To Qing Rui, a brother and a friend

I raised a cup for Qing Rui. You'll be missed by all as a brother, a great friend, and a good leader. If this is the ending you wished for to halt the pain, then I hope you're happy where you are.

Loved and missed by all,
Qing Rui
(1988-2008)

I need to clear the fog from my glasses for a bit. I've been doing a fair bit of crying for the past few days, and I'm totally unbashed about it. The amount of emotional stress was too much to bear. But I'll push on, because I know those who love me wouldn't wish for me to be in this state of despair. I'll be strong, I promise to try.

And I wouldn't say I'm not worried. In fact, I'm so unconfident of myself that everytime I turn around, I worry that you might just walk away or get kidnapped by someone else. I'm probably mad, but I need to pour this out.