Chore~

I seriously view it as a severe case of lack of adoration on my part to be feeling this way at this point of time, and I'm totally annoyed because I'm feeling this way. I should go find a wall and run into it until I wake myself up.

I'm supposed to finish memorising all 46 characters of katakana today. I said supposed, which obviously meant that I didn't; I couldn't even manage 10 before zoning out into oblivation. At this snail-pace I'm going at, it'll probably take me another 10,000 light years to get everything right. Someone kindly clobber me to death.

Finally some things got ironed out 2 days ago, and seems like things are going fine for the both of them now. I didn't want to face the real side of him, because it's not what everyone's made him out to be. The past 2 months or so haven't been easy on him, with everything crashing in at the same time. I tried to look at everything from a neutral perspective, but I realised I couldn't be, even if he might have been the ultimate source of it all and the other party was being victimised all along. I couldn't bring myself to nod along and support the idea of pointing my accusing finger at him because I wasn't in a postion to do so. If things could be ironed out privately and not be cast under the media's hawk-eyed attention, I'll do anything for it. So I'm really sorry if I didn't support the idea of making him look bad in public. I simply can't bring myself to do it, even if he's two-faced and all that. I believe he did everything for a reason, and even if the reason hadn't been valid enough to excuse him of all allegations, I'll still be on his side. I'll be selfish, I'll choose to protect him, just like what she did.