To be able to go nowhere is killing me. And to tear someone away from me for a week kills me even more.
I don't know when was the last time I woke up to find myself crying; I knew the day wasn't going to be the same. I held onto every single minute before the last message, and then broke down like a horrible kid in the supermarket. Oh well, that's just the way I release my pent up emotions, don't need to think too much into it. I just hope he's all safe and sound and enjoying himself there.
Work is another worry; I have NO work, and that's a worry to worry about. And it's no longer about doing something I love, but doing something for the money. I'm just truely bored and broke to death rotting at home. If I can spend 2 hours on the hula and laughing at Jacky Wu (sorry no pun intended there), I can't see how busy I can get. And I'm still left hanging by a moment at this very point of time.
Took out my tabs for Romance De Amor and tried it again. Seriously, it didn't seem as difficult as it was a week ago, although my barring is still giving me away. Tried to memorise the solos for Right Here Waiting and songs from my Grade 2 book, and realised that I needed to defragment my hard drive up there.
Oh well, so much for missing someone.
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