So it's all a lie

I didn't enjoy that feeling which overwhelmed me yesterday night. It wasn't pleasant and left me sleepless until 2 in the morning. Sorry if I caused any grevious harm of any nature to anyone. I didn't mean it.

So all the self-comfort was a huge lie cooked up by myself. Haha. I cringe at the thought. If I'm capable of deluding myself, why not...?

I guess Fay's right. Everything's just a rosy facade, placed right smacked in our faces and we just took it all in childishly. Ha. And to think part of my unreasonable fury converged from there. I'm such a huge fart.