Happy Birthday to Fel. Thanks for your friendship all these years, and I hope you found dinner alright yesterday.
I'm uber apologetic for almost ruining everyone's night. I'm susceptible to pressure and baseless superstition, so that probably resulted in my skeptical behavior. But if your sandals give up on you halfway through your journey to the mall and misplace your water bottle all within that short time frame, you would probably be as frustrated as I was. It is going to be a week full of emotional turmoil, so I couldn't help but think that all this is bad karma accumulated from the past. Thanks, to you all, for proving this wrong. Eventually, although I had to discard my sandals, I recovered my bottle (it was sitting pretty at the cashier's as though it was some free gift with an album purchase).
I gravitated towards the Sony Gallery to catch a glimpse of the PSP for the second time in a week. I couldn't help it; it was in an irresistable hue of pink which will make any girl squirm with envy. But I'm still hesitating; I wanted it to be an emblem of my triumph over the A Levels, so I'm holding my possession of the PSP until after I receive my results. It might very well become a reward if I actually did well.
My wallet didn't let out a high-pitched scream when I picked up TANK's second album Keep Fighting from the CD shop, simply because it was worth every single cent. 11 brilliantly-engineered songs, a bonus DVD, as well as a demo CD with raw versions of selected tracks. Okay, I sound every bit the kiasu (afraid to lose out) music junkie, but with such great vocals and lyrics fused into so many tracks, I'm blessed to have grabbed the last copy of this CD from the shelf (it's the last piece, the lady told me reluctantly). I've heard much about this guy's ability to craft melodies and deliver them with such ease, and I finally caught his entire production. I admit, I didn't buy his first album, because I'm always unsure of newbies in the Chinese music industry. Thank God, TANK didn't fade away after his first album Fighting, but, interestingly, continued to fight for leg space in this man-eating arena. His fast numbers were bursting with adrenaline, while his slow tracks captivated the hearts of many. Good pick-me-up for a dreary day, just like today.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Cold turkey... 2 days to go
I prefer to work barefooted, because I treasure the feeling of having my feet planted firmly on the ground while dealing with situations and obnoxious people. I might have dirtied the carpet, though, with all the crunchy granola bar bits from my lunch.
That thing at home has decided to give up on me just 5 days after its rebirth. I definitely did not see that coming. That technician who solved my 3-week old problem within 5 minutes, as claimed by my sister, is going to get an earful from me. Servicing my computer for free and not doing a good job is not good job ethics.
Well, as anticipated, the results will be released this Friday. I'm going there as a cool cucumber, just like what I did when I collected my O Level results 2 years ago. Yes, it's a matter of life and death, but I believe there's rebirth too. All the best to all the candidates.
Yes, it's true that "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." I've got 2 days more before I say goodbye to cold turkey. Although I'm diverting my attention to other sources of good music, nothing beats listening to that good ol' music. Yes, I'm a self-professed freak who's incapable of controlling my own emotions and behavior, so perhaps I need more of such self-imposed bans to keep my head clear. Hopefully, I'll be able to emerge as a refreshed person with bountiful of energy to continue with my craze. Yes, I'm going to unleash myself soon.
Taking my BTT tomorrow. Seriously, is there anything to study? It's common sense, I'd say, other than those chunky paragrahs of what-have-you-not. C'mon, less than half of the drivers out there put all this theory to use once they get onto the roads.
That thing at home has decided to give up on me just 5 days after its rebirth. I definitely did not see that coming. That technician who solved my 3-week old problem within 5 minutes, as claimed by my sister, is going to get an earful from me. Servicing my computer for free and not doing a good job is not good job ethics.
Well, as anticipated, the results will be released this Friday. I'm going there as a cool cucumber, just like what I did when I collected my O Level results 2 years ago. Yes, it's a matter of life and death, but I believe there's rebirth too. All the best to all the candidates.
Yes, it's true that "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." I've got 2 days more before I say goodbye to cold turkey. Although I'm diverting my attention to other sources of good music, nothing beats listening to that good ol' music. Yes, I'm a self-professed freak who's incapable of controlling my own emotions and behavior, so perhaps I need more of such self-imposed bans to keep my head clear. Hopefully, I'll be able to emerge as a refreshed person with bountiful of energy to continue with my craze. Yes, I'm going to unleash myself soon.
Taking my BTT tomorrow. Seriously, is there anything to study? It's common sense, I'd say, other than those chunky paragrahs of what-have-you-not. C'mon, less than half of the drivers out there put all this theory to use once they get onto the roads.
Friday, February 23, 2007
Cold turkey... 6 days to go
It looks like another dreary day ahead, even before I'm going to start answering those gazillions of letters from that one particular nutcase regarding one simple matter. Even though e-mail is free, folks, but this is conspicuously a sign of extreme boredom and estrangement from your entire social circle. Pathetic.
I'm living another day like, how the Chinese saying goes, a headless housefly. No headway, no guidance, nothing.
First day of cold turkey was a little tricky, because my sister kept asking me about Chun. What the hell, I'm not his ardent fan and yet I was spilling all his biodata to her, before realising that *gasp* I'm supposed to be in cold turkey! Thank God, I diverted my attention to my sister's Malay-English dictionary. Phew. I need to stay focused.
I'm living another day like, how the Chinese saying goes, a headless housefly. No headway, no guidance, nothing.
First day of cold turkey was a little tricky, because my sister kept asking me about Chun. What the hell, I'm not his ardent fan and yet I was spilling all his biodata to her, before realising that *gasp* I'm supposed to be in cold turkey! Thank God, I diverted my attention to my sister's Malay-English dictionary. Phew. I need to stay focused.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Cold turkey... 7 days to go
It's a chore to keep them out of my head, especially when the tracks keep playing like they're stuck there for good. My cellphone wallpaper and screensaver, my magazines and CDs, their blogs, photos... I'm keeping them away from me for a week. Perhaps that will douse the wild fire that is burning out of control. I'm not even going to talk about them. I'm not trying to chuck them out of my life forever; I just want to prevent them from taking over me. I shall not be at the mercy of anyone, or anything, as far as I believe. No matter what happens, I need to keep myself as I am. Sounds like cold turkey, but I need a break and some solace, which I have found in work. So I'd rather work my ass off and die a happy person than to waste too much brain cells on unrequitted love.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
So it's all a lie
I didn't enjoy that feeling which overwhelmed me yesterday night. It wasn't pleasant and left me sleepless until 2 in the morning. Sorry if I caused any grevious harm of any nature to anyone. I didn't mean it.
So all the self-comfort was a huge lie cooked up by myself. Haha. I cringe at the thought. If I'm capable of deluding myself, why not...?
I guess Fay's right. Everything's just a rosy facade, placed right smacked in our faces and we just took it all in childishly. Ha. And to think part of my unreasonable fury converged from there. I'm such a huge fart.
So all the self-comfort was a huge lie cooked up by myself. Haha. I cringe at the thought. If I'm capable of deluding myself, why not...?
I guess Fay's right. Everything's just a rosy facade, placed right smacked in our faces and we just took it all in childishly. Ha. And to think part of my unreasonable fury converged from there. I'm such a huge fart.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Chinese New Year 2007
I needed all the motivation in the world to fish myself out of bed last morning after staying awake til 1am. It's all part of the tradition, and I've been at it for God-knows-how-long, and besides, I needed that extra few hours to re-collect my thoughts before the Lunar New Year.
Visiting relatives was an unsually subtle affair this year, perhaps owing to the uncertainties that lie with the coming year. I could sense that many people around me still had stuff on their minds which have not been dealt with in an impartial mind and disciplined soul. I didn't like the unfamiliar familiarity, especially at the start of the year.
For a change, I gave out my first token packets to my parents as a token of respect after earning my first paycheck. My Mum kinda rejected it at first, saying that it's unlucky to give out such stuff when you're not married yet. For God's sake, if I'm fated to stay a bachelorette and lonely all my life, a little packet wouldn't make a significant impact.
A pity the 4 of us couldn't spend some time together this festive season, due to Fay's unwilling trip. But we always manage to squeeze time out of our air-tight schedules to have dinner together, so we're blessed in another way. Happy Chinese New Year to my Besties, as well as my friends.
A huge bout of jealousy hit me at 10pm yesterday night, and I had to work it off to prevent myself from sleepwalking due to too much tension. I guess I'm too into this entire thing, but people around me know that if I'm into something, I'm definitely into it. I'm bent on staying jealous unless something else changes.
Visiting relatives was an unsually subtle affair this year, perhaps owing to the uncertainties that lie with the coming year. I could sense that many people around me still had stuff on their minds which have not been dealt with in an impartial mind and disciplined soul. I didn't like the unfamiliar familiarity, especially at the start of the year.
For a change, I gave out my first token packets to my parents as a token of respect after earning my first paycheck. My Mum kinda rejected it at first, saying that it's unlucky to give out such stuff when you're not married yet. For God's sake, if I'm fated to stay a bachelorette and lonely all my life, a little packet wouldn't make a significant impact.
A pity the 4 of us couldn't spend some time together this festive season, due to Fay's unwilling trip. But we always manage to squeeze time out of our air-tight schedules to have dinner together, so we're blessed in another way. Happy Chinese New Year to my Besties, as well as my friends.
A huge bout of jealousy hit me at 10pm yesterday night, and I had to work it off to prevent myself from sleepwalking due to too much tension. I guess I'm too into this entire thing, but people around me know that if I'm into something, I'm definitely into it. I'm bent on staying jealous unless something else changes.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Valentine's Day 2007 - Blessed
I’m retyping this because I’d forgotten cleanly about something called time-out.
How I wish I can never say goodbye, because it made me realize how valuable our time is when we’re together. So please, let us not allow each other to bid farewell.
Even my Mum’s jealous of this friendship of ours, although she still hangs out with her primary schoolmates. That spitfire didn’t bother to recognize my presence when I went home at midnight yesterday, but it doesn’t bother me. It’ll simmer down.
All the romance in the world will never be able to be on par with the kind of friendship we share, so it was the perfect day to spend time together yesterday. We shared the kind of bond which many people are still struggling to establish in their friendships. We owned this mutual respect and love for each other, and we will never fail to prove it. With this, I hope we’ll continue to have each other in our lives for as long as…
And I have to admit, the 4 of us have become even closer, thanks to Fahrenheit. The 4 of you have merged the 4 of us into a formidable force. No amount of thank-you’s will ever suffice. We see our similarities in you, and your ability to stick together in times of adversity has earned our respect. No matter whether any of you get to read this, I still wish to express my gratitude.
Jane, you’ll always be the big sister of ours, always being there for us. Your invaluable foresight and maturity, as well as your sense of rationality, has been one of our friendship’s pillars. Like Chun, you’ll always be there to lead, to nag at us, to guide our friendship to greater heights. Thanks for the flowers.
Yan, you’ve always be the item of my emulation, in case you’re unaware. Your calmness tames the savage in me, and your words were always invaluable. You’re versatile, being able to be serious and playful at the same time, and I admire that quality. Like Arron, you never fail to keep composed and your megawatt smiles, although rare, make me wanna smile back. Thanks for the lolly and letter.
Ying, thanks for just being there. Your prancing-around drives me nuts, but it’s the same thing which cheers me up whenever I’m down. Like Jiro, you’re always full of energy and zest, always ready to get up and liven up the atmosphere. Yet you're still vulnerable with your feelings at times. Thanks for the necklace.
The resemblance is uncanny, with so much of you being just like them. I’m truly blessed.
How I wish I can never say goodbye, because it made me realize how valuable our time is when we’re together. So please, let us not allow each other to bid farewell.
Even my Mum’s jealous of this friendship of ours, although she still hangs out with her primary schoolmates. That spitfire didn’t bother to recognize my presence when I went home at midnight yesterday, but it doesn’t bother me. It’ll simmer down.
All the romance in the world will never be able to be on par with the kind of friendship we share, so it was the perfect day to spend time together yesterday. We shared the kind of bond which many people are still struggling to establish in their friendships. We owned this mutual respect and love for each other, and we will never fail to prove it. With this, I hope we’ll continue to have each other in our lives for as long as…
And I have to admit, the 4 of us have become even closer, thanks to Fahrenheit. The 4 of you have merged the 4 of us into a formidable force. No amount of thank-you’s will ever suffice. We see our similarities in you, and your ability to stick together in times of adversity has earned our respect. No matter whether any of you get to read this, I still wish to express my gratitude.
Jane, you’ll always be the big sister of ours, always being there for us. Your invaluable foresight and maturity, as well as your sense of rationality, has been one of our friendship’s pillars. Like Chun, you’ll always be there to lead, to nag at us, to guide our friendship to greater heights. Thanks for the flowers.
Yan, you’ve always be the item of my emulation, in case you’re unaware. Your calmness tames the savage in me, and your words were always invaluable. You’re versatile, being able to be serious and playful at the same time, and I admire that quality. Like Arron, you never fail to keep composed and your megawatt smiles, although rare, make me wanna smile back. Thanks for the lolly and letter.
Ying, thanks for just being there. Your prancing-around drives me nuts, but it’s the same thing which cheers me up whenever I’m down. Like Jiro, you’re always full of energy and zest, always ready to get up and liven up the atmosphere. Yet you're still vulnerable with your feelings at times. Thanks for the necklace.
The resemblance is uncanny, with so much of you being just like them. I’m truly blessed.
Monday, February 12, 2007
We have nothing in common...but...
It's very unusual of me to find time and inspiration to write something at this time, but if I've got issues to settle and emotional knots to undo, time's no longer a stand-alone factor.
Time hardly finds me these few days, leaving me with little to spend with my family and friends. Working basically wastes it even more, because a work freak like me would finish up my work diligently within a few hours and find myself empty-handed and freezing cold until I knock off. Perhaps I should learn to slow down, because I'm not used to living life at such a "breakneck" pace. Breakneck indeed. And while I'm suffering from underworking, I'm undersleeping from all the worrying over people I care for. Love, be it mutual, non-mutual, familial or friendly, is a taxing law of motion. Even Physics can't explain it.
And here I go again. I've heard and read enough for the past 2 weeks, and it's getting unbearable. Absolutely. Unbearable. But no amount of lamenting, crying, complaining, cursing and swearing will seal the issue or heal any wounds. I know things have gotten out of hand, thanks to a bunch of lovely morons, but now's not the time to point fingers. I realised that showing who's right and who's not is simple; if I know that whatever I'm doing does not go against anybody's wishes, I'm going in the right direction. I will not inflict pain to show my support, and I will not shout just to make you listen to me. I will not fight the crowd to see you smile if I know it isn't by will; I will not beat traffic just to catch your pretty face. I have not, and will not, do whatever goes against my life and yours. I have my principles, and no matter how much thought I put into thinking, I will not forsake my benefits for you. That will be something I'll be selfish about. I will not change myself for you, for I will not do that for anyone. I will live my life as it is, eat and breathe just like everyone does. The one and only difference is, I now have one more person to care about.
Happy Valentine's.
Time hardly finds me these few days, leaving me with little to spend with my family and friends. Working basically wastes it even more, because a work freak like me would finish up my work diligently within a few hours and find myself empty-handed and freezing cold until I knock off. Perhaps I should learn to slow down, because I'm not used to living life at such a "breakneck" pace. Breakneck indeed. And while I'm suffering from underworking, I'm undersleeping from all the worrying over people I care for. Love, be it mutual, non-mutual, familial or friendly, is a taxing law of motion. Even Physics can't explain it.
And here I go again. I've heard and read enough for the past 2 weeks, and it's getting unbearable. Absolutely. Unbearable. But no amount of lamenting, crying, complaining, cursing and swearing will seal the issue or heal any wounds. I know things have gotten out of hand, thanks to a bunch of lovely morons, but now's not the time to point fingers. I realised that showing who's right and who's not is simple; if I know that whatever I'm doing does not go against anybody's wishes, I'm going in the right direction. I will not inflict pain to show my support, and I will not shout just to make you listen to me. I will not fight the crowd to see you smile if I know it isn't by will; I will not beat traffic just to catch your pretty face. I have not, and will not, do whatever goes against my life and yours. I have my principles, and no matter how much thought I put into thinking, I will not forsake my benefits for you. That will be something I'll be selfish about. I will not change myself for you, for I will not do that for anyone. I will live my life as it is, eat and breathe just like everyone does. The one and only difference is, I now have one more person to care about.
Happy Valentine's.
Friday, February 9, 2007
Marshies and moments
Those marshmallows with my name on it are still sitting pretty in my little candy box in the office. I can't bring myself to rip the plastic off and devour them, knowing for a fact that they're from someone close. I cherish everything I've been blessed with, I guess.
Laments are flooding into my SMS inbox regarding the release of A Level results. Rumour has it that it will be released next week. For Heaven's sake, my darlings, lamenting won't make the results change, neither will you be given extra credit for that extra worrying. Just go with the flow, since everything's already fixed in black and white and are just waiting to be torn from the brown envelopes. Whatever the outcome is, I just hope it wouldn't result in drastic aftermath. People have no idea how many youngsters are going sleepless every night just thinking about their results. Relax.
And for the first time, I'm never going to be spending Valentine's Day alone! *Wink* No boyfriend is not = no Valentine. But a whole bunch of besties + madness = a whole bunch of fun! So to all the lonely hearts out there, grab your single friends and head out for a singles' night. Who knows, you might even get the chance to meet next year's Valentine!
Laments are flooding into my SMS inbox regarding the release of A Level results. Rumour has it that it will be released next week. For Heaven's sake, my darlings, lamenting won't make the results change, neither will you be given extra credit for that extra worrying. Just go with the flow, since everything's already fixed in black and white and are just waiting to be torn from the brown envelopes. Whatever the outcome is, I just hope it wouldn't result in drastic aftermath. People have no idea how many youngsters are going sleepless every night just thinking about their results. Relax.
And for the first time, I'm never going to be spending Valentine's Day alone! *Wink* No boyfriend is not = no Valentine. But a whole bunch of besties + madness = a whole bunch of fun! So to all the lonely hearts out there, grab your single friends and head out for a singles' night. Who knows, you might even get the chance to meet next year's Valentine!
Thursday, February 8, 2007
My life is you
I'm up here because I have too many things in mind but nothing to pen down in black and white. I've been struggling haplessly for the past few days with an identity crisis. For one, my nemesis might take over for a few moments, resulting in the irrational behavior of mine at times. But now it's different, because we've become one, and we're prepared to unleash ourselves on unaware people. I'm totally giving in.
When the wind blows, I know it's you who's calling out loud to me. I know the silence in your voice, the smile in your eyes and the soul in your smile is beckoning out for me. But yet I choose to live in your shadows, and be the power you felt all your life but never had a chance to see. I smile your smile, and I cry your tears. You shall forever be the force which holds me up whenever I fall through the doors of hell. My strength is in you, like yours is in mine.
When the wind blows, I know it's you who's calling out loud to me. I know the silence in your voice, the smile in your eyes and the soul in your smile is beckoning out for me. But yet I choose to live in your shadows, and be the power you felt all your life but never had a chance to see. I smile your smile, and I cry your tears. You shall forever be the force which holds me up whenever I fall through the doors of hell. My strength is in you, like yours is in mine.
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
I pray for your happiness
Perhaps I don't feel secure about putting my head and heart into something I feel would not work out in real life. My heart aches for the fact that people I care for are not being appreciated by those who love them equally as much, or even more, than I do. I disregard any form of fanatism because I know that that isn't something that comes from the heart; it's just pure, blind craze. I feel the need to be there to comfort you whenever you feel inferior to the others; I yearn for the day that I could just be right next to you to listen to you share your laughter and your pain, and yet feel distant. Perhaps all this could just be a dream, then I wouldn't mind keeping myself asleep. The smile on your face dries my tears; the tears in your eyes urges me to cherish your smiles even more.
Yet I wouldn't give up the world for you, because I know your very existence means the world to me. Maybe, just maybe, if I could just watch you smile for me for just a single moment, it would just be enough.
And those eyes. Those are the very ones which complete your smile, the ones which complete your tears. I could gaze into your eyes and smile with them, or watch them fill up with tears to let your emotions run dry. If your eyes are the windows to your soul, then your gaze must be the arched gates to Heaven.
Yet reality will forever punish me, for I guess being there for you always will a dream. All I can do now, is to sit and pray that you'll be happy basking under your very own sky with the sun over you always. Then I'll be satisfied with my existence.
Yet I wouldn't give up the world for you, because I know your very existence means the world to me. Maybe, just maybe, if I could just watch you smile for me for just a single moment, it would just be enough.
And those eyes. Those are the very ones which complete your smile, the ones which complete your tears. I could gaze into your eyes and smile with them, or watch them fill up with tears to let your emotions run dry. If your eyes are the windows to your soul, then your gaze must be the arched gates to Heaven.
Yet reality will forever punish me, for I guess being there for you always will a dream. All I can do now, is to sit and pray that you'll be happy basking under your very own sky with the sun over you always. Then I'll be satisfied with my existence.
Monday, February 5, 2007
From me to you
I've given up worrying my life away, realising (perhaps it's a little late) that no matter how much thought I put into some matters, the ending's already welded itself to reality, so no amount of frowns and tears will change it.
Working life changed me, and for the better. I learnt to appreciate things I didn't put into much thought previously. I learnt to look at people and things from more than one angle and work my way round adversities. I learnt the art of tricking the corroding effects of time by giving my free time to my family and closest friends. I learnt the beauty of forgiveness and friendship. I basically reaped whatever there is to possess in society. But this is yet to be the last of what I'm going to benefit from life. I've just started with the prologe of my book of life; there's plenty down the road to experience, toil and enjoy.
Still, I make it a point to keep my feet firmly on the ground and not deviate from my course. My family kept me standing and going; my bestest friends became the additional jolt of energy to keep my life vibrant and full of adrenaline. I love you, Mom and Dad, and I love you all, my bestest bestest Gurlies.
Sounds mushy, but sometimes we just need to make the people around us feel appreciated.
Working life changed me, and for the better. I learnt to appreciate things I didn't put into much thought previously. I learnt to look at people and things from more than one angle and work my way round adversities. I learnt the art of tricking the corroding effects of time by giving my free time to my family and closest friends. I learnt the beauty of forgiveness and friendship. I basically reaped whatever there is to possess in society. But this is yet to be the last of what I'm going to benefit from life. I've just started with the prologe of my book of life; there's plenty down the road to experience, toil and enjoy.
Still, I make it a point to keep my feet firmly on the ground and not deviate from my course. My family kept me standing and going; my bestest friends became the additional jolt of energy to keep my life vibrant and full of adrenaline. I love you, Mom and Dad, and I love you all, my bestest bestest Gurlies.
Sounds mushy, but sometimes we just need to make the people around us feel appreciated.
Saturday, February 3, 2007
Friends for thought
*Prances around* My pay finally came!!!
So today's the uber shopping day for me and my Gurlies (minus Jane due to work). I just realise how huge a hassle it is to have no clothes to match. I've been largely a shirt-and-jeans person for the past few weeks, so deciding on what to wear for shopping totally caught me.
And if you're guessing that my PC's up, then my apologies, but this thing here is not listening to me.
And I miss my Gurlies!!! The feeling just overwhelms me sometimes, and it leaves me with the sudden urge to call each one of them up just to ask about life and work. We've probably reached a stage where we're indispensable to each other (sounds like a pretty snobbish thing to say), and we could guess what each of us are thinking about. THIS is the friendship everybody should be heading towards, and I'm just glad the four of us found it. Our likes, our hates, our habits... We've become 1.
So today's the uber shopping day for me and my Gurlies (minus Jane due to work). I just realise how huge a hassle it is to have no clothes to match. I've been largely a shirt-and-jeans person for the past few weeks, so deciding on what to wear for shopping totally caught me.
And if you're guessing that my PC's up, then my apologies, but this thing here is not listening to me.
And I miss my Gurlies!!! The feeling just overwhelms me sometimes, and it leaves me with the sudden urge to call each one of them up just to ask about life and work. We've probably reached a stage where we're indispensable to each other (sounds like a pretty snobbish thing to say), and we could guess what each of us are thinking about. THIS is the friendship everybody should be heading towards, and I'm just glad the four of us found it. Our likes, our hates, our habits... We've become 1.
Friday, February 2, 2007
Cashless
I had my German lessons next to a room full of people jamming on their electric guitars and drumset for the third time in a row. The school should do something about it or the noise will bring down the building sooner or later.
Mood swings have been setting in recently, and without warning. Forgive me, but if you find yourself to be the victim of my untimely outburst, at least you know I don't mean it. Things just get to me when I least expect it.
I still haven't mustered up enough courage to check my bank balance, in case I flare up accidently and cause damage to private property. My discman has officially R.I.P with all display and no music (a.k.a brain-dead), but Jane's suggestion of an MP3 player's still way out my shrinking budget. Plus, my PC's dead as well. Great. Everything just has to die on me altogether. Hopeless.
As the week comes to a close, I carry with me a load of rash decisions and subsequent regrets which I will continue to grapple with in the following weeks to come, unless a solution and multiple compromises surface. In the meanwhile, I shall continue to wade knee-deep in this torrential disaster.
Mood swings have been setting in recently, and without warning. Forgive me, but if you find yourself to be the victim of my untimely outburst, at least you know I don't mean it. Things just get to me when I least expect it.
I still haven't mustered up enough courage to check my bank balance, in case I flare up accidently and cause damage to private property. My discman has officially R.I.P with all display and no music (a.k.a brain-dead), but Jane's suggestion of an MP3 player's still way out my shrinking budget. Plus, my PC's dead as well. Great. Everything just has to die on me altogether. Hopeless.
As the week comes to a close, I carry with me a load of rash decisions and subsequent regrets which I will continue to grapple with in the following weeks to come, unless a solution and multiple compromises surface. In the meanwhile, I shall continue to wade knee-deep in this torrential disaster.
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