Puzzling

I dreamt that I lost the diamonds on my ring.

I dreamt that I was being chased by savage women.

I dreamt that someone was singing in my head.


I think my brain runs on nuclear power, because it simply couldn't rest when I'm in desperate need of sleep. I've been told that this may be a sign of being overly lethargic. Probably, especially when my nights end in the wee hours of the morning, and my days start in the wee hours of the morning. The hustling and bustling around while racing against project deadlines feeds me an enormous amount of adrenaline, but the consequences are dire.

Like falling asleep the moment my butt hits the bus seat.

Like jolting awake during GEK lectures to realise that I've actually been sleeping all along.

Like waking with a start after dreaming about an overdue assignment.



One consolation was Shu Min's lecture today! So she had been in Japan these past years! Anyway today's lecture on gender fluidity and Okama had been insightful; I hadn't felt like this for the past few lectures, simply because the content was... dry. Then Shu Min popped up today and provided an all-new perspective to gender discourses in Japan and the difference between ascribed gender and social gender. The lecture brought Ikko-san in the picture; Ikko-san is a transgendered TV personality in Japan, where he/she hosts a primetime programme, teaching beauty and fashion tips to Japanese women. Even when he/she didn't find a space in the social puzzle to fit into, that wasn't a deterrence to carving a successful entertainment career in conservative Japan.

My ultimate rhetoric: why try to hard to fit in anyway? Why try so hard to blend into the woodwork? Isn't being human all about being unique and differentiated from one another?