SJAB rules like hell

Had SJAB today... did footdrill from like 8 to 12++ lorz... sianz... Then we went to the new school to plan how the cupboards are going to be installed since the SJAB room is empty... We plan to have a small relax corner with a sofa and possibly, a computer... hahax... we're totally mad... but it's good, since our old room didn't have any of that. The sickbay in the General Office is much cooler. Although it's quite small, but it's cosy and plus if you open the door then the air con from the outside goes in... Woohoo...And plus the NCC room is besides our room... haha... you saw nothing

Counting down 4 days to school reopen

I'm currently sadistically counting down to the re-opening of crappy school... The school's moved and the new building totally sucks like stupid hell... omg...

Anyway, I went to the Safari with my family on Saturday night and it was a pretty cool place. But i hate the fact that there were some stupid people who obviously have no idea what instructions are. They were told not to take flash photography cuz it agitates the animals but they just don't get the meaning of that... These idiots should be locked in together with Mr. Elephant so that they get killed by his poo and pee...

Counting down 1 week to school reopen

Plain bored... and currently rushing to finish my holiday homework by this week so hopefully i can slack for the whole of next week before heading back to school... It's gonna be a tough year.. haiz... Couldn't find any book to read so i dug up a very new Artemis Fowl book... can't believe i'm reading that... Anyway my family tried celebrating Christmas at the Night Safari cuz we had free tickets but apparently it was raining so we went to Lot 1... Haiz...

Symbolic Move tml!

Just totally looking forward to tomorrow, cuz i'm gonna be real busy, running everywhere, giving out christmas cards(watch out for yours too), rushing to get my uniform on and rushing out for Flag Day. Haiz... Just Days before school reopens... and i will dread studying in the new campus. But the thing is that i heard that i old school building will be torn down and rebuilt for some weird school... oh whateva... And also looking forward to meeting him...

When will this heartache end?

Just got back from SJAB meeting. This was part 3 out of 3 parts of marathon meetings. Haiz... from early morning meet til late afternoon... Then felz and Yuhui were talking about the NCO course they attended as trainers. They say got shuai ge but i doubt so lorz... Only James is cute in the whole of Zone 7. haha... I biased. Then i went to take some stuff from him during lunch and whateva... haiz... so tong ku...

WTH

Great... My right eyelid is swollen with pus. And it's damn gross. Then Dr Wee gave me some weird medicine which has to be applied to the inside of the eye. ****. Anyway sales of the lightsticks has been fantastic. Sold 70++ sticks within 5 days.

Shuai ge alert!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I saw James!!! Ok it went like this I was on duty for the Standard Chartered Marathon 2003 and He was there for duty too!!! After half a year without any news of him... omg... And the duty was fabulous. I was attached to Alpha 6(ambulance)while he was attached to Alpha 2... too bad not on the same ambulance since there's only 4 ambulances from SJAB... But still i got to see him.... omg... Stunned...

Holidays...damn

Went for SJAB yesterday... had marathon meeting from 8.30am to 4pm... Then went ginza to wait for Check cuz he wanted to pass me some stuff. Then he appear for less than 3 seconds he disappear liaoz... Dortz... anyway, i'm doing a little something to add some jingle in my wallet... haha...

Wanna set myself free...

Drawing up a Christmas list on what to buy who to give what, etc. Had a hard time deciding who to give what cuz i had a major tiff with myself yesterday... hah ok i sound moronic. Anyway that's all haha... Looking forward to going to school on Friday... i've had enough of being cooped up at home...

Ai Wu Suo Bu Zai

Had sjab camp over the weekend, so wasn't active over the last few days. But then I didn't miss him as much cuz over the camp days i managed to pick a quarrel with him over sms... If he is still swearing then he's normal... haha... looking forward to meeting him ...

3/10 Class Chalet

3/10 chalet was awesome!!!
Day 1(17/11)-->Rushed home straight from SJAB and ran to the mama shop 7 blocks away from my house to grab some stuff for the chalet. Then i took the train down to Bedok. And i just can't believe that no one actually asked if i needed a seat (i was lugging 2 bottles of soft drink, a packet of chipsmore, lightsticks, magazine all in one huge plastic bag whose handle's gonna give way). Whatever, i called Clara on her phone to ask if she was around that area so she could help with that stuff. She said she was on the train arriving soon so i waited. Who knows, she wasn't alone. Apparently i forgot that she went to IMM with the other guys and girls to get some stuff for the bbq that day. So i got relieve of my load, but then i was asked to carry another plastic bag with 2 bottles of soft drink. *bleep'*
We took the shuttle to the chalet and waited for Mrs Chang to check-in (she booked it for us). But then the taxi she ttok got lost in that area and when she arrived i was given a knocking-in by her. Anyway she booked in and left us on our own. We got unit A3, so you can roughly imagine how far it is from all the facilities. So we settled down and started playing real lame games and telling lame jokes. Then my joke backfired(Brandon i swear i'll kill you from telling me that joke)Most of them went to the beach to play water volley and stuff but Xiling, Jiaqi and i preferred to stay in cuz i'm allergic to seawater(i'll get rash after that) and i guess the 2 girls just weren't enthusiastic about this kind of stuff. So we just watched TV and joked until Yu An came asked for a plaster. Apparently Kah Wee cut his toe while threading on the seabed. So i insisted on taking a look while the other 2 girls went to ask for plasters.
The cut looked quite deep but Alana has helped cleaning it. The 2 girls then came with plasters and i helped Kah Wee but them on but after that he stood up and walked around all of the plasters dropped off and all the while he was whining about how lousy the plasters were. Whatever. Then i started writing stuff on the beach drawing...
We got back to the chalet at 7pm and they cleaned up and started the bbq. Mrs Chang brought along her 6-year-old niece and Weiming and i were playing with her all the while. I didn't eat much cuz i got chased around by the little girl and i was partially devoted to the TV when Wilber Pan was singing. Haha... Pan's cute, but he's too fair. So basically i was starving after the bbq. Mrs Chang and her niece left(she sustained an abrasion while chasing me around) and those bbqing cleared up. Except, they went swimming in the swimming pool before finishing up with the cleaning. So it was down to those left in the chalet(Chee Hsiang, Zhiying, Xiling, me) to do so.
First we started to get rid of all the wrappers, plastic bags and stuff from the very sandy floor(Chee Hsiang was hanging a lame joke around by saying that i hated Ling Yilian). Then we started washing the floor and washed through Xi Jie Shao Nian. Then at about 12++ the 4 of us walked 2km out to McCafe and just sat there and joked about. We met the rest along the way, who were sitting around a table and *bleep'* they were telling ghost stories. So Xiling joined them while the 3 of us walked back to the chalet. Then Check was telling us about the hatred between he and Yu An. So i was telling him about Yu An and me and stuff... Then the whole night Check and Zhiying played a Dai Di marathon while i was chauffeuring between the living room and the bedroom, where they were debating about ghost stories there. Tong Loong claimed he freaked out after seeing something. Dortz.
Then the next morning to noon we were just chilling in the room cuz many of them had left in the morning. I left in the afternoon. Haiz...

I'm a hazard to myself

Had my first aid course over the first few days. Interesting although the juniors got lectured by the instructor many a times... haiz...
Just had too much pressure to handle over the last few days and i almost was on the verge of breaking down. I wanted to run away from home, but i was afraid of hurting my parents. I wanted to run away, but i had nowhere to go to seek shelter. I wanted to run away, but i couldn't cuz i love my family too much. Yeah, i'm facing a crisis fighting with myself.

Zhang Shan Wei rocks

Exams over, but the results are back... i flunk A-maths and physics (unfortunately) but other than that i'm pretty ok...

Went to pSC nite to watch Zhang Shan Wei... Specially got the front row VIP seats so can watch him... haha... then the fans who queued up from morning til 6++ see me bueh song... haha... whateva...He's so damn... cute... haha... and i know it's weird, but i feel as if i've known him for a very long time... wondering...

Haha...............................

The end-of-year exams are finally over!!! Well, there's more to come, like the results, but who cares? It's party time!!!
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Sometimes i sit by the window and wonder what it is like to look at myself thru somebody else's eyes. Would i be the one i thought i am? It's sometimes quite demoralising to hear someone else critisize you, but all this has to come from somewhere. No matter where, it's always you which all this comes from... I dunno... I hate myself for who i am...
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Dared Check to throw a paper ball at me.. then he was joking about writing the words dare you on the paper ball... lolZ... it's our personal joke...

Love is in the hands of the beholder

A couple of things that happened these few days have set me thinking about my future steps. A little regretful, but at the same time memorable. It hurts me to hang out with someone you totally hate while it's equally heartbreaking to see the one you love walk away... haiz...
Still thinking of that sweet thing he did last week... How sweet... dunno for how long more can this sweetness last... one week... one month? it all depends on the beholder...

Honest confessions

Well, only two weeks more to the end-of-year. In one way or another, i'm looking forward to it... Guess i'm siao...

Anyway, Check says he knows who issit but when i ask him he refuse to tell me. Although i have some impression of who the two might be, i just can't figure out what he's saying... Weirdo... Must go and dig this thing out or i'll never rest in peace...
Then they keep saying i like this person, this person like me...etc... They so guo fen that even when i was chatting with hong sheng at the bus stop they also want to say stuff... Can't be bothered... Then Tong Loong keep saying yu an likes me and sorts and i just laugh it off... is that possible? If it is it would have worked out 1 year ago lor... So i won't continue to stupidly like someone for so long even after he has clearly shown that he isn't interested in me at all lorz...

Honest honest...

Anyway i won't like him back cuz i found out (long ago) that there's someone out there who is more worthy of the pain...

Haiz... Why issit like that

Had a nightmare + sweet dream yesterday night. The nightmare part was because I dreamt that Mrs Fong became my class’ Social Studies teacher. Brr… scary…Then the nice part’s for me to know but never for anyone to find out haha…
Then I had diarrhea early in the morning… sianZ… Then there was the Chinese test today and it was quite easy… There’s A-math test tomorrow and I’m definitely not looking forward to it. Lolz…
Just a little envious of the people around me… Especially those who just had steads. I don’t know when will it be my turn, but I won’t act despo or stuff like that cuz I believe if it comes then it’s just your luck… Anyway I’m not even pretty enough to match up… forget about it…

Waltzing

Just feeling a little panicky over the end-of-years... i need a lot more time to study than just 3 weeks. I'm feeling totally bloated the whole day was absolutely in no mood to come online until now. Bought a new guitar book. The songs inside were quite hard, but i guess they would sound nice another 6 months down the road. I did thought of dropping my guitar lessons cuz my studies totally suck but i guess i'm holding on til Grade 3. Then i'll quit for my 'A' levels. Yesterday the stupid song i was playing had so many chord variations so my teacher had to scribble all over the book just to let me get those stuff right. LOLX...

Just pondering over everything so far. I've so far made the right decisions, did the right stuff. My horoscope says next week everything will work out fine. I really hope it isn't bogus.

Happy Birthday to me

Yesterday was my birthday. Mummy bought a cake and we finished the whole damn thing... hahaZ... Today came to school and was having Monday blues... haiz... tml have chinese oral and the stupid teacher told us that only today...
A little disappointed about some stuff...
and thanks for all the presents!!!

3/10erZ camp

The last few days were just phenomenal. We had the 3/10erZ camp and although it was only 2days 1night (all thanks to that stupid Loh) we had quite some fun.

Day 1
We met in school at around 6++pm. We were supposed to go for bowling at West Bowl but KHJ said that it was full, so we went to the Chevrons instead. But no one wanted to play cuz it was ALSO full so we went to the arcade instead and I swear it was just crazy listening to Alana screaming and screaming… lolZ… Then the gals went to IMM cuz we wanted to get dinner but instead we sneaked to the neoprint machine and took some neoprints. Bought Long John Silver and rushed back to school at 10pm. The bus was damn slow.

Night 1
We went back late but didn’t get scolded by Ms Leong. The rest were already in school playing badminton and poker cards so we just went along and was playing til 12++am. Sherman and gang went around the school to make their very own ghost movie with a videocam. Bless those guys. I was bored of games so I went back to class and joined some guys to watch Darkness Falls. The show wasn’t as scary as I thought, except for the sound effects and stuff like that. Then later on yh came in and she sat for less than 5 minutes and she ran out of the class, dragging my walkman with her. She and Dingy pat tor the whole night and no one disturb them. Bless them. After the movie ended I went back to the hall and found that tong loong was playing with one of the Sec 5s’ guitars and he asked alana to fetch the other one. All along in class he thought I was learning crap in my guitar class but after I played he was like ‘not bad’ and stuff. Whatever. Played badminton the whole night til 5++am.

Day 2
Went back to class at 5++am to prepare for SJAB. Ms Leong was playing some kind of game with them and were lighting candles in class. Then she said something which was quite amusing. Go figure. Whatever. Then I packed all my stuff, bathed and went for SJAB til12pm. Then I changed out and went for lunch with those who were still in school. Then we went back to school to play a little more badminton before coming home. The rest went out but I dun wish to know where and what they did. Bless them.

The camp although was a little boring but it did help with class bonding. Loved it totally. 3/10erZ rock. A lot.

fishing sunburn

I'm totally exhausted after a day of float, sinker and bait. I didn't really fish cuz my deprssion still acting up after i started crying at 1++ in the morning and my dad thought it would be better if i just watched. My uncle,cousin and dad totalled a lousy catch today cuz the the weather was too hot for the fish to take, so even if they cast far out the fish wouldn't be in the mood to bite. As for me, i basically brought a sunburn back. Now i look no different from a red egg. And talking about red eggs today's my lunar birthbay (Buddhists have a lunar birthday on the lunar calendar as well hehe) so i recieved my first angpao. ha... I love myself so much.

Teachers' Day concert

Today is the best day of my life…hahaZ… today school functioned till 1pm but lessons only commenced till 9++… Then at 10 was the long-awaited Teachers’ Day concert. Although the hosts were sucky, but the performance by KHJ was so electrifying…lolZ… They played well lor…Congrats… Then I was wanting to take a listen at the sec 5’s band cuz Sherman said they were good but I didn’t see that point in their performance… Yet I can’t help but admit that the other classes who did the sentimental thingy were also quite attractive… But the guys did a great job and we the only sec 3 class who got into the top 3… KHJ was third… Although I know it was a little disappointing for everyone and they deserved more than that, congrats anyway… 3/10erZ rock… Then after the upper-sec concert was the captain’s ball comp… Was a little scared when they were against 4/3 cuz Benedict was playing and Mr Kam was playing for them… But of course how could we lose (hahaZ) so we won (duh!)! Then we went on to play the finals with 3/7... WeiWei was guarding Wei Ming but that didn’t stop us... And finally we kicked their asses with a 11-13 win… hahaZ… We won!!! Of course, we are 3/10!!!

So we decided that the best thing to do next is to celebrate!!! Sherman, Zhi Rong, Kenny, Linus, Kah Wee, Kah Teng, Yu An, Clara, Alana, Chun Pin, Su Tian, Shuwen and I went to Great World City’s Seoul Garden for a victory lunch… Of course we meddled with the food and Su Tian chucked in the whole lump of beef into the soup and voila it turned out to look like cow’s brain… lolZ… Then after that most of the guys except Kah Teng and Yu An were left. Shuwen left earlier on… So we decided to get to the Heeren to take neoprints. Then while we were waiting for the shuttle Kah Teng said he wanted to borrow my phone to call his mum... yes he did call his mum but no he did not return it to me… and he exposed my secret… damn… so now it’s all up to fate whether he and yu an is going to expose me lor… it’s all over liao… no use crying over it… if they got conscious (esp. yu an) then dun say…

so we reached the Heeren and waited for such a long time to use the neoprint machine… and the worst thing is the cam is auto so u never know which camera they want to use… stupid… the shots still ok lah… except some like candid camera like that… still laughing it off… hahaZ… Then at 6++ then we finished taking neoprints so me, Clara and Kah Teng shared a cab… Clara alighted at the Clementi MRT, Kah Teng alight at his house and last is me… HaiZ… But we enjoyed everything… 3/10erZ rock my socks off… Keep on going…

KHJ jammin'

Today, as usual, was great. i've been feeling all great this week, and i know the exact reason why. HahaZ...

Watched the guys jammed again, for the 4th time round. They did a little of Basketcase but it didn't sound very nice... Faint was still nicer... Looking forward to their performance on Teachers' Day... Totally rock...

KHJ

Got back History and SS results today... my History totally sucked... SS still ok... Looking forward to failing my Chemistry paper...hahaZ...sadistic...
Then Tong Loong and gang have decided to call themselves KHJ. Dunno what it stands for, but who cares as long as they make good music. Looking forward to their double concert on Teachers' Day. The only problem now is that one of the strings on TL's guitar snapped just now during jam session and i don't think he is going to replace it... Sad...
They thought of having a fanclub but everyone is reluctant to join. But I would definitely give my fullest support to rock music and the developing of it... Totally rock...

Miss G2... finally

Today's Howie Dorough's birthday. Happy Birthday Howie D!

Today is the prelim round of the Nanhuarian Idol and i am pretty excited cus the guys really did well and i hope that they can get into the finals... Just pray... i couldn't stay to watch them cuz i had to go for guitar class and the teacher gave me a huge surprise cus he promoted me to G2!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is beautiful

Finally there's only one more paper left to take. i've been so stressed out for the past few days that everytime i sleep i get nightmares... lolZ... Anyway, i was just so excited about the Nanhuarian idol thingy cuz i have great confidence in the guys so i really hope that they would get into the finals and hopefully win the competition since they're so talented. God bless them...

Got a little cheered up today because of some small stuff that came by...haha... life sure is beautiful...

Common test... really sucks...

Been rather busy the last few days with the Common test... but hopefully after it we can all enjoy... Coming up with a od entry... May or may not let the world know... hahaZ... Today's Chee Hsiang's birthday but no one seemed to have wished him happy birthday... haiz...so sad...

Looking forward to the weekend cuz going out to get a guitar case with cushion inside... cost $20++, quite ex... but for the sake of my guitar... yah lar...

Thinking maybe find one day ask yy and ym bring their guitars to qie... Wonder what they think about it...

Had a huge quarrel with him on Saturday over a stupid tv programme...GnD...

Love made the world go round... til now

I don't know what has gotten into me today, but i just kept smiling and laughing and sorts... Don't know if my mental health is ok...

Today's Math paper was ok, but i doubt i can hit 30 marks. It's like, helo i didn't even finish the last question and i cost like 6 marks so i can forget about my A1... dortZ... GreAt...
Didn't speak to him today cuz i just didn't know what to say to him... Everyone was quite moody cuz of the paper so we were literally slacking the whole day...

Didn't know things would turn out like this... It's as if there's no one listening and taking note of what i'm saying... i'm sick of this life...

Happy days are here again...

Finally, i'm back, feeling still crappy from the after-effects of the illness. dunno what got into me...lolz... So happy tml is half-day, going out with NX and gang for Sakae...

Talked a little to him today... good enough... haha...

Then the guys were playing paperball fight during Ms Sabrina's lesson although surprisingly she didn't scold us... lolz...

sick...

Feeling so totally sick... Took MC today and hope tml can return to school... imagine lying in bed for 3 whole days, eat nothing but medicine drink nothing but water... haizz... hate getting sick...

How? Is he going to give her?

Today was the suckiest day... I failed my Physics not long ago and i had to fail my Chemistry... and both is fail by half mark lor... so disappointed... Didn't talk to him today cus i just wasn't in the right mood... thinking about some other stuff... I guess i can only see the real answer to my question 4 days later... And if i really speculated correctly i am going to slum... Pray for me man...

Cheer up... you guys did well...

The Chemistry test was quite ok today except one very stupid question... haiz... hope to pass ok liao.... Played badminton with HiM today... OoPs... only made him very annoyed after i missed a few shuttlecocks... haiz... hoping he could understand... and the bball guys got their egos blasted during the bball match today... just wanna tell them i do understand how they feel and hope they could just cheer up... c'mon guys...

Haha... Never wanna hurt me again... Hope so...

Feeling so ultimately crappy today. First, my history test was a crappy 8/13 and I’m just purely pissed… Then for no reason I was feeling so freakily sleepy during Math and almost fell asleep… Haiz… plain crappy…

Dunno what has gotten over me, but it seems that it has lasted since the start of forever… I can’t get it out of my head, nor could I put it straight to my face… I dunno how exactly am I feeling… Can it last? I never want to get hurt, ever again…

20-24... Great job...

Today’s game was just splendid. They played against 4/3 and although they did panicked a little, they just played so well. Guess Benedict’s got a run for his money. Guess many did not expect the results, including all those who came to support 4/3. I admit, I was a little scared too, especially after Dingy got injured… But he played on so I was a little scared… Won 20-24…haha… we got the last laugh…

DunnoX

Haiz...been so busy lately i dun even have time to update my diary. Today's chinese test was surprisingly easy... Came home early to watch tv...

Didn't talk 2 HIM at all today...all i could do was stare... dunnoX...

Crappy is what I feel... sadness is what I get...

Today was NCC Day... No big deal at all... someday uniform groups will be like sjab... i'm definitely looking forward to st.john's day, which is this friday. we did so much stuff just for the students of the school, and also at the same time hope that they would support us in this fund-raising project.

Felt real crappy not speaking to HIM... it's like, i didn't even ask for a favour or kid around...so depressed...

Homework headache

LalahZ... 2 days more to go before i actually go back to face reality. I'm still dreaming... hahaZ...
Had a catfight with my sis...she is so kao peh... little bit of thing also make noise... Then i want to watch my WAN QUAN YU LE also she make noise...

Took down all my bsb posters...Dun worry never gonna replace them with 5566... just want to laminate them before putting up cuz i realised how much dust them accumulated the last 6 months... poor thing...

finished my e-math today...must CHIONG otherwise cannot finish... still left history homework liao...

Mozart and Beethoven

Today was sian... during EL Ms Leong brought us to the comp lab to do some research... Then during Chem Tong Loong and Kelvin were crapping... TL say he know how to use the double bass to play violin so Kelvin say he use the piano and that his electric guitar teacher is Beethoven... Tong Loong say Beethoven is play piano one so Kelvin change his teacher to Mozart, but "Mozart die liao", so he said his teacher is Mozart the 27th generation, called Zartmo... My mouth laugh until going to drop...

Talked abit to him today... good enough liao...

Chinese workshop part 3

Today was ok, except i was just holding back everything during the chinese workshop. Haha... Tong Loong told me that somebody told him that i sing well and i was like 'HUH?'... lolZ... Whatever... And i would really like to say something:i'm not with Weiming, that's for sure... Believe it or leave it...

Went to je with jie to 'lay long'... Was telling the whole world about the public duty thing and how unfair my seniors were... You could have seen the expressions on my squad mates' faces... They could have killed my seniors...

Then jie told me about sher and kw...Just thought it was sad...Really thought they could rough it out, but did not expect this end...

Chinese workshop part 2

So sian... as usual. Dug up the remaining teeny bits of homework to do and realised that i still have so much to do. Listened to the 5566 album for the 5th time today. I admit their songs rock, but i'm definitely not gonna part with my money to buy their album. Talking about 5566, i just remembered about the Courage Fund concert. There were St.John members on duty there, and the thing was that they were my seniors... haiz... Left the best things to themselves... Heard that my seniors were screaming when 5566 went on stage to performing. lolZ...

Chinese workshop part 1

Today was the first day of the Chinese workshop... so sian and practically everyone was drifting into sleep-O land just halfway through. Arm started aching after yesterday's swim. Talking about that, i actually cut my finger the day before, and i didn't put a plaster over it, so yesterday at the swimming pool i was literally dissolving my blood into the water and i just couldn't stop the bleeding no matter how hard i conpressed the wound because of the chlorine.it totally spoilt my day... :'(

Whatever it is, i'm just crazy... over him... hahaZ...

Prague dream

Hope the others enjoy their camp... I feel safer at home and plus i got 'quarantined'... haha...
And i'm going just literally crazy over HIM... yah... siao rite...
Finishing my holiday hw... dunno whether i still have time for myself anot...

shopping spree

...second week of holiday liao...
Yesterday was Fathers' Day, so my parents brought us out for a shopping spree. When to the new OG People's Park and bought a pair of surf pants... Totally loved it... They had a 30% for all their clothing and stuff like that... I was just walking around, grabbing everything i thought i liked... lolz... Then we went to the Majestic theatre which was renovated into a shopping centre and the only thing there which captivated me was the huge Popular... The only thing they lack there is instructions on how to find my mum... She dunno disappear go where and i walked up and down the whole building dunno how many times to finally find her staring at some clothes...tsktsk... i still love my family...

Can't go for class camp

Felt a little sick after yesterday's chili crab... But no matter what still turned up for PE remedial... Ran four rounds and was literally dead when i reach the finishing point... Shot some airballs beofre going home... Wondering what the hell is wrong with me this few days... So freaking frustrated...
Anyway, i won't be able to go for the class camp so haha... Got grounded... No matter what i'll still love my mum... and 10erZ...

Sports Meet 2003

Haven’t been updating my diary for a long long time… Anyway the exam’s over and I just don’t wish to talk about it as it totally sucked… My mum got a little frustrated at the mess I created and didn’t cool down till today…
Anyway today was the Annual Sports Meet and it was totally awesome… I was real happy that both the guys and girls were willing to run for the class and actually do well… They did it for themselves anyway… Whatever it was, their performance was brilliant… Congratulations…

End of exams

Lahlahz... I'm finally free... From exams. Went to hongsheng's house play PS 2 then went to West Mall to eat... Then went to buy some crappy stuff... Then went upstairs to take a look at my grandma... she's too fine to be true... except she still needs a walker to aid her walking... I love my grandma more than anything in the world...

Chem Whiz

lalalahz...
7 down, 1 to go and the Chemistry's the one and it's the one which is gonna fail me... Love the teacher but hate the subject... Today's A-math paper was a killer...hahaha... Then was dreaming this morning didn't wanna wake up...too beautiful a dream... (ps no bgr at all)...

Slam

Three down, five to go... Haiz... so stressed ALL because of this stupid exam... damn... And BTW, i am never gonna tell anyone the stupidest thing i did... haha...
Yesterday's Math paper was quite unexpectedly easy, but i can't say so for Part 2... My friend in 3/9 ended up crying after the paper, claiming that she can't finish the paper... haiz...
English paper was a disaster... I couldn't finish my summary and i'm gonna die because of that... haiz... Why?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Today's Chinese paper was equally sucky, except it was a teeny weeny bit easy... i almost broke my wrist doing the stupid comprehension... SianZ...
Diez lah... next week's the physics paper, and Mrs Chang will slaughter me if i fail AGAIN....
The 198 bus saved me today... I could have died of a heartache...

Wei Jie's brthday 'party'

… Don’t know what to say… well yesterday was Wei Jie’s birthday, yet I was a little shocked that he didn’t ask me along for his birthday (considering that I’m a friend of his) so I got a little frustrated. What that shocked me was that he didn’t ask Chee Hsiang along cuz Chee Hsiang was quite a good friend of Wei Jie… dunno lah… Whatever, we didn’t really party like siao cuz after all he stays in a neighbourhood so it would be quite noisy to do so. We watched ‘Taxi 2’ … BTW, there was Jie min, Michelle Neo, daphne, Jia Qi, sherman, Wei Jie’s friend isaac, thomas and shi min… Then after that we went outside and daphne borrowed wei jie’s bike and started cycling up and down the street and almost got knocked down by cars at the junction… haiz… Wei Jie let out his golden retriever, Casper, and Michelle got so attached to the pooch that she was literally dragged down the street by him… lol… Then we had a mini tour to sherman’s house, which was one street away… He has this lil’ pooch called Ben and he’s just so adorable except he was so old that he could only wobble about for a few metres… Then Wei Jie tried to hao lian his ‘superior’ drum skills by trashing sherman’s drum set but obviously it wasn’t impressive at all…

I called my dad and thankfully he offered to pick me up at 8pm, so we sang Wei Jie a birthday song and not to mention his mum went around with the camera taking candid shots of everyone…lolz…

21 ways to love yourself

21 ways to love urself
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you", mean it.
FIVE........... When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN........... In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mista ke, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY ONE. Spend some time alone.

Wanna drop down dead

tired today... Dunno why... Then during History the stupid air-conditioning was so damn bloody freaking cold i was freezing... Hell... Then i did the stupidest thing in my life by buying a PE shirt just for PE... lamo... Then that stupid Michael Jackson face wanted us to hand in our projects by 11.45 just now... Heck the hell... as if i bothered... It's like, she just reminded us last week and she expected us to hand it up today... how simple-minded... Anyway we chucked it in class and heck care it... Was carrying my bag and my file and a huge paper bag back home... Saw Qing Rui and his gang there... Wanted to just drop down dead then... Anyway i came home and did whatever crappy thing i could and tried to retrieve the mms my friend sent to me but the server doesn't seem to listen to me and keep jamming... hell...

Time to get away

Went to school for Physics supplementary... Mrs Chang keep reminding me to do well for the mid-year...as if i can help failing... Then that stupid Mrs Tan aka Michael Jackson face... so crappy she shortened the CME project deadline to Monday then make everyone rush here rush there... idiot... one more week to exam... i practically lagging... feel like studying but too lazy to do so... so troubled... as if i could help it... Today before the supplementary i was in class doing my math then i heard some guy singing and guess who? Tong Loong. i can't help but admit he's got some great voice there....

Let the music heal your soul

Got shocked… Very shocked… I actually got 10/13 for History. Shocked, right? Anyway, my daddy FINALLY bought a phone for me… **** 8914… the ‘8’ is my birth year (1988), the ‘9’ is my birth month and the ‘14’ is my birthday… I find it totally amusing… LOLz… BTW I heard 3/11 a lot of people the stuff got stolen… the peabrain lost ,like, $175 (this is what I heard so justify me if I’m wrong) and Nicola lost her hp… Poor thing…

feverstruck

i couldn't get to sleep last night. Was thinking about a bunch of stuff. I think i'm crazy. First i hurt myself over some freak, now HIM. I AM CRAZY. Then i started crying in the middle of the night. Just because of that. i just guess I'm truely crazy to cry over something like that. All i was considering was how i was going to deal with this mess i made. I don't know how such a thing would happen, AGAIN. ON ME.
Was damn pissed today. first, i didn't get my beauty sleep yesterday night, so i was so freaking grumpy and sorts. i just couldn't find anything to cheer myself up. i went onto MSN, but the least Kah Teng did to irritate me was to ask me for a basketball when mine was flat. Bah... HE was online too, so it charged me up a little. Second, i just guessed my parents were not sincere in getting me a phone lorZ... i was basically looking forward to the weekend because of this, and i was left disappointed and pissed. I don't mind not having a phone, but i'm just utterly pissed...

TLC 'Unpretty'

"UnPretty"

I wish could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'
::Chorus::LyricsCafe.com::
You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too
Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm bein' stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

fickled minded me

The inter-class basketball tournament has once again been postponed… They might as well cancel it… Such a waste of time… And the school introduced this boring program called what Chinese reading programme which is so damn boring a huge waste of time… I could have rushed home in time to catch my Entertainment Weekly… And Qing Rui is back in school! He was absent yesterday cuz he bumped his head on Wednesday… Awww…
When I was taking a bus home just now, I actually counted the number of crushes I had ever since I came into Secondary school… Hmm… one… two… three… four… five… six… seven… eight… I guess that’s all… lolZ…
Mum’s buying me a hp cuz she wanted to change hers… I’ll put my hp number here once I get my phone… I just can’t wait… I was still daydreaming on how I should decorate my phone during Chemistry…

POOR THING

My prediction actually came true. i failed my a-maths...tsktsk... i guess that didn't count....
Today is so sian.... There was SJAB, so had to stay back to plan the interunit campfire for 4th July...Then Qing Rui(the sec.4 guy from bball) got a huge cut on his forehead while playing soccer with his friends... POOR THING... he had to be sent to hospital, i guess, to get that bad cut sewn up... poor thing...
Then felz called out 'za bo' to Chengyi and he actually replied... first guy i ever knew who actually does that...
And til now, I still have absolutely no idea how to use the idiotic MSN Plus... so many colors like IRC like that...

Sick of it all

My hell of a grandmother just returned from her 3-week holiday... Apparently she thought that she got that SARS and decided to stay home and quarantine herself...

Was so over-the-moon when i finally scored my FIRST A1 for maths... (claps hands) lolz... but i can gurantee my A-maths sure fail...

I am real crazy... boy-crazy... i dunno... some unlucky one just caught my eye... i'm dead... I guess i should start liking with my head, not my heart, cuz i just realised how much it has hurt me through the years... brought myself so much unwanted agony and tears...

Tomorrow's the play-offs(if i'm not wrong) for the inter-class basketball competition... Hoping for the best... our class is combining with 3/11 and wei ze from 4/1 for the comp... Heard that they are facing tough competition from 3/9 and their allies... good luck...

End of the world :'(

You can say that I hate my life or something like that…I dun care… I just hate the things going on around me… it’s totally not fair to me… I know some may be asking ‘you have no right to make the world go YOUR way, so why insist?’ I know. I have never in my life put such an entry in, but today I differ. I hate the dishumanity done to me. All I did this morning was say’ which idiot poured the cup of milk here and didn’t drink it’ and I got this huge irritating in my ear… as if I wanted to scold my dad… no one gave me enough peace the entire day… even my idiotic sis choose to do so. she could have chosen a huge piece of pancake, yet she chose a totally pathetic one so that she can have her second helping… and my parents chose to side her. there. game over for me… I don’t know… And that ass of a sis of mine made me go to my wits’ ends… all I did was laid on her chest so very VERY lightly and she started to bawl like some crazy fat ol’ woman who has got her chest pressed out of place…. she think she’s so matured… 12 only then somemore like bamboo then learn how to wear bra…. idiots…. I hate my life…. I wanna kill myself…. sometimes I have to make myself convinced that I’m in a happy family but no, I’m not…. I’m just cheering myself up so that I can go on with life day by day…. everyone argues that what they did was for my good, but has anyone thought how much ‘good’ has it done yet?

Playing B-ball, my way

I just had the best time in my entire school life... Well, not really, but at least i enjoyed myself... After school i didn't care a heck about whether there's the young journalist course or whatsoever. i just did some hoop-shooting and just yelled my day away. The sj meeting was cancelled at the last minute so NX and i were able to reach the court in time. Obviously we didn't play in school cus if we actually did I don't know what kind of embarrassment are we going to suffer. i did some under-the-nets and got on real well with the court-snatching idiots from our school... i rather kill myself than argue with those unreasonable .......
Anyway, NX's 3-pointers were so impressive that even Clement was oogling...

(NX shoots ball from 3-ptr line)
(ball does a chop)
Clement: did the ball go in?
Ming xiong: (nods his head profusely)

LoL... We had a great time... NX even helped me with my 2-pt shots from the line.... I didn't know i can actually do that kinda stuff... Anyway we got ourselves so dirty from picking the ball from mud holes i got a little paranoid... lol...i had a great time...

bothersome creatures in my head

I'VE HAD ENOUGH. I've been driven to the edge far too many times and I'm just too tired to hear the looney cries of sadonic people in my closet. i'm totally disgusted at the way people do things. They would resort to anything just to get what they want, even to the extreme of eating sh*t off a toilet bowl seat. I don't understand these pathetic people. They knew very well from the start that they are just not cut to do whatever the others are doing, yet they insist they joined in the crowd. I'm totally pissed off. I totally take my hats off them, cheapskates...

The cute guy smiles slightly as the wind combs thru' his hair. His eyelids flutter softly, piercing the emptiness around. Yet little was known that the poor kid suffered and waited all his life to find the kind of life he wants, instead of living in a shadow.

$63 for a pair of tickets to see him...

I am totally over the big fat moon... Totally overjoyed... My euphoria cannot be contained in the bottle in my tummy... The MTV Asia Awards are here... At this time you must be thinking "This psycho must have won tickets to the show." But no, I didn't. You didn't think of the artists who were coming. Missy Elliot, Shaggy, Coco Lee, Blue, Atomic Kitten, Avril Lavigne, Suede, Linkin Park's Chester and company, NICK CARTER.
Yes, the legendary one.
And if you're even stupid enough, you would have guessed that I have got tickets to see him. Yes. Hear him live, see him, perhaps take photos. Yeah...