I knew I was the biggest loser from the start

Feeling ol' rotten... feel as if i've been rotting ever since the start of time... nothing's gonna change... I hate myself.

Today's officially the 1 year... 1 year of wait, 1 year of never-ending... Haiz... It's unfair lah... but why would God want to be fair to such an idiotic person like me? What a joke...