This is it. I'll have to start work tomorrow. I have this really ominous feeling about working, probably because I haven't gotten a single foot into the adult world of working yet, so I'll have to take that virgin step tomorrow. Sounds creepy, if you ask me.
I have a feeling I'm going to develop a musky love-hate relationship with my job, because retail is not really one of my professions, yet on the other hand, I'm already dying to reach out and grab that miserable payout. I'm desperate, I admit. I still have a monstrous shopping diet to feed, ya know.
So if you ever happen to see me at work, do pop by and say hi, and I'll be more than happy to help you.
Anyway, a humongous apology to all those who have asked me out for meals. Firstly, I'm totally broke, so much to the extent that I've settled for a lousy job just for that few miserable bucks. Secondly, I'll have to work till 1 in the morning on some days, so I'll most probably be squashed dry of my strength and thirst for shopping and partying. This is how much I'm willing to sacrifice to keep myself out of boredom and into working life.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Friday, November 24, 2006
I'm angry, angry, angry, angry, angry
I'm super angry at this moment because:
1. I get screamed at the moment I got home. I wasn't anticipating such less-than-tepid treatment, especially when I'm already 18 and that shopaholic mum of mine is the one doing the yelling. My dad didn't even flinch.
2. I have a job now, but I'm hating it at the same time. Doesn't anyone realise that I've got to work before I can play? Where in the world am I going to get the money to enjoy my last few months of freedom before I lapse into another phase of mugging again? People are calling me up from all over the place for class gatherings, meals, karaoke sessions, etc. , but without the money in the picture, the entire scenario looks pretty bleak.
3. I'm really going to work my ass off. The moment the manager told me I'd have to work till 1am on weekends, a little regret did branch off me. But work is work, and work=money. No work=no money. More work=more money. My math did improve. So that gives my mum another reason to yell at me.
1. I get screamed at the moment I got home. I wasn't anticipating such less-than-tepid treatment, especially when I'm already 18 and that shopaholic mum of mine is the one doing the yelling. My dad didn't even flinch.
2. I have a job now, but I'm hating it at the same time. Doesn't anyone realise that I've got to work before I can play? Where in the world am I going to get the money to enjoy my last few months of freedom before I lapse into another phase of mugging again? People are calling me up from all over the place for class gatherings, meals, karaoke sessions, etc. , but without the money in the picture, the entire scenario looks pretty bleak.
3. I'm really going to work my ass off. The moment the manager told me I'd have to work till 1am on weekends, a little regret did branch off me. But work is work, and work=money. No work=no money. More work=more money. My math did improve. So that gives my mum another reason to yell at me.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Exam-free, and still complaining
So much for being exam-free. I miss mugging like some of my friends, and the stacks of books and worksheets piling up on top of the shelf are literally screaming for attention. But looking on the brighter side, my table no longer looks like modern-day Manhattan, which is quite a blessing.
I need to keep my eyes open and my brain clear. I need some direction. I'm currently fumbling in emptiness, and there's no direction. Just totally bored off my socks. I need a job! I need a job before my ass starts to rot and my legs start to shrink.
I need to keep my eyes open and my brain clear. I need some direction. I'm currently fumbling in emptiness, and there's no direction. Just totally bored off my socks. I need a job! I need a job before my ass starts to rot and my legs start to shrink.
Friday, November 17, 2006
As a chapter closes, another opens
My first entry after the A Levels is supposed to sound intelligent, but I'm suddenly at a loss as to what I'm supposed to write.
Good, so it's the end of another chapter of my life. Now what? I'm like an author suffering from a severe case of writer's block, because the beginning of the next chapter's still stuck in my pen. It seemed as though the lights went off, came back on, and suddenly the room's empty. I feel as lost as Little Bo Peep's lost sheep.
Just before I step into an entire new life with the same old people and (hopefully) a new me, I've got people to thank. (It's a long list, so if you're not interested, just scroll down to your name. If your name isn't here, sorry to say you haven't exactly made an impact in my life.)
Hong Ying, though we haven't got much time to spend together due to studies, I totally treasure our friendship all these years and it's totally indescribable.
Jane, my Ah Ma, really enjoyed the times we had in the group, always bantering and laughing. You were always the one I run to in times of desperation during examinations, so I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. Don't worry, I won't steal your toy whale again, I know it's too precious. And thanks for the 'BeeHoon'.
Karthi Ducky, you barged into my life, made a whole hell, but I totally love you for that. You're always that cheerful, though it pains any good friend to see you crying at times over matters that aren't worth your tears. If it hadn't been for your last-minute help, I would have given up on my Chem. Love ya.
Liyan, Though always so silent, the smiles and lame jokes are your ways of fostering friendship, and I appreciate all the times we spent together in the group. Good luck to your ambition (It'll probably take me another 100 years to reach your level of 'Nirvana') and hopefully we'll see each other again.
NX, despite the countless tiffs we had and the amount of tears you've cried over our friendship, I still love you like I did years back and our friendship will still be around. Sorry for always being the villain.
Small Siti, I didn't exactly see you pop into my life (can't blame lah, too small), but you came in and wowed me with that megawatt smile. Thanks for being crazy over football, Teddy Geiger, Jesse McCartney just as I was.
Sub, you made me realise that smart people can act stupid at times. No lah, just joking. I'll never forget all the laughter you injected into my monotonous life and made it bright and colourful all over again. Kudos for soccer!
Sug, you were the one who made the greatest (and not so very well) impact in my JC life. You were the good friend I confided in and joked with, the one I discussed homework with and worked so well with, but you were also the one who broke my heart with a pinch of your pettiness. Perhaps only time will tell if the chasm between us will ever be bridged, but I shall keep a positive image of you in my mind.
To all my teachers, firstly, really sorry for the lousy work I've been turning in from Primary 1 til now. I can be a really staunch procrastinator, but you all are always there to hammer some sense into me (not literally!) and educate me. Thanks alot, no matter how significant I am to you.
05S13, I totally love you all to bits and it's a real pity we haven't had a real class outing altogether, but I hope we'll still continue to communicate via our class blog and update each other on our status. May our paths cross again.
To 10erz, I still haven't forgotten you all despite my receding memory, and I'll still continue to meet up with you all if we ever have the chance.
God all this sounds way cheesy. I think I need some digestion pills to get me through the night.
Good, so it's the end of another chapter of my life. Now what? I'm like an author suffering from a severe case of writer's block, because the beginning of the next chapter's still stuck in my pen. It seemed as though the lights went off, came back on, and suddenly the room's empty. I feel as lost as Little Bo Peep's lost sheep.
Just before I step into an entire new life with the same old people and (hopefully) a new me, I've got people to thank. (It's a long list, so if you're not interested, just scroll down to your name. If your name isn't here, sorry to say you haven't exactly made an impact in my life.)
Hong Ying, though we haven't got much time to spend together due to studies, I totally treasure our friendship all these years and it's totally indescribable.
Jane, my Ah Ma, really enjoyed the times we had in the group, always bantering and laughing. You were always the one I run to in times of desperation during examinations, so I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. Don't worry, I won't steal your toy whale again, I know it's too precious. And thanks for the 'BeeHoon'.
Karthi Ducky, you barged into my life, made a whole hell, but I totally love you for that. You're always that cheerful, though it pains any good friend to see you crying at times over matters that aren't worth your tears. If it hadn't been for your last-minute help, I would have given up on my Chem. Love ya.
Liyan, Though always so silent, the smiles and lame jokes are your ways of fostering friendship, and I appreciate all the times we spent together in the group. Good luck to your ambition (It'll probably take me another 100 years to reach your level of 'Nirvana') and hopefully we'll see each other again.
NX, despite the countless tiffs we had and the amount of tears you've cried over our friendship, I still love you like I did years back and our friendship will still be around. Sorry for always being the villain.
Small Siti, I didn't exactly see you pop into my life (can't blame lah, too small), but you came in and wowed me with that megawatt smile. Thanks for being crazy over football, Teddy Geiger, Jesse McCartney just as I was.
Sub, you made me realise that smart people can act stupid at times. No lah, just joking. I'll never forget all the laughter you injected into my monotonous life and made it bright and colourful all over again. Kudos for soccer!
Sug, you were the one who made the greatest (and not so very well) impact in my JC life. You were the good friend I confided in and joked with, the one I discussed homework with and worked so well with, but you were also the one who broke my heart with a pinch of your pettiness. Perhaps only time will tell if the chasm between us will ever be bridged, but I shall keep a positive image of you in my mind.
To all my teachers, firstly, really sorry for the lousy work I've been turning in from Primary 1 til now. I can be a really staunch procrastinator, but you all are always there to hammer some sense into me (not literally!) and educate me. Thanks alot, no matter how significant I am to you.
05S13, I totally love you all to bits and it's a real pity we haven't had a real class outing altogether, but I hope we'll still continue to communicate via our class blog and update each other on our status. May our paths cross again.
To 10erz, I still haven't forgotten you all despite my receding memory, and I'll still continue to meet up with you all if we ever have the chance.
God all this sounds way cheesy. I think I need some digestion pills to get me through the night.
Saturday, November 4, 2006
2 days into the A's
Blogging is supposed to be taboo when you do it during the A Levels, but heck, who cares.
I've been feeling jittery ever since the start of the A Levels. Perhaps my confidence level just took a nosedive, I dunno. I can't believe I've got one foot into the making of my future already, and it's now all condensed into one mind-boggling examination. THIS 3-week exam is all I have to prove myself. No matter how much I've put in for the past years, no matter how much time I spend mugging, THIS is all I have. I'm still doubting the credibility of the situation.
P.S: To whoever who has given up, I don't know what to say. I'm just going to be at my most optimistic and wish you all the best.
I mean it.
I'm not trying to be sarcastic.
I've been feeling jittery ever since the start of the A Levels. Perhaps my confidence level just took a nosedive, I dunno. I can't believe I've got one foot into the making of my future already, and it's now all condensed into one mind-boggling examination. THIS 3-week exam is all I have to prove myself. No matter how much I've put in for the past years, no matter how much time I spend mugging, THIS is all I have. I'm still doubting the credibility of the situation.
P.S: To whoever who has given up, I don't know what to say. I'm just going to be at my most optimistic and wish you all the best.
I mean it.
I'm not trying to be sarcastic.
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