I need you

Doesn't this ring a bell? I recall the exuberance simply by popping one of these cubes of fruit flavoured joy into my mouth as a kid, completely ignorant of the consequences of suger overload. And this is the best I could do to salvage whatever memories my childhood has left in me.

And from grocery shopping, busing home, watching you watching me cooking, chatting with my mum, watching TV with everyone else, preparing your bath towel and fresh clothes for you... I just wish I could eliminate the heart-wrenching finale of watching the bus 185 take you away. I'm still ever-so selfish when it comes to love, and it eats me up from inside every single time. I'm at a self-contradiction here; that the pain was good in such a way that it reminds me just how much you mean to me, and how irreplaceable a love like this is.

I miss you, more than ever.