Thursday, November 25, 2004
Grad High Tea
Chucking that aside, I’m still worrying about what I’m going to do next year. I have no direction, no passion for anything, no ambition whatsoever. I’m practically darting round nooks and crannies like a headless cockroach. Besides, I don’t even have enough choices to fill in the 12 options given. Pathetic. I’ve thought about many things, and things are getting wordy and obscure, so… I don’t know. I’ve only got myself to blame, if I had to, for not doing my utmost to secure a peaceful post exam rest without worries. Sh*t.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
The first cut is the deepest
I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Monday, November 22, 2004
Shoe shopping
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Shop till you drop
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
History over!
Saturday, November 13, 2004
The rich and the poor
At least the one thing I can get off my chest is the class chalet, cuz it’s been finalized already, courtesy of Mrs Chang. Feel real bad cuz she’s always the one booking for us. Haiz…
Been dreaming of him for the past 3 nights. Yes, go ahead and say I’m mad, cuz I am. Was chatting with a family friend in the morning while cooking lunch and she was lamenting on how her cousin, who’s a university graduate, chose a guy who’s jobless to marry. I mean, it isn’t all about the money, right? HE ain’t the least rich, but I’m still here.
Tuesday, November 9, 2004
Caught in the middle
Thursday, October 28, 2004
5 days to O's
Ps: sorry bang seh you… not my fault…
Friday, October 22, 2004
O'Levels Chem Prac
The next hurdle’s the Physics Practical next week, followed by the main papers. Haven’t started studying Social Studies, so I have no idea how am I going to survive the guilt. And I’m also worrying about the Physics paper too, and the History paper, and the Math paper, and the… Oh well basically it’s 10 days to the main papers and what have I done? Nothing.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
So say goodbye, oh don't you cry, cuz true love never dies
Friday, October 15, 2004
In this life, I was loved by you
Saturday, October 9, 2004
JC or Poly?
Actually, I really hope to make it to JC, cuz I want something conventional and fast. I hate studying so I dun wanna spend half of my life letting studies bog me down. But I’m afraid that I can’t catch up with those who made it to first 3 months, given my especially retarded think tank. And I have no hopes of specializing at this time cuz I have no direction at all. But my parents say that the main priority now is to score well in my O Levels, so I’m chucking my Prelim results aside for awhile.Still doing A math today. I was supposed to study 3 different subjects according to my study table within these 3 days but I spent most of the time doing Math. I know that Mrs Wong did it for our own good, but I guess she probably went over the edge, cuz now we don’t have time to study other subjects. And I was dumb enough to bring half of my chemistry file when Mrs Siew had no intention of going thru that, and instead threw us a paper to do. I guess she really want us to do well, and we really appreciate her effort. But I guess most of us are too afraid of her to open up to her, so that’s probably the disadvantage of the entire situation.
P.s to the one who loves to sing aloud in class: You made my day……….. terrible.
Friday, October 8, 2004
Nowhere to go
Tuesday, October 5, 2004
Mum's the best
Sick of my results
Sunday, October 3, 2004
KBox rox
Friday, October 1, 2004
Beautiful Woman
How can I begin to
Tell you what you do to
Me every time I hear ya
More willing to wanna see ya
I know that there's no use in
Tryin' to explain the confusion
But still I'm not complainin'
'Bout my situation
Let's not talk about a Possible ending
The very first time that I
Was lookin' to be your fella I found my inspiration
Hidin' in your expression
So I put myself on forward
For your consideration
[Chorus:] Let's not talk about a Possible ending
Let's not think about it Every day
And I know I'm so In love With you
I'm finding it harder and harder to breath
Every time I'm near A beautiful woman
And so we put the top down
To take you drivin' downtown
I guess we'll know just what to do
When you're lookin' to fool around
It's too late to stop me I know we're gonna get down
A beautiful woman A beautiful woman
A beautiful woman
B is for beautiful as the sunshine
E tells me everything is feelin' alright
A goes to you and me swingin' it down
T is two I want you You've got me actin' like a fool
Finally the new song from BSB after 3 years of hiatus. It will be due to release on US airways on the 4th of October. How cool's that? Just love the guys. Anyway AJ's just had knee surgery so never mind if you see him on crutches. Poor thing.Anyway, tomorrw's the last paper. But i'm going to play myself crazy this weekend so that when i get back my results i won't be so motivated to study that i forget to relax, so why not do it now? Still mourning over my a-math paper. If i'm lucky, i pass; If i'm down, i fail, simple as that. So just wish me luck.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
3 more papers
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Moony Cakey Festival
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Good luck to all!
Had History and A-math today. History was almost a killer. The source-based is ok except for question 1c, where I couldn’t find any similarities at all. The structured was terrible, and that’s all I can say. I’ve already had so much problem getting the information into my head, and I felt as though it was a nightmare trying to pour the information out and organizing it. And I swear I would strangle myself if the 3 marks I didn’t do for A-math cause my mark to drop by one grade.
So now, all I can do is to pray and make sure I don’t kill myself again, cuz I can’t guarantee that I’ll have another life to waste. But for tomorrow, I’ll just be sitting back and relaxing, gearing up for another mugging marathon over the weekends and the following week.
Anyway, just wanna wish all those taking Chinese, Literature and Biology good luck for their papers tomorrow and the day after cuz I won’t be going to school.
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Love people around you
Physics Practical
The little girl who stays just below me loves to play 'Itsy Bitsy Spider' on her recorder and i think that's pretty sweet cuz she plays so well (unlike my sister) and i guess everyone enjoys listening to her.
Jia Ying blew up today cuz i made fun of her and .. ... aiyo no need so petty mah... must be like melah... Always get teased by you people in front of him i also dun care... Already used to it liao... Anyway Check asked me to lend him the Microsoft Office 2003, but he was saying that if i couldn't use it after he used it, he'll pay me back. And i was like,'I think you sell yourself also not enough...' Lolz...
Friday, September 17, 2004
Just trying to get by
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
The sweetest thing... :)
Anyway, wanna wish everyone who’re taking the Prelims EL Paper tomorrow all the best!
The most beautiful thing in the world is a friend.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
My ambition
Finally! I got new guitar strings out of my own pocket and (unfortunately) blew my pocket. But it was finally something ticked off my agenda. I'm currently trying to save money (in vain) to collect guitars. Acoustic, classical, electric (that'll be later on) and even vintage guitars (perhaps when i'm old enough to have that money). My ambition.
Monday, September 13, 2004
Hil rules!
Holy shit for me, cuz I blew my handphone bill. Thank God Mum doesn’t know anything or she’ll be breathing down my neck again. Dad’s quite neutral about this, cuz I ain’t the only one who blows the bill at home. The only exception’s that my Dad’s company pays his bills for him. This is so unfair.
It’s nearly sweet 16 for me in another 2 days time, though I’m not exactly looking forward to it, for the fact that it sits comfortably in the middle of my exam, and that totally kills the fun. I hope this is the last time I’m gonna celebrate my birthday in this fashion.
Dug out all my past magazines just to read about Hilary Duff and Chad Michael Murray. Chad’s totally cute, but Hilary’s just became my new idol. She’s just the sweetest person in the world.
Saturday, September 11, 2004
Bursting out
Went to school for Physics today. Mrs Chang released us half and hour earlier so Conrad, Xiling and I decided to play Speed in the canteen. The snack stall auntie asked me to help her write ‘Chicken Porridge’ as a notice and was rewarded a bowl of chicken porridge. Now, how cool’s that? Anyway, the Prelims are just around to corner so I’m totally gearing up for another burst of energy to study. Wish me luck.
Thursday, September 9, 2004
Study study study
Wednesday, September 8, 2004
Crazed...once more
Signed up for membership at Yuhua CC just to use the study room. I guess it’s worth the $15 after all. The study room’s pretty spacious, plenty of bright lights and it’s darn quiet in there. Met my ‘long-lost’ primary school friend Hao Yi there. He looked as surprised to see me there as I am seeing him there. Lolz… And there are plenty of okok-looking guys there (you can ask xiling-now I know why she doesn’t crush on school guys). The whole spectacle was plain hilarious, if you’d ask me. There are primary school kids(from my primary school) blowing gum balloons there, the constant ruffling of tidbit packs and sniffs here and there from the air-conditioner. Definitely a place I wanna spend my quiet afternoon at.
I find it extremely disturbing to realize that a conversation between me and HIM doesn’t last longer than 1 minute. Yes, it’s pathetic. I don’t know if we’ve grown to fear each other, but talking face-to-face just isn’t our fort for each other. On the brighter side, HIS smses never fail to cheer me up. Haha. I’m driven crazy.
Sunday, September 5, 2004
Birthday wish
Dad was going through a class list I kept in my A-math textbook and he was trying to guess the dialect groups of them by their surnames. He said that Lees(like us) are Cantonese and all that. Then he came to Tong Loong, who has ‘Teo’ as his sur, and my dad says that he’s a ‘ke’(a Hakka), and my dumbass sister was like, ‘Cake? What cake?’ ….
Time flies and I’m happily counting down to my birthday. I’ve decided to get something special for myself this year, since I’m 16 and all grown-up(urm, not quite, actually). Like? A guitar. For the past 2 years I’ve been playing my aunt’s very vintage guitar and have acquired more than just a few scratches for her. So I’ve decided to get one for myself instead of using hers. I’ve been checking out one at the Music Lodge, which cost a pretty hefty $280 for a guitar, but it’s going to be mine at all costs. Wish me luck.
Saturday, September 4, 2004
Nightmares
Anyway, today was ultimately boring, and it would be if worse if we actually stayed back for Chemistry lessons.
Anyway the school had to book a ballroom for our grad night by today so they asked us to make a decision toay. We were choosing between Hilton and Le Meridian, but we got the worst news that Hilton dinner is fully booked. Shucks. And the thing was they were pushing us for high tea instead of dinner. Helo? grad nite is grad nite, not grad afternoon. I can't believe it. Anyway the class stood firm on dinner, and the guys even went to the extent of going class to class, trying to persuading the other classes to opt for dinner instead. Not sure if it worked, but it definitely got Mdm Sia pissed cuz their discussion with Ms Wassan ate into her lesson. Aiyah...
Was taking 198 home today when there was this guy who came on the bus smelling as though he just ran 2.4km. Pooh... I almost wanted to die but the seats were occupied and i couldn't find somewhere else to stand. Can't imagine if he had sat besides me... Pls guys, if you know that you have BO, god damn it use deodourant!!!
Wednesday, September 1, 2004
Happy Teachers' Day...not
Teachers’ Day will probably be the day I fear most every year, and especially this past 2 years as a chairman. But thank God, it’s over, so I have no more projects to ponder in for the next few months.
Had English in the morning and the guys 'serenaded' Ms Leong & Mrs Chang with a song by Hoobastank. Then we had a chat with Mrs Chang and found out that *gasps* she's going to the US at the end of the year. Or is she moving there? Anyway, we were pretty saddened by that fact. Mrs Cang is a really good teacher and i want her to know that.
Anyway, as usual, our class took part in the inter-class Captain’s Ball competition and came in first. Thanks people.
Before that, I’ve had plans to go study with Xiling at the CC this afternoon after school, but Jane asked me to go out. So I bang seh Xiling. Then the girls proposed a class outing for lunch, so I bang seh Jane. But in the end everyone was going back to primary school so I decided to go out with Jane in the end. So messy…
Got earrings at Aries, MORE Harry Potter stickers and was laughing myself crazy with Jane at IMM.
HE may be reading this right now. Or not. I don’t care anymore. I’m too busy to worry about whether HE knows or not. I’m too tired. But good job at Captain’s ball today.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Blow-by-blow account of Rugby Carnival
The girls were supposed to match 4/3, 4/1 and 4/8 yesterday, but we only got to play the first 2 classes. Won both, of course, thanks to everyone on the team. Mrs Chang played too, so we got to give credit to her, cuz she picked up the game quite quickly and was a great help to us.
The 4/3 match was tricky cuz their defence was really good and strong, although they were a little small on the scale (as compared to me). But they played well, and they deserve applause. But wait, cuz on the sportsmanship side, they clearly, urm, lost out. Pls, people, if you wanna say “Excuse me!” even after we cheered for you, it isn’t a very good reflection of your character.
Playing against 4/1 was pretty okay, but they were obviously trained more on their punting than their passing. Bad choice, I’d say, cuz this is about running, not firing an empty kick at the ball. I, however, find their captain, Ms Meili quite interesting. Whenever we’re back to the start of a game, she’ll yell “Never mind people, we can do it one!” I swear I added a few more words to that.
So, We have another game on Monday and the finals on Tuesday, so how about if we bring home a nice title for the class? Never forget the guys and their “Oleh Oleh” theme, cuz it cheered us on, and the besides that they played well too.
Went shopping for Teachers’ Day gifts. I swear that for the rest of my life I want to be a chairman no more. It’s terrible when you’re planning, organizing, deploying, buying, wrapping, deciding and worrying about everything. Lucky the girls are helping me bake the cookies (right, people?) cuz I can cook but I can’t bake.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Stop that shit, you lambastic idiot
Monday, August 23, 2004
My new idol: Lee Jiawei
I spent my entire Saturday afternoon watching re-runs of the last few Olympic matches, and I spent the whole night watching the scene replaying in my head. Yes, I had cringed and cursed when that gibberish-yelling woman took home a place in the finals, but I had celebrated the fact that Singapore was able to clinch a position in the last ones standing.
I know people will think I’m nuts for posting such stuff on my diary cuz I’m that kind who’ll only write about what I had for breakfast, lunch and dinner. But I thought it through the entire time after that crucial match, and I reckon that Li Jia Wei deserves this recognition.
Despite being born in China, she was willing to give up that yellow and red passport for a Singapore passport, and even help Singapore squeeze into the Olympics, naming herself 4th in the world of table-tennis. For this fact I truly admire her just for who she is.
Yesterday had been the first time I’d ever sat in front of the TV watching a table-tennis match. And I am proud to say that I’m watching a Singaporean on international TV, fighting for Singapore.
Today, Jia Wei will be battling against South Korea’s Kim for the bronze medal. I hope yesterday’s match outcome had not dampen her spirits, but instead, gave her a stronger will to fight it out.
All the best, Jia Wei.
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Common test finally over!
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Yay I'm back!
Common Test has just started today, and I’m already getting tired of studying and studying. But I really wanna get into JC and then to Uni and get to do what I really like.
Anyway Chengyi told me about this article written by a member of the public about ‘Nanhua students caught in the act’. I read the article, and both the writer and the students disgusted me. Firstly, the writer is plainly making a fool of himself by kicking up such a great fuss about kissing public. Not that I encourage that, but the writer sounded as though he/she was so monk/nun trying to tell little kids not to play in the playground in case they trip and fall. And the author seemed keen on exposing the identities of these students by mentioning that ‘students should have their names sewn on their uniforms…’. Sadistic, ain’t that? This is an open society, and young people (like us) are out of control. The more you try to grasp their reins, the greater the desire to escape. Of course, this article has invited a couple of aggressive shout-outs from the public.
The students also de… Why let the whole world know you dating huh? Of course I’m not trying to say that they can’t date, but why go to a place where you give the public a chance to scrutinize your behavior? Go somewhere ulu lah… And pls don’t wear your school uniform next time… so shameful…
Monday, July 19, 2004
Worst MOnday in my life
Was playing Dai-Dee with Conrad and co. when he nudged me and say that it was hard to win with the set of cards I had. The next moment, yinghui and shuwen were giggling their heads off. Anyway, I just picked up Dai-Dee and I thought it's a damn boring game.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Homework
Damn pissed with my mum yesterday. She just had to go all out to piss me off, like she always does. Haiz…
We're talking (after a week or so) and I'm so chuffed. Ha… I guess I'm too sensitive and I can't help freaking out whenever the chance arises.
Was viewing some of the class photos in the computer lab during CME today. Couldn't believe that I was such a dork at 15. The other guys, too.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Inter-unit campfire
Jane: (imitating Ms Yeo) Aiyo the food so oily! But I like.
Lolz. I laughed my head off. Anyway, the campfire was interrupted by a sudden downpour so all of us had to move to the hall, where we had ''candle-fire'' instead. Lolz. The idea was innovative, but it did not stop Mr Foo from worrying that we were going to burn holes in his hall. We then did the Friendship Dance (the NCC guys were soooooo naïve) and 'Peace like a River'. It was cool. Then we proceeded to the canteen to cut the cakes for each individual CCA. I had to leave then cuz my dad was swearing over the phone when I called him. Lolz. But it was enjoyable… …
Tuesday, July 6, 2004
One week away... I'm behind time
On Friday it was St. John Day. The whole thing wasn't such a great affair this year, apart from the teases Alana and I got from stupid people who were criticizing our very-lowly ranks. The Promotion Parade was definitely a turning point.
On Saturday morning was the Chinese O' Levels Listening Comprehension. Some of it was tricky, no doubt, though I thought I did ok in it. Following that, ACJC and I went to Clara's house before the Flashcard thing. Particularly liked her PC cuz it was fast (as compared to my 56k-crawling comp) and so it made gameplay great. We took a few photos before leaving for school. The so-called buffet was prepared by the canteen vendors and it was ok except for the very-oily food. Eek. We reached the stadium at 2++pm, waited til about 4++pm before the SYF event started. For the first time yesterday, we saw our own flashcard display and it was just beautiful. And as expected, Tanjong Katong Sec. Military Band won Band of the Year. Great job. Dismissed from the stadium only at around 7++pm. The Sec 2 class which shared the bus with us was making such a huge din that the bus driver seemed a little bu shuang, in addition to the traffic jam which we were caught in. Clara was telling us about her friend making a prank call to one of his teachers to sell prata. It was hilarious.
Went to West Coast Park just yesterday. Wasn't really concerned about playing there cuz I still remember the amount of math I have to do.
Sunday, June 27, 2004
Losing grip
James' over, so now it's back to school, on yet another guy. i've been thinking for a fairly long time about it, and i've come to the conclusion that i'm going to give him up slowly, cuz if i do it at one go i'm going to end up losing my life. So it's gonna happen very very gradually, and hopefully it's gonna work. i've lost hope.
Saturday, June 26, 2004
James, James, James... hahahahaha
Am i disappointed? Yes i am. Am i glad? Yes i am. Am i angry? Yes i am. Why am i disappointed? Cuz James Tan of Naval Base Sec is attached. Why am i glad? Cuz James Tan of Naval Base Sec is attached. Why am i angry? Cuz James Tan of Naval Base Sec is attached and still those stuff is flying around. I'm a big fat loser i know; i don't fight for my rights, i don't fight for myself. I fight for other people to make them happy. I fight for others so they don't come and bother me. So i have been the big loser all this while. Esp. in this field, i'm hopeless. Til now, i can still like someone for near to 2 years and not tell him about it. Til now i found James Tan of Naval Base Sec cute for 2 years and not tell him about it. Anyway, i shouldn't say so much in case people get big-headed.
Saw James Tan of Naval Base Sec in school today. Apparently their very small corps came over to paint their flags for the hike tomorrow. Stupid Brandon kept teasing me about him and i was damn furious. I swear the next time he tease me i'm going to slap him. i don't give a damn even if he's my fellow squad mate. He don't respect my rights, i don't give him respect too. This is life. Frankly speaking, he's still very cute!!!!!!!! Ok lah... Dunno who said,"He where got hao kan?" Whatever... But he's attached, so i shall not stay in that spot forever... But he's cute lah, hor?
Friday, June 25, 2004
SYF flashcard
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Potter craze
Anyway, i'm not planning to go for flashcard anymore since i think it's a big waste of time and i think i'll have enough points to scrap thru an A la... Looking forward to school re-open cuz the first friday is... St.John Day!!! Really looking forward to it... Aiyo...
Had a real funny dream last night. dreamt of everyone in class, dreaming of netball, badminton, chem prac and ... math lessons. Aiyo... this shows how much i 'miss' school. So much that it's beginning to haunt me.
Friday, June 11, 2004
Happy-go-lucky me
Rena kept pestering me to go to the bbq. I didn't want to go cuz 1.) I don't wanna sia sueh myself and 2.) I have tons and tons and tons of work to do. If the reason to go to the bbq is to see James Tan of Naval Base Sec then I have plenty of reason to go see Check play billiards instead. Of, course, I'm " a little sad" to hear some stuff, it's not the end of the world, right? James is not everything, cuz there'll always be someone else, right Felz? (U know what I mean, don't you?) But of cuz, I'm definitely going to the hike. Hehe.
Guess I won't be seeing HIM for the whole holiday. Feeling sick just after 3 days after the last meeting, so I can't imagine how dead I can be by the end of the holidays.
Monday, June 7, 2004
Freak
Ning's got Mum all pissed, now she wouldn't even talk to me. Not even me. Well I guess that was the last straw, though Ning doesn't give a damn about it. She thinks that everyone in the world owes her their life. She just refuses to budge despite risking the chance of eating 'sugercane'. She's the biggest bitch I've ever seen in my life, and she's still unrepentent. Channel 5 showed Harry Potter & the Sorcerer's Stone and it was bloody brilliant. Harry's cute in the Sorcerer's Stone, but he's even cuter in the Prisoner of Azkaban. There's this GCE O'Levels English Course @ the Singapore Power Auditorium tomorrow and I'm totally looking forward to it. I'm definitely expecting an A1 of my EL. Anyway, I finally went to the newly-renovated JE library. It now stands at 4 storeys high with a basement, a café and a jazz band. And it's damn cool, cuz it has a centre stage for jazz band performances, a DJ booth, listening booths and the latest CDs. I swear I'm gonna go there every week.
Anyway, there was SJAB on Saturday but it was pretty boring, except the fact that we had Crime Prevention course by the NPCC. But still, it was pretty boring. Then the good thing is that the hike's been finalised and it's gonna be on the 26th of June. Yay!!! (James!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Boy Alert!!!!!!) Saw Jie and her junior walking to the bus stop, followed by YX. I 'm not sure what's going on, and I'm also not interested to meddle with other people's affairs, but if she ever needs a shoulder to cry on I'll always be here.
A friend(whom I do not wish to identify ) asked me if he could zhui qiu me. I don't know if it was a big fat joke or what, but I was damn shocked. He was pestering me the whole time on Friday on who I liked and all that but I just wouldn't tell him. Freak.
Saturday, June 5, 2004
Math and Chemistry lessons
Chemistry lessons so me and Jiaqi went with some of the guys in class to Ginza Mac's for lunch. Weiming initially wanted to go play billards with Chee Hsiang but he got bang seh so he had lunch with us instead. Then he came to look for Weiming at 1 cuz they had a dental appointment, and he was munching on our fries. And a warning for those who are eager to try Mac's Cheeseburger Deluxe, DON'T. it sucks. Thank God he finished up the yucky stuff for me... Then Weiming was talking about how much he hated Tong Loong and all that. lolz... Chemistry is slack with Mdm Sabrina, and there were some who turned up when we were about to be dismissed. lolz. Jokers... Now i'm just sitting at home, waiting for death to claim me during Math tuition.
Wednesday, June 2, 2004
End of May, Start of June
The whole world's asking me to tell him about my feelings, but i just can't bring myself to do it... It means too much to me, and i just can't let go like that. How i wish he can just come here and read it all for himself...
Tuesday, June 1, 2004
Chinese O Levels over!
It was so scary testerday, cuz i suddenly broke down before dinner and was wailing like shit in the toilet. Mum and Dad didn't find out cuz it was normal for my eyes to be red since i have dry eyes. Haiz... Scared myself to death. Can't relax much cuz i'll still have to go to school tomorrow... Haiz...
Was chatting over sms with Clara and she was asking me to go tell him that i like him for the umpteenth time. I don't know, cuz we seldom talk except for the occasional sms, and i guess i'll be scaring him away...
Friday, May 28, 2004
Cinderella
Department planned a sucky timetable for our revision this week cuz we have revision in the morning for 3 hours before going on with other subjects (mostly Math) for the other half of the day. I'm not grumbling; my other friends are becoming crankier and crankier, but i don't know if it's due to the exam stress.
Life's still ok though. It's good with him, at least. Haha... And he's more sociable these days so i guess it was easier communicating with him the past few days.
Monday, May 17, 2004
Exams over!
Anyway I'm damn excited, cuz i finally found the site to The Mysterious Play, all thanks to YY's diary. I've been trying to look for the story ever since i started watching it... So damn cool...
Going to Far East tml to look for whatever stuff i wanna buy. But the thing is, i'm broke, and that's the worst situation for anyone whose exams are over. Shucks.
Saturday, May 8, 2004
Is it ending?
I dunno if he's angry with me, but he ain't talking to me ever since that stupid thing happened. Ok, i guess it was all my fault, but i can't believe he's so petty. I've been laughing myself silly the past 2 days to suppress the hard feelings inside me. I guess, that is it.
Saturday, May 1, 2004
Chem Prac
Chemistry Practical today, and I can only rejoice over the definite grade I will get: fail. That's what's on everyone's mind after the exam. I was pretty pissed by the Practical at first, cuz I didn't understand the first table where we have to fill in the time/second and 1000/s-1, and I totally didn't figure it out until I conked my head and realised it was simply 1000 divided by the time I obtained. F***k. Then my bench became so very messy and I got frustrated working on a messy bench. By the time I moved on to QA I was down to half an hour so I was rushing like mad. The first experiment required us to test for the gas emitted after heating and I tested it with red and blue litmus paper but there was no change. So I tried with limewater and ended up pouring limewater all over myself and my question paper. I tried with a glowing and burning splint but nothing happened. I wanted to kill myself then. After scrambling through the few experiments there was this question to get us to test for whatever… I told myself to prepare for the worst. Then I realised I didn't draw my graph for VA and I didn't have a ruler nor pencil. Haha… I laughed it off. But the worst was that since we were the last shift we had to clear EVERYTHING from the bench. And I got damn frustrated and irritated cuz the stupid male teacher keeps yelling at us and that. Thank God we're gonna do another practical a long time from now.
Didn't talk to him today, cuz I just wasn't in the mood. He didn't talk to me as well, so I guess it's equal. And I got really jealous these few days because of something not worth getting jealous about, but I guess every girl feels it when the boy talks to another gal. But again, I have no right to get jealous at all so I'll just have to keep it here in my heart. But now if anyone asks me if I really treasure him, I'll say yes.
Thursday, April 29, 2004
NAPFA test
CME test tomorrow, but please, tell me who would study for that. I rather concentrate on my Chemistry practical, cuz I have absolutely no idea how to identify cations and anions and chemical calculations. Please tell me I suck.
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Me, the cat and I
Friday, April 23, 2004
quite playing games with my heart
Then the guys came up with a government system for the class. Quite stupid, but it was cute of them to think of such stuff. Lolz.
Friday, April 16, 2004
They gorge their asses with trophies, we nibble at humbleness
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Come and step on me
And i can't help but express all the thoughts in me for the past few days. Firstly, i think that no oneappreciates me. No one. I'm not trying to gain self-pity or get called a bitch, but that's just a plain ol' fact, all smacked in your ass. No one appreciates my help, no one bothers to say a thanks after a favour and no one will ever do me a favour. Secondly, The people around me just take things for granted. Take things for granted. They think that EVERYTHING will be done for them. From today onwards, sorry. I'll just do my utmost and i'll leave the rest to rot under you. I'll still remind on class duties, things to hand up, but i'll axe out the possibility of me doing all the duty, me planning for the noticeboard and me carrying the blame for all the shit whoever did. Don't blame me for all that cuz i guess no one really appreciated all the shit the class committee did. So whoever can litter all they like, get scolded for all they like, get 'D' for class cleanliness for all they like, hand up late or never at all for all they like, attitude me for all they like. I'll just sweep it off my shoulders like how they sweep all the dust out of the door rip off my conscience like what was done to my things. Sayonara.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Happy b-dae Yin
Finally opened an account on Friendster and anyone can add me just by adding my e-mail addie.
Got the greatest shock of my life. First, I thought i would fail my history test, but it turned out that i actually scored quite well. Same for SS. Phew. At least can get my this month's progress report with no regrets. Haha.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
I'm the angriest person in the world right now
Monday, April 12, 2004
Stupid Sunday
Anyway it's another Sunday. Boring Sunday. i hate Sundays cuz i can't wake up late the next day and i can't laze in bed til 10am and i can't chuck my homework aside a day longer and damn... i have to go back to school and face some idiotic teachers. Didn't do much today cuz i almost wanted to kill myself yesterday cuz i made an idiot out of myself by going to school at 7.05am when my CCA starts only at 9am. And i slugged my ass of studying for History and found out that it was a source-based test. Pls, someone curse me.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
Attitude
He attitude me yesterday… Damn it…
Tuesday, April 6, 2004
Morons and electrons
"If electricity comes from electrons, do morality come from morons?"
Friday, April 2, 2004
Happy April Fool's...
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Over-sensitive bitch... I hate myself
Saturday, March 27, 2004
Great... He's really avoiding me
Today was probably the most stable day in my entire lie. 1.I did the a-math paper without difficulty. 2.I didn't fall asleep during maths. 3.I handed in all the homework I'm supposed to hand in this week. 4.I did whatever I think I should do. Still, I feel terrible. And I guess the reason is obvious. Is it because I didn't talk to him? is it because he's angry with me because of something? is it because I'm too sensitive? is it because he already knows and is avoiding me? . . . . . . . . .
Note: NCC people really need to take their cadets in hand. One NCC girl was apparently annoying the people around her on the bus because she was speaking so loudly and openly about her classmate's crush. What a bitch.
Friday, March 26, 2004
He's avoiding me
Something's wrong. something's very wrong. He ain't talking to me for the past few days. Or rather, he's avoiding me. Why? i don't wish to know cuz i know it may hurt me. And i've decided that whether he knows it or not, it doesn't really matter now. it's been 1 year and 12 days, so tell me whether i'm numbed already...
shaun has been irritating me for the past few days instead. Damn... don't wanna say anymore.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Stress kills
Didn't really speak to him today, except for a few questions he asked. Dunno what is happening, and i guess nothing much will happen.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
test test test test
It's been 1 year and 9 days already... Am i dumb or what... I can't ignore my feelings, and i can't kill of the sight of him in my head everyday. dunno what to do... Tong Loong agreed to shut his mouth on this matter, and i trust his cuz he's the vice-chairman after all. Feeling very muddled every time i think of this, but how can i stop myself? I dunno what to do, to say or not to say. Well, i guess it's all up to fate. And clara, you better stop talking so loudly about him in class can? If i lose him the first person i hum tum is you... hehe... just joking lah... But what if i really lost him? I dunno, but the previous time i lost someone i cried 3 nights... haha... then i realised that i cried for the wrong person...haha...
Thursday, March 18, 2004
Chalet 15/3 - 17/3
Day 1
Seriously, I wasn't keen on going for this chalet. But on the account of classmates, I decided to do so. We had Physics remedial in the late morning by Mrs Chang, before meeting at Clementi MRT at 2pm. Kah Teng's mum was kind enough to help us book the chalet, so thanks. We reached there, checked in, and found out that the room could house about 10 people at the most, but that night when everyone came, we had 20+ people. I almost laughed till my jaw drop. I guess he would regret it if he knew what we were going to do over the next 2 days. Then I dad came after majority of the people left, either for home or to (some memory missing). But he came at the wrong time cuz the girls (alana, clara, chun pin, jia ying, me; xiling was watching the good show by us) were having a "heated" quarrel with Zhi Rong and Eugene. he looked pretty shocked. haha. Then that night some of them cycled to Changi (for more details on where they went pls refer to them, but I know they encountered sex trade 'girls' and a haunted mansion.)
Day 2
Slept 7 hours on a comfortable bed. Xiling and I each took one draw bed cuz the most of them were either out cycling or playing PS overnight. After breakfast most of us sian diao cuz nothing to do. Then in the afternoon after Xiling left, the guys decided to go to Escape to play, so the gals were in the room. Then about 5 they came back. There weren't many people left now, only 5 gals and 8 guys. We started the quarrel again and this time it turned out being very physical, literally, fighting with pillows and blankets, and the occasional mattress. Though the gals were heavily outnumbered, only the guys suffered casualties, like a crooked pair of specs and ,a serious one, a torn toenail. Ouch.That night people left again and it was down to just 8. Then tong loong came and shaun left. Clara went for a Christian concert at Downtown East so it was down to Alana and I and the boys(Tong Loong, Kah Wee, Kah Teng, Sherman, Yu An. We decided to do something crazy, like smuggling people into Escape since they did not play their fill in the morning cuz they had to queue. At first cuz we didn't have the chop on our hands, but the person actually closed one eye. But it was late and many games had closed. But we did play a few. It was crazy cuz we just finished our dinner and we were playing stuff which threw us into the air, swirled us round and round and stuff which pissed us off(for more details refer to the guy there who tends the kiddy ferris wheel). After we did the superman thingy my dinner as just below my chin, and tong loong and kah wee were just feeling plain sick. After that we went to rent X box games cuz we had a X box in the room. But the games were plain boring… And the whole night guys were borrowing my freshly-charged hp to call their qing ren… haha… And the bad news is, 2 more people has known who he is… Damn…
Day 3
Woke up 7++. Tong Loong was complaing that Kah Wee was talking in his sleep and was mumbling "Cookies…" in his dream… Lolz… The guys played somemore X box before we cleared out at about 10am. Had BK and was talking to Clara on the MRT(for more details pls continue reading : P). Haha…
Loved the chalet… Haiz… so sian though… next time must look for chalet somewhere else, where bike-renting fees are lower and the people are friendlier. ByeZ I'm off to catch up on my sleep…
Sunday, March 14, 2004
FDC 2004
And hereby, I pledge that if SJAB wins the GOH next year, I'll join the OTC straightaway.
Friday, March 12, 2004
I knew I was the biggest loser from the start
Today's officially the 1 year... 1 year of wait, 1 year of never-ending... Haiz... It's unfair lah... but why would God want to be fair to such an idiotic person like me? What a joke...
Sunday, February 29, 2004
I'm a selfish person
Went to play badminton at Yuhua CC with Xiling, Hongsheng, Weilong, Deric and Ningxin. Then at 5++pm NX's mum kept calling me on my hp while we were still at the CC to ask about NX and NX ask me to tell her that she has left the CC already. And the thing is that her ma come and KP me cuz she say i'm NX's friend and all that shit. And NX refuses to pick her ma's call so her ma kept calling me. What attitude is that lorz? I don't do that to my parents. Then at 6 pm her ma call and KP me again so i ask NX to go home but she give some shit excuse that she doesn't know how to go home. So i ask her to take the 334 to the interchange and take an MRT home. But when i cross the overhead bridge she followed also so i ask her what is she doing and she say that she dunno how to go home. But i already told her... What does she expect me to do? Escort her home? Then when my bus came and i was flagging the bus she started crying at the bus stop and say that she dunno how to go home. So i ask her to cross back the overhead bridge and take 334. Then she cried even more. I can't be bothered... Can you tahan??? Then Xiling msg me at night and aske dme what happened cuz NX walked back to the CC after that. So i related the whole incident to her lorz... I cannot stand her lorz... It's not the first time she's done this, and i don't like the fact that she is using me as a shield against her mother. I hate it. I admit it openly, I'm a selfish person, and i only appreciate people who appreciates me, and although i'm soft-hearted, I cannot stand people like her cuz after all i'm someone with dignity and i 'm not her boyfriend who always has to tolerate her behavior. That's it. I quit.
Friday, February 27, 2004
Rwed Lowwy Yeyyow Lowwy
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Cross Country 2004
Ok i was supposed to post this yesterday but i forgot so i'm going to post it now. Yesterday while i was walking down the stairs for recess, I noticed something real bright and glaring diverting my attention. Guess what? It was Tong Loong's bright orange underwear!!! I didn't mean to go notice his ass, but what can you do if you see a person with an ass like a light bulb?
There's parade tomorrow so i'm going to knock off now and go to sleep. Shut up.
Friday, February 20, 2004
1 day to Cross Country
Anyway today began with Shaun's birthday. So what if it's his birthday? I merely sent him an mms to wish him happy birthday (like i do to everyone) and it got around the class as a point that i like him... god... What a load of shit... Then during Chemistry Mrs Siew was trying to throw me out of the window, and somehow got me unvolunteerily involved with Sherman... She siao already... Didn't take her medicine today... Then i just got very pissed the whole day... she ruined my day and she shall pay for it on prom night...
Thursday, February 19, 2004
My Love Patzzi
Just counting, I think i've crushed on him for ALMOST A YEAR... Unbelievable... i still don't see what i like about him... haha...
Friday, February 13, 2004
2 Days to Valentine's
Chemistry test is going to be a sure flunk. And I still have to face up to the remaining 5 hours of the day: 5-7pm -->tuition homework, 7.45pm- 9.45pm --> Tution, 9.45pm- whoever knows what time--> study for Chinese spelling tml and Chinese test on Saturday. So I guess my entries are going to get lesser and lesser and then till I don't post anymore. That's sad.
I hate my life. No matter how hard I study for all my tests of how much I do for a project I always get the bare minimum marks only, and I'm so sick of that. I've tried studying harder or doing more work, but nothing seems to help. And I guess nothing will. Like for the Chemistry test today, I had been slogging my guts out since yesterday afternoon but I handed up a skimpy piece of answer. Or I'll learn my spelling today and forget it the next instance. Forget it. I think I'll go slog my guts out in the army next time. Don’t laugh.
The day after's Valentine's Day, and I don't feel anything at all. The school work's killed the feel. And they're gonna get the class chairman to present flowers to the teachers tomorrow during Assembly. How nice. Why don't the teachers present us with all the answers of our test? That will be the best Valentine's present of all. They're all so dumb. People have been asking me to take the initiative (like I've wrote in the previous entries) but I think that's a stupid thing to do. Cuz even when I didn't take the initiative (2 years ago) I lost a friend. Ha… So I guess for as long as he shows no interest I'll just take it as it is. Besides I have no money to shower him with presents. No regrets.
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Am I depressed? Am I?
Sunday, February 8, 2004
Pretty boys in NH - first time in history
Then a few of the NCOs took the Sec 2 squad cuz Jane was busy with the FDC. It was pretty fun except I was quite distracted by the Boys' Brigade. Ya know, boys... I was pretty perked up the moment that BB guy with the "olympia" shirt stepped into the school... OMG... And the fact that the BB is from ACS... OMG... :O I'm more than just chuffed...
Saturday, February 7, 2004
I don't hate Tong Loong... Get it right
Clara did the worst thing in the world today. Dun say 'what?'. You know it.Good... You get it from me if anything happens... Anyway, today we had 2 tests... And I believe both were manageable... Then Clara they took my bottle and drew on it... with black permanent marker... Good... First you torture Tweety. Now you torture my bottle. I just wanna say that when I've had enuff, you will die with no peace...
And there's just one point i wanna make clear here. i dun hate Tong Loong NOW. Yes I used to dislike him for whatever reason i dunno. But now we're friends(that is, if he regards me as his classmate).No ill intentions there, just wanna make clear this misconception some people had of me.
Thursday, February 5, 2004
I'm single this Valentine's Day... how great... I'm not sad
Sunday, February 1, 2004
Time's killing my hopes
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
I'm sick... forever
I'm currently under alot of stress so if i do speak like an alien pls do pardon me cuz i haven't really straighten out on what i'm gonna do for the day...
Thursday, January 15, 2004
Help I'm being stalked
Too frustrated to say anything, do anything... Just need a shoulder to cry on
Saturday, January 10, 2004
School has started... how I want to end it...
But some things will never change(if u know what i mean). Never, unless it's fated to change.
Anyway, the CCA Extravaganza is just tomorrow. And i'm pretty excited about it. Cuz can see the cute guys from Boys' Brigade. They actually got some guys from the nearby schools to help set the foundation for the new CCA. OMg... haiz... but sianz...
And i'm still not used to the amount of homework. And I'm so stressed my friends around me have started telling me that i'm acting pretty strangely. god...