feverstruck

i couldn't get to sleep last night. Was thinking about a bunch of stuff. I think i'm crazy. First i hurt myself over some freak, now HIM. I AM CRAZY. Then i started crying in the middle of the night. Just because of that. i just guess I'm truely crazy to cry over something like that. All i was considering was how i was going to deal with this mess i made. I don't know how such a thing would happen, AGAIN. ON ME.
Was damn pissed today. first, i didn't get my beauty sleep yesterday night, so i was so freaking grumpy and sorts. i just couldn't find anything to cheer myself up. i went onto MSN, but the least Kah Teng did to irritate me was to ask me for a basketball when mine was flat. Bah... HE was online too, so it charged me up a little. Second, i just guessed my parents were not sincere in getting me a phone lorZ... i was basically looking forward to the weekend because of this, and i was left disappointed and pissed. I don't mind not having a phone, but i'm just utterly pissed...

TLC 'Unpretty'

"UnPretty"

I wish could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'
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You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too
Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm bein' stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

fickled minded me

The inter-class basketball tournament has once again been postponed… They might as well cancel it… Such a waste of time… And the school introduced this boring program called what Chinese reading programme which is so damn boring a huge waste of time… I could have rushed home in time to catch my Entertainment Weekly… And Qing Rui is back in school! He was absent yesterday cuz he bumped his head on Wednesday… Awww…
When I was taking a bus home just now, I actually counted the number of crushes I had ever since I came into Secondary school… Hmm… one… two… three… four… five… six… seven… eight… I guess that’s all… lolZ…
Mum’s buying me a hp cuz she wanted to change hers… I’ll put my hp number here once I get my phone… I just can’t wait… I was still daydreaming on how I should decorate my phone during Chemistry…

POOR THING

My prediction actually came true. i failed my a-maths...tsktsk... i guess that didn't count....
Today is so sian.... There was SJAB, so had to stay back to plan the interunit campfire for 4th July...Then Qing Rui(the sec.4 guy from bball) got a huge cut on his forehead while playing soccer with his friends... POOR THING... he had to be sent to hospital, i guess, to get that bad cut sewn up... poor thing...
Then felz called out 'za bo' to Chengyi and he actually replied... first guy i ever knew who actually does that...
And til now, I still have absolutely no idea how to use the idiotic MSN Plus... so many colors like IRC like that...

Sick of it all

My hell of a grandmother just returned from her 3-week holiday... Apparently she thought that she got that SARS and decided to stay home and quarantine herself...

Was so over-the-moon when i finally scored my FIRST A1 for maths... (claps hands) lolz... but i can gurantee my A-maths sure fail...

I am real crazy... boy-crazy... i dunno... some unlucky one just caught my eye... i'm dead... I guess i should start liking with my head, not my heart, cuz i just realised how much it has hurt me through the years... brought myself so much unwanted agony and tears...

Tomorrow's the play-offs(if i'm not wrong) for the inter-class basketball competition... Hoping for the best... our class is combining with 3/11 and wei ze from 4/1 for the comp... Heard that they are facing tough competition from 3/9 and their allies... good luck...

End of the world :'(

You can say that I hate my life or something like that…I dun care… I just hate the things going on around me… it’s totally not fair to me… I know some may be asking ‘you have no right to make the world go YOUR way, so why insist?’ I know. I have never in my life put such an entry in, but today I differ. I hate the dishumanity done to me. All I did this morning was say’ which idiot poured the cup of milk here and didn’t drink it’ and I got this huge irritating in my ear… as if I wanted to scold my dad… no one gave me enough peace the entire day… even my idiotic sis choose to do so. she could have chosen a huge piece of pancake, yet she chose a totally pathetic one so that she can have her second helping… and my parents chose to side her. there. game over for me… I don’t know… And that ass of a sis of mine made me go to my wits’ ends… all I did was laid on her chest so very VERY lightly and she started to bawl like some crazy fat ol’ woman who has got her chest pressed out of place…. she think she’s so matured… 12 only then somemore like bamboo then learn how to wear bra…. idiots…. I hate my life…. I wanna kill myself…. sometimes I have to make myself convinced that I’m in a happy family but no, I’m not…. I’m just cheering myself up so that I can go on with life day by day…. everyone argues that what they did was for my good, but has anyone thought how much ‘good’ has it done yet?

Playing B-ball, my way

I just had the best time in my entire school life... Well, not really, but at least i enjoyed myself... After school i didn't care a heck about whether there's the young journalist course or whatsoever. i just did some hoop-shooting and just yelled my day away. The sj meeting was cancelled at the last minute so NX and i were able to reach the court in time. Obviously we didn't play in school cus if we actually did I don't know what kind of embarrassment are we going to suffer. i did some under-the-nets and got on real well with the court-snatching idiots from our school... i rather kill myself than argue with those unreasonable .......
Anyway, NX's 3-pointers were so impressive that even Clement was oogling...

(NX shoots ball from 3-ptr line)
(ball does a chop)
Clement: did the ball go in?
Ming xiong: (nods his head profusely)

LoL... We had a great time... NX even helped me with my 2-pt shots from the line.... I didn't know i can actually do that kinda stuff... Anyway we got ourselves so dirty from picking the ball from mud holes i got a little paranoid... lol...i had a great time...