Won't anyone just UNDERSTAND?!

I think I'm near breaking point. The criticism, the hurtful comments, the nonsensical responses...

It hurts when people tell you so blatantly in your face when they don't like it. I'm the former conformist who does whatever pleases you. Sorry, but not from today onwards. I see no wrong with what I'm doing currently, because I believe I appropriated adequate time to everyone, and I don't think it's a crime to talk about him. I mean, don't you already know?! I wasn't even being insensitive; people just have to bring it up, and then nudge the blame in my direction.

Oh.

Thanks.

"Got boyfriend also don't tell me.""Aiyah, you're always spending time with him, where got time to go out with us?""Can you not tell me these things?"

For a second I really wished I was dumb, deaf and blind. Then I won't have to see the "disappointment", hear the complaints and answer the questions whose answers will still offend you.

And it hurts me even more because I don't wish for Jack to worry over the emotional stuff I'm going through, because the fault lies with my side, not his. And it kills me when he worries.
Sometimes I wondered if all this nonsense would end if I just wanted out of this relationship. Then it'll probably please ALL the people I call FRIENDS.