Short naps and long whines

Past 48 hours have been a killer, don't ask why. I just never want to put us through it again. Because I know how it hurts to hold the tears inside and pretend that nothing has happened. But everything's ok now.

Can I say I'm uber envious of Jack who finished his exams yesterday? Well, the pros and cons of finishing papers early. You get to slack earlier, but you have to mug like mad. That was what happened to Jack, having 5 papers on 5 days. It was a mad rush, and worse when he has a very very very demanding girlfriend who's always bullying him.
lol.
He'll nod.
But he totally deserves this good 2 days to relax with his good pals, before it's a nosedive into work. Sometimes I wish I could do more for him, instead of him doing all the coaxing, comforting, ... I don't like lope-sided relationships.

But the leg-hugging talk we had yesterday (don't ask why it turned out that way) with my sis' soggy instant noodles for lunch was fulfilling, both ways. You know, sometimes the only way to solve problems is to thrash it out, albeit in a subtle way. But it's comforting to know that we can actually take time to sit down and talk about problems and issues. I think it's either I'm going bonkers from mugging 2219, or we're becoming more and more like a PR agency.

Issue tracking + environment scanning + strategic planning + objective-setting + tactic-employment + evaluation

*dodges the bullet*

Spent some good time debating with Fay over giving and taking too much last night. She was pushing for some sort of 'over-giving' idea, in the sense that if everyone gave excessively, then it would be equal. But the million-dollar question lies here: if the giver suddenly stops giving, who's going to fill that void? You? Me?
Nah, I'm not altruistic enough. I don't like to give in excess, and I feel bad about taking in excess as well. I'd say, I push for a balanced and healthy give-and-take relationship in everything, between everyone. Seriously, if everyone was that big-hearted, people wouldn't be killing their own kind whenever something goes wrong.

Okay, it's back to PR and law.

11 ways to keep your guy

Haha.
Was reading up advice on one of favourite forums, and I came across this:

Here are some advice/tips us women should follow if we want to keep the man that we are with and are in LOVE with:

1. Never ALLOW your man to dictate your whereabouts. Ladies, no matter how many times your man want to be called "daddy," they are not our daddies. We do not have to report to them. Ladies if you want to go shopping, hang with your friends {{Yes, even guy friends}}, then by all means do so. If your man asks where have you been just simply reply with "out with my friends." Besides if you ask him he will reply with the same answer.

2. Never QUESTION your man about ANYTHING if you are not totally sure about it. The first thing to know if your man is cheating is by having an assumption that he is. Now dont be the insecure one and as soon as you see him talking to a female then you think he is cheating. No, you have to be secure in yourself first. If you suspect that he is, then your JOB is to trap him so that you will have CONCRETE proof that he is cheating. A man hates to be questioned just by an assumption. He will lie his way out of it ESPECIALLY if he knows you have no evidence. Once you question him and he IS NOT cheating, it will be HARD trying to gain his trust BACK. Besides you don't like to be questioned if you know you are being FAITHFUL RIGHT??

3. Do not CHANGE for your man. He fell in love with you the WAY YOU ARE. Don't try and compete with THE JONES. Let them compete with YOU. If you were the type that dressed up everyday, made sure your makeup was in tact, and things like that then DO NOT slip and start being "too comfortable." What attracted him to you, will KEEP him with you. Besides you don't want him to stop buying you gifts just because, surprising you with dinner, or things like that RIGHT??

4. Please LEARN how to cook if you do not know how. "A way to a man's heart is through his stomach." That is so true INDEED. A man loves to be pampered, just like you do. So cook for your man just because. Men are not the only kind of humans that can surprise their partner. Just as much as you like to be wined and dined, he does TOO!

5. PLEASE your man to the BEST of your ability. NEVER say what you won't do to please your man. If you don't do it, he will find a TRICK that will. Try NEW things with him. KEEP him interested in you where he wouldn't want to go find ANOTHER freak. Have an open mind in the bedroom but if AT ALL you do not feel COMFORTABLE, let him know. If he persists then he is NOT for you in the first PLACE.

6. STOP requiring so much time with your man. Him hanging with his friends is A MUST for men. They do not want to combine his homeboy time with your time. That may sound mean but he needs that SPACE. Him chillin with his homeboys is just like you with your "girl" friends. There is no harm in that and you must have that TRUST.

7. LADIES you must TRUST your man. If he said he didn't do it or he was at this place then BELIEVE him. What is a good relationship if you can't trust the man? NEVER take the word of a TRICK over your MAN. There are other females that want what you have. DO NOT give them the PLEASURE of putting your man on the MARKET.

8. DON'T depend on your man to make the FIRST CALL. If he goes out with his friends and do not call or stop by for like 3 days, then don't fret. You go out with your friends and ENJOY yourself. If he finally comes back after the 6th day, DO NOT act like his disapperance affected you. A man, well a STRONG MAN wants a STRONG WOMAN. Show him that you can survive with or without him. Let him know that HE needs to step up his GAME if he wants to KEEP YOU because you can find someone that WILL.

9. NEVER become close with your man's BEST FRIEND. That will never work. His best friend will go back and tell your man whatever you tell his best friend. His best friend might start to like you and make moves on you and that can ONLY complicate things.

10. Meet your man's family {{Mostly mother and sisters}}. Become REAL close with them to the point where THEY will STICK UP FOR YOU. In a crisis they will tell HIM how WRONG HE IS and will CONVINCE him to go BACK with YOU. They are your Close BEST FRIENDS. KEEP them around!

11. Your FAITH must match. You can not live a Christian life and be in a relationship with a man that is not a Christian. You are unequally yoked and the Bible talks about this. If you find a man that loves God, he will treat you accordingly. Every woman wants a man like God: able to provide for her, love her, care for her, and everything in between. Finding a man that loves God, he will do just that. He knows how to treat a woman and will try his best to do no harm. Now that man IS NOT God so he will fall short everytime but with the GRACE of God he will be renewed.

author: cbshortie4eva17

Is this true? Tell me.

When there was you and me

why did i let myself believe
that miracles could happen
cuz now i have to pretend
that i don't really care

When all else fails, be the one that works

A freaking update from the earlier entry...

I busted my JS2228 paper. It was simply a matter of 'flip over, glance through the questions, try to cough up something, give up'. I can't say I didn't study, I just studied the stuff they put the least emphasis on. No luck. I think it's a constitution of sleeping late last night, waking up this morning to mug, and mugging right to the doorstep of the paper. Oh man. Was talking to Ed and Chee Yong at the Deck about the paper, and we were talking about being contented with a B-. Can I ask for a B instead? Is that too much? At least I'll feel better.
And damn that picture of the book on high collars.

Oh, and 2 weeks after my camera function died, the slide has spoilt. So technically, I can't send SMSes, because I can't slide my phone open without turning the display off. The light has died, apparently. Damn. It's all a conglomerate of bad things waiting to happen. The husband was vomiting cons of a non-monoblock phone.
Yes, darling.

And it's 3880A tomorrow.
Someone throw holy water over me.

The moment to forget

I'm 36 minutes away from my JS 2228 paper. And I'm skiving at Com Cen. You know it when the sleep pangs hit you after lunch like a hailstorm... You just wanna drift off to Lalaland.
That's my exact sentiments now, neglecting the fact that I DO have a paper to take.

I realised I've have to have people spill things on my bag everytime I go for tuition. Meixian had kindly blessed my laptop bag with her coffee from the Deck the week before, and a very sleepy Bradley split his mineral water without much hoo-haa yesterday. He didn't even bat an eyelid when I pranced out of my seat to save my drowning bag from the pool of water he had made on the teacher's desk.
How helpful.
I wonder what they teach the kids in school nowadays.

And I'm just sick of this regurgitating and forceful swallowing of facts after every paper. I absolutely don't wanna become a penguin.

Time to face my fate.