Fay and I weren’t indulging in the silly answers of horoscope tests yesterday night; it was a fruitful chat with someone who seemed too keen on keeping those knotty-bitty troubles to herself. It wasn’t an emotional heart-to-heart chat, although I might have scared her off by telling her cheekily that I could have been more explicit when it comes to some stuff. ;) Haha. At the same time, I was on another convo box with NX, lamenting over something stupid. I can be reliant on others when it comes to pouring out my troubles. I need a good listening ear, just like how I can be an equally good one. And I’m blessed to have people listen to me complain about the same person for the nth time.
As usual, Fay and I were chatting about relationships and how absurd a one-sided, inequitable relationship can be. In fact, I’ve never been in a mutual relationship before; I’ve always been the one giving. It sounds really dumb, but after yesterday night, I think I wouldn’t delve into a proper relationship even if I’m presented with the chance. The sacrifices would be huge, and although I’m numb to giving, there will be things in life I wouldn’t forsake to go into a relationship. I think I sound even dumber, because you must be thinking, “This bitch hasn’t even started on the playing field and she’s already given up”. I’m not giving up. It’s just that all the right people can appear at the wrong time and do all the wrong things, or that all the people who seem right are actually wrong. Or maybe it’s just that I’m never the right one for anyone. Ha.
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