I tided over the first bout of minor depression with the accompaniment of the fay and jane. I wasn't exactly in the correct mood to go shopping yesterday; i didn't want to lose any single moment with them, although ying couldn't make it. At this point of time, I have come to realise that a good friendship has the ability to buffer other anormalies in life. Problems from life, other 'friends' who give me problems, parents, family... Just being with the three of them drives all my woes away. I feel so at ease around them, although it seems as though I'm the one who's always having problems. I'm so selfish.
The self-imposed nagging is losing out to self-denial and fear of loss. I'm losing out against myself. How pathetic. I... I just don't wish to lose a friend. I've seen how friendships end this way, umpteen times, and I do not wish to become a victim of opportunity.
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