it's nothing great. But at least I kept myself running til almost the end. Then got back Chinese test and Clara actually beat me by half a mark. I feel so ashamed I wanted to go long bia. Then after recess that Mdm Sia have to conduct her o-so-boring Social Studies. And she keeps asking us to stay at home and rot and lay eggs and all that shit. I think she will be the one rotting at home if we give up on our O'levels. During Math Mrs Wong gave back our test on Differentiation of Logarithm and as usual I failed. That really killed me. Whatever… Then to add on to all the shit, Mrs Chang gave us a Physics test. That, was the only thing I can be proud of. Cuz I didn't study for the test and yet I could get 17/20, when I usually get a just pass for my normal MCQs. I was brimming til Math Remedial. initially I have no intention of attending the remedial, but I just couldn't bring myself to miss a single session. Just my conscience speaking. Mrs Wong had a talk with me and she said that I was ' working very hard, but working blindly'. I swear at that moment in my head I could feel the fire burning, ready to eat her up. But I said to myself, 'last year liao. Just put up with her.' Ok, whatever. Then my mei's birthday is tomorrow, so I thought that while I could go to Popular to get her present I could drop by CD-RAMA to get my long-awaited S.H.E stationery set. But it's sold out. WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…………

Monday, April 12, 2004

Stupid Sunday

Dunno whether to regret or not. Mum's gone for a dinner with, guess who? Her friend auntie Lucy. And guess what? She's brought along her daughter and Gerald. Gerald!!! OMG. My blood is boiling. Why? Why did i stupidly miss out on this once-in-a-blue-moon chance? God... No one will have any idea how cute that guy is. Omg. I just hate myself.

Anyway it's another Sunday. Boring Sunday. i hate Sundays cuz i can't wake up late the next day and i can't laze in bed til 10am and i can't chuck my homework aside a day longer and damn... i have to go back to school and face some idiotic teachers. Didn't do much today cuz i almost wanted to kill myself yesterday cuz i made an idiot out of myself by going to school at 7.05am when my CCA starts only at 9am. And i slugged my ass of studying for History and found out that it was a source-based test. Pls, someone curse me.

Sunday, April 11, 2004

Attitude

Had SJAB today. Though there was PT, it was pretty fun cuz I haven't done PT ever since the start of the year and I missed out last week's PT cuz I was packing the sick bay and first aid kit. Man, SJAB is fun! And the cute BB guy was in school too so I was pretty chuffed too! I'm mad. Sat through the Sec.1s' first aid lesson and I swear I could have fallen asleep if not for Christina's constant thunderous laughter. She's such a gag bag. HAHA… Then after parade we were teasing Joan about Tong Loong and that. Ha… Had Nursing Course today and the Mdm got quite pissed with some of my juniors who did not grasp a single thing from the previous lessons. Haiz… Attitude…

He attitude me yesterday… Damn it…

Tuesday, April 6, 2004

Morons and electrons

Boring Monday, as usual. For info, I just vowed yesterday at 8.00pm sharp that I will not speak to HIM unnecessarily for 10 whole days. That, was so cruel of me to torture me. But I guess I gotta inject some excitement into my life once in a while. Math remedial was cancelled today(Yay!) cuz Wong had something on. So over the moon. But there's so much work to do. Haiz. And I have planned my study schedule from this week til the week before the Chinese O'levels. So busy, so I have to motivate myself to work even if I'm feeling lousy.

"If electricity comes from electrons, do morality come from morons?"

Friday, April 2, 2004

Happy April Fool's...

Been so busy the past few days that I haven't got the time to update my diary. Thank God the Chemistry test this Saturday is cancelled. At least I don't have to slog til my guts drop. Phew… Anyway although today was April Fools', it became rather unusual that our class wasn't up to any kind of mischief. Well, at least sleeping in Ms Leong's class and getting a yelling from her wasn't that bad afterall. And I'm still damn stressed cuz in 2 weeks' time will be our science practical mid-year paper, and in 1 month's time will be our mid-year paper… damn… And 2 weeks after that will be the Chinese O's… Oh shit… Anyway, this Saturday's gonna be a fun day cuz we are making a salad as part of our Total Defence project… And I'm totally looking forward to that. And I want to extend my congrats to all who ran in the Heats yesterday, you guys did a great job!!!

Sunday, March 28, 2004

Over-sensitive bitch... I hate myself

Okay, so I was wrong. Very wrong. Or you can say that I was being very sensitive. But I guess it's all because I care. Haha… Someone must be thinking I ge si… haha… Whatever. Okay, so case closed. Anyway, had parade today and took the Sec. 1s for drills. Swear I could have erupted into fits on the spot and die of a cardiac arrest. Their drills are atrocious. Not because Yuhui didn't teach them properly, but because they just don't seem to possess the right attitude. Swear the next time I take them, they're going to … ya noe… Haiz…

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Great... He's really avoiding me

He's really avoiding me. Wtf. I dun know how long is this going to last, but I'm sure the days ahead are going to be hard to pass. Damn. What in the world did I do? Or… dun tell me he knows… omg… I dun wish for it to happen, but if he's going to react in the same way as Yu An if he finds out, then I really overlooked him. I dunno… And I dun wanna know. And if he does treat me as a basic friend, why doesn't he even say hi? The longest time which we didn't communicate was 4 days, and this time we broke the record. Ha… I can only laugh and cry.

Today was probably the most stable day in my entire lie. 1.I did the a-math paper without difficulty. 2.I didn't fall asleep during maths. 3.I handed in all the homework I'm supposed to hand in this week. 4.I did whatever I think I should do. Still, I feel terrible. And I guess the reason is obvious. Is it because I didn't talk to him? is it because he's angry with me because of something? is it because I'm too sensitive? is it because he already knows and is avoiding me? . . . . . . . . .

Note: NCC people really need to take their cadets in hand. One NCC girl was apparently annoying the people around her on the bus because she was speaking so loudly and openly about her classmate's crush. What a bitch.

Friday, March 26, 2004

He's avoiding me

Next time, someone remind me not to use white for any of my fonts in here, cuz when i use a white background i see nothing. Thanks.

Something's wrong. something's very wrong. He ain't talking to me for the past few days. Or rather, he's avoiding me. Why? i don't wish to know cuz i know it may hurt me. And i've decided that whether he knows it or not, it doesn't really matter now. it's been 1 year and 12 days, so tell me whether i'm numbed already...

shaun has been irritating me for the past few days instead. Damn... don't wanna say anymore.

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

Stress kills

Did my A-maths test without a calculator. I can now say sayonara to my marks. Haha... Had a haircut today and feeling so shit. Having terrible mental imbalance these few days. i can hardly control my speech and actions. Oh somebody pls save me... found someone with the same diary format as me so i've changed it.

Didn't really speak to him today, except for a few questions he asked. Dunno what is happening, and i guess nothing much will happen.

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

test test test test

Feeling real tired today... almost fell asleep during Maths an SS... Then got scolded by Mrs Wong during remedial... Haiz... sian... Then i was supposed to go to Popular to get stuff but somehow i landed at the market near my house to get a haircut. But ALL the salons were closed. Can you imagine that... I'm currently so very pissed... dunno... Keep getting mood swings these few days... Then just now i was meddling with the html of this page and almost spoilt the whole thing but lucky i had a backup on my PC so i copied it over... haiz... Totally bored to death... There's A Math test tomorrow, chinese oral exam on Wednesday, Chemistry test on Thursday, SS time practice on Saturday... What the shit...

It's been 1 year and 9 days already... Am i dumb or what... I can't ignore my feelings, and i can't kill of the sight of him in my head everyday. dunno what to do... Tong Loong agreed to shut his mouth on this matter, and i trust his cuz he's the vice-chairman after all. Feeling very muddled every time i think of this, but how can i stop myself? I dunno what to do, to say or not to say. Well, i guess it's all up to fate. And clara, you better stop talking so loudly about him in class can? If i lose him the first person i hum tum is you... hehe... just joking lah... But what if i really lost him? I dunno, but the previous time i lost someone i cried 3 nights... haha... then i realised that i cried for the wrong person...haha...

Thursday, March 18, 2004

Chalet 15/3 - 17/3

Just came back from chalet. I wouldn't consider it as a class chalet although more than half the class was there, cuz we just didn’t have the mood for chalet. But since it was the last time we could ever have a chalet this year due to the O levels, we decided to make to with it. Besides we had a one night free from last year's chalet. Why not?

Day 1
Seriously, I wasn't keen on going for this chalet. But on the account of classmates, I decided to do so. We had Physics remedial in the late morning by Mrs Chang, before meeting at Clementi MRT at 2pm. Kah Teng's mum was kind enough to help us book the chalet, so thanks. We reached there, checked in, and found out that the room could house about 10 people at the most, but that night when everyone came, we had 20+ people. I almost laughed till my jaw drop. I guess he would regret it if he knew what we were going to do over the next 2 days. Then I dad came after majority of the people left, either for home or to (some memory missing). But he came at the wrong time cuz the girls (alana, clara, chun pin, jia ying, me; xiling was watching the good show by us) were having a "heated" quarrel with Zhi Rong and Eugene. he looked pretty shocked. haha. Then that night some of them cycled to Changi (for more details on where they went pls refer to them, but I know they encountered sex trade 'girls' and a haunted mansion.)

Day 2
Slept 7 hours on a comfortable bed. Xiling and I each took one draw bed cuz the most of them were either out cycling or playing PS overnight. After breakfast most of us sian diao cuz nothing to do. Then in the afternoon after Xiling left, the guys decided to go to Escape to play, so the gals were in the room. Then about 5 they came back. There weren't many people left now, only 5 gals and 8 guys. We started the quarrel again and this time it turned out being very physical, literally, fighting with pillows and blankets, and the occasional mattress. Though the gals were heavily outnumbered, only the guys suffered casualties, like a crooked pair of specs and ,a serious one, a torn toenail. Ouch.That night people left again and it was down to just 8. Then tong loong came and shaun left. Clara went for a Christian concert at Downtown East so it was down to Alana and I and the boys(Tong Loong, Kah Wee, Kah Teng, Sherman, Yu An. We decided to do something crazy, like smuggling people into Escape since they did not play their fill in the morning cuz they had to queue. At first cuz we didn't have the chop on our hands, but the person actually closed one eye. But it was late and many games had closed. But we did play a few. It was crazy cuz we just finished our dinner and we were playing stuff which threw us into the air, swirled us round and round and stuff which pissed us off(for more details refer to the guy there who tends the kiddy ferris wheel). After we did the superman thingy my dinner as just below my chin, and tong loong and kah wee were just feeling plain sick. After that we went to rent X box games cuz we had a X box in the room. But the games were plain boring… And the whole night guys were borrowing my freshly-charged hp to call their qing ren… haha… And the bad news is, 2 more people has known who he is… Damn…

Day 3
Woke up 7++. Tong Loong was complaing that Kah Wee was talking in his sleep and was mumbling "Cookies…" in his dream… Lolz… The guys played somemore X box before we cleared out at about 10am. Had BK and was talking to Clara on the MRT(for more details pls continue reading : P). Haha…

Loved the chalet… Haiz… so sian though… next time must look for chalet somewhere else, where bike-renting fees are lower and the people are friendlier. ByeZ I'm off to catch up on my sleep…

Sunday, March 14, 2004

FDC 2004

Yesterday was the FDC. Pretty excited yesterday. Thought that all the CCAs did well. Of course, i was anticipating getting the GOH. But who took it? NCC. Big deal. Most of the CCAs (except NCC) thought that the main judge in yellow was biased, but if he was biased, he would have given most of the awards to the NPCC (cuz the judge is from NP HQ). This really showed that the NPCC did well. Congrats. I've got nothing to say about the Guides, maybe just that they didn't have enough practice and experience. No offence there, though. The big deal thing was that NCC won the GOH for the second time in a row, and the other uniformed groups are pretty anxious, cuz if the NCC wins again next year, they'll win the Challenge Trophy. And that's a VERY big deal. So here, I'm appealing to ALL uniformed groups (other than the NCC) to work hard to prove ourselves. Otherwise, i guess you know what happens when someone wins too many times. Haha... Then today during parade we watched the replayed footage of the FDC squad. And they looked better than ever... Every teacher who saw the footage was wondering why we didn't win. Lolz... Actually today most of us were quite low-morale, but then after watching the footage, we were feeling at the top of the world. And no amount of critisizes from anyone can dampen our spirits... SJAB rules... haha... Well, ANY uniformed group rules if their cadets are well-behaved, polite and unproud.

And hereby, I pledge that if SJAB wins the GOH next year, I'll join the OTC straightaway.

Friday, March 12, 2004

I knew I was the biggest loser from the start

Feeling ol' rotten... feel as if i've been rotting ever since the start of time... nothing's gonna change... I hate myself.

Today's officially the 1 year... 1 year of wait, 1 year of never-ending... Haiz... It's unfair lah... but why would God want to be fair to such an idiotic person like me? What a joke...

Sunday, February 29, 2004

I'm a selfish person

So sianz today... Had to wake up early in the morning just to go to school for time practice for 1 hour. Then I guess I PMS so was feeling so damn sucky... No one to play with today so damn sian... somemore later got guitar class... Lucky it's the last lesson... It's not that i hate guitar lessons but it's pretty irritating when you can actually spend the afternoon sleeping instead of hurrying to go for guitar class.

Went to play badminton at Yuhua CC with Xiling, Hongsheng, Weilong, Deric and Ningxin. Then at 5++pm NX's mum kept calling me on my hp while we were still at the CC to ask about NX and NX ask me to tell her that she has left the CC already. And the thing is that her ma come and KP me cuz she say i'm NX's friend and all that shit. And NX refuses to pick her ma's call so her ma kept calling me. What attitude is that lorz? I don't do that to my parents. Then at 6 pm her ma call and KP me again so i ask NX to go home but she give some shit excuse that she doesn't know how to go home. So i ask her to take the 334 to the interchange and take an MRT home. But when i cross the overhead bridge she followed also so i ask her what is she doing and she say that she dunno how to go home. But i already told her... What does she expect me to do? Escort her home? Then when my bus came and i was flagging the bus she started crying at the bus stop and say that she dunno how to go home. So i ask her to cross back the overhead bridge and take 334. Then she cried even more. I can't be bothered... Can you tahan??? Then Xiling msg me at night and aske dme what happened cuz NX walked back to the CC after that. So i related the whole incident to her lorz... I cannot stand her lorz... It's not the first time she's done this, and i don't like the fact that she is using me as a shield against her mother. I hate it. I admit it openly, I'm a selfish person, and i only appreciate people who appreciates me, and although i'm soft-hearted, I cannot stand people like her cuz after all i'm someone with dignity and i 'm not her boyfriend who always has to tolerate her behavior. That's it. I quit.

Friday, February 27, 2004

Rwed Lowwy Yeyyow Lowwy

The Common Test's finally over... Looking back, I almost died along the way... haha... Anyway, I was supposed to go play bball at this time but i'm sitting here cuz my bball kakis all pangseh me... so bad... But can't blame them cuz they still having exam... So relaxed... And the O Levels results will be released tomorrow... means that all the Sec 4s last year will be coming back... Means QingRui coming back!!! Anyway i'm not excited lah... Got him enuff liao... haha... Then today Chengyi a little guo fen cuz he kept saying me and Shaun. Like, what have i got to do with Shaun? I don't like him, and he's a good friend. And i believe all the runours are fake, cuz i trust my classmate.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Cross Country 2004

Today was the cross-country. Haha... Didn't get to do duty this year so i had to run instead. The route was ok, except my foot was hurting because of the uneven terrain of the path. Then there were a couple of slopes here and there. Overall it was ok lah. Then when i got back to the end point, i was shocked. It was a good shock. Alana's 5th, Jiaying 6th, Chun pin 9th, Shuwen 14th, Clara 18th. Haha... The boys had tough competition so it's understandable that it's hard to get into the top 10, or 20. But the thing was, David was running in first place all the time, and even overtook me during the route, but he wasn't first. Cuz the IDIOT marshalls dunno how to lead him to the correct route, and instead of running 4.8km, he ran all around the golf course, which was 7km... What a waste...

Ok i was supposed to post this yesterday but i forgot so i'm going to post it now. Yesterday while i was walking down the stairs for recess, I noticed something real bright and glaring diverting my attention. Guess what? It was Tong Loong's bright orange underwear!!! I didn't mean to go notice his ass, but what can you do if you see a person with an ass like a light bulb?

There's parade tomorrow so i'm going to knock off now and go to sleep. Shut up.

Friday, February 20, 2004

1 day to Cross Country

The Cross-Country's tomorrow. Am i looking forward to it? No, cuz i'm running this year. I looked forward to it last year cuz i didn't have to run but don't look forward to this year's cuz i have to run... What a load of shit...

Anyway today began with Shaun's birthday. So what if it's his birthday? I merely sent him an mms to wish him happy birthday (like i do to everyone) and it got around the class as a point that i like him... god... What a load of shit... Then during Chemistry Mrs Siew was trying to throw me out of the window, and somehow got me unvolunteerily involved with Sherman... She siao already... Didn't take her medicine today... Then i just got very pissed the whole day... she ruined my day and she shall pay for it on prom night...

Thursday, February 19, 2004

My Love Patzzi

Mr Foo gave the assembly talk today and people were passing him notes with questions and i was like........ Dunno what to say, but he's a good principal... Anyway, I've started watching the vcd for the Korean show My Love Patzzi and i'm totally addicted to it. I caught a few episodes of it on tv before it ended and I just wanna know what actually happened... Very touching... And it got real embarrassing when i was crying during the show and my sister came in and thought i siao...And the 2 male actors very cute... Haiz...

Just counting, I think i've crushed on him for ALMOST A YEAR... Unbelievable... i still don't see what i like about him... haha...

Friday, February 13, 2004

2 Days to Valentine's

Chemistry test is going to be a sure flunk. And I still have to face up to the remaining 5 hours of the day: 5-7pm -->tuition homework, 7.45pm- 9.45pm --> Tution, 9.45pm- whoever knows what time--> study for Chinese spelling tml and Chinese test on Saturday. So I guess my entries are going to get lesser and lesser and then till I don't post anymore. That's sad.

I hate my life. No matter how hard I study for all my tests of how much I do for a project I always get the bare minimum marks only, and I'm so sick of that. I've tried studying harder or doing more work, but nothing seems to help. And I guess nothing will. Like for the Chemistry test today, I had been slogging my guts out since yesterday afternoon but I handed up a skimpy piece of answer. Or I'll learn my spelling today and forget it the next instance. Forget it. I think I'll go slog my guts out in the army next time. Don’t laugh.


The day after's Valentine's Day, and I don't feel anything at all. The school work's killed the feel. And they're gonna get the class chairman to present flowers to the teachers tomorrow during Assembly. How nice. Why don't the teachers present us with all the answers of our test? That will be the best Valentine's present of all. They're all so dumb. People have been asking me to take the initiative (like I've wrote in the previous entries) but I think that's a stupid thing to do. Cuz even when I didn't take the initiative (2 years ago) I lost a friend. Ha… So I guess for as long as he shows no interest I'll just take it as it is. Besides I have no money to shower him with presents. No regrets.

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Am I depressed? Am I?

Felt utterly sick today... Yes, i was laughing and joking, but inside i felt so sick. I don't know what's going on, just know that i was feeling terrible all along. In fact, i felt as if i wanted to walk out of the door and jump down. Totally devastated at what i was thinking of... I didn't want to die, but i just couldn't find a way to stop myself from thinking that way. I'm in no way depressed (although i just flunked my Physics and A-math) but i just keep getting that voice in my head.Face it, i think i'm sick.Anyway school was ok except for the test papers. And I'm gonna get S.H.E's Qi Huan Lu Chen tomorrow!!! So damn happy...

Sunday, February 8, 2004

Pretty boys in NH - first time in history

So chuffed... There was SJAB parade today and we had the Sec 1s to come in for orientation. They're so cute... Then the Boys'Brigade also had their orientation today. And the officers who came to do the orientation were so cute. Not all of them, but at least 2 or 3 of them passed the test. Especially the one wearing the black shirt who the word "olympia" on it. Cute... So although the admiration rate of the girls in NH are pretty at stake, at least we have the Boys' Brigade to fill us in... OMG...

Then a few of the NCOs took the Sec 2 squad cuz Jane was busy with the FDC. It was pretty fun except I was quite distracted by the Boys' Brigade. Ya know, boys... I was pretty perked up the moment that BB guy with the "olympia" shirt stepped into the school... OMG... And the fact that the BB is from ACS... OMG... :O I'm more than just chuffed...

Saturday, February 7, 2004

I don't hate Tong Loong... Get it right

Clara did the worst thing in the world today. Dun say 'what?'. You know it.Good... You get it from me if anything happens... Anyway, today we had 2 tests... And I believe both were manageable... Then Clara they took my bottle and drew on it... with black permanent marker... Good... First you torture Tweety. Now you torture my bottle. I just wanna say that when I've had enuff, you will die with no peace...


And there's just one point i wanna make clear here. i dun hate Tong Loong NOW. Yes I used to dislike him for whatever reason i dunno. But now we're friends(that is, if he regards me as his classmate).No ill intentions there, just wanna make clear this misconception some people had of me.

Thursday, February 5, 2004

I'm single this Valentine's Day... how great... I'm not sad

Someone just told me that I always post sad stuff on my diary. Like, what's there to be happy about? To be in a sucky school with sucky teachers who keep pin-pointing us in the arse. I rather die. But there's someone keeping me going so there's no way am i going to quit. Ha... Anyway today was a sucky day (again)and we got a scolding the moment we stepped into class. Then after assembly we had to stay back to clean the class.Note: To those who didn't stay back after assembly today, you ought to be mauled and shot and hung... Disgrace... And i'm being very straightforward here cuz i know that not everyone play their part in keeping the class clean. I know i sound alot like Mrs Fong or Banana, but I dun want to walk into class hating each and every one of you.Anyway the guys were cooking instant noodles and all that in class today. In fact, i think they're going to do that everyday from the day they bought the electric kettle. Lolz...Today when i was coming to school with Hong Ying we were talking about Valentine's Day and all that and suddenly she asked me if i would ask him out this year. What for? I don't wanna risk losing another friend... Anyway i'm not despo enough to do so, so no thanks...

Sunday, February 1, 2004

Time's killing my hopes

Had a discussion about the upcoming Love Fiesta after Economics, right before GP. And Jon apparently got pissed off when we were grumbling about the 300 cookies we’d have to make as an estimated quota. Relax Jon, it’s your first time as a chairman. You’ll have plenty to learn. Lolz.Time’s penalizing my each and every move whenever I think of HIM. I’m fighting back, holding on to the dark secret as my desperation keeps persuading me to surrender it. I have a weak determination, so I don’t know how long can I keep grasp of my porcelain heart, before HE unknowingly shatters it? How much trouble would it have saved me if HE had found out about it from somewhere? I’m not expecting a heart in return, I just want that confirmation. I know you’ve been hurt before, just like me, so why don’t we give each other a chance? Doesn’t it work this way? God I sound so damn desperate.

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

I'm sick... forever

Great... life sucks big time for me... and i hate it... Anyway it's another sucky Tuesday for me... Mrs Chang wasn't here today again and we had this real stupid dumb teacher to come in and sit for like a minute then she left... dumb... Then Mrs Wong gave more homework on the topic we know nuts about:Rate of Change. Everyday she just rattle rattle rattle and expect people to absorb her chanting... absurd...

I'm currently under alot of stress so if i do speak like an alien pls do pardon me cuz i haven't really straighten out on what i'm gonna do for the day...

Thursday, January 15, 2004

Help I'm being stalked

Ok everything was ironed out. I thought that he was angry with me while he thought that i was angry with him... lolz... Haha... So i guess we were being quite over-sensitive...there's this guy in my class(dun wish to name him)who has been rumoured to(ur hmm)like me.I dun know if it's true but all i know is he's pestering me and everytime i call him to pass stuff he'll end with"yes dear"or"qing ai de"pls get someone to help me kill him

Too frustrated to say anything, do anything... Just need a shoulder to cry on

I've finally realised how dumb was i, wasn't i? He said that i have AP, when it's he himself who's having AP, so, what's his problem? Idiocrisy... I'm not going to talk to him til he apologise lorz, but i doubt he'll ever think he's wrong or whatsoever... He said "Don't ever expect anything from me again." Arse... I'm frustrated. Didn't know i had such a friend. Yet, it hurts me more whenever we quarrel... He doesn't know anything, so of course it doesn't hurt him, but everytime we quarrel i cry. Everytime i quarrel with people i end up crying. Too much.

Saturday, January 10, 2004

School has started... how I want to end it...

it's been 10 days since i updated my diary. Cuz Ma has officially banned me from using the computer. So seeing me online is going to be a very rare thing. School has since started, things are running quite smoothly. Few changes to note: 1.Mr Foo is our new principal. He's the coolest principal in the world. 2.We're studying in the new campus. The classrooms are great, the toilets are rather cool, the facilities... urm... ok lorz... 3.My class has got a sucky chairman. i'm the sucky chairman. Just to mention.
But some things will never change(if u know what i mean). Never, unless it's fated to change.
Anyway, the CCA Extravaganza is just tomorrow. And i'm pretty excited about it. Cuz can see the cute guys from Boys' Brigade. They actually got some guys from the nearby schools to help set the foundation for the new CCA. OMg... haiz... but sianz...
And i'm still not used to the amount of homework. And I'm so stressed my friends around me have started telling me that i'm acting pretty strangely. god...