If you knew what I knew

Had a discussion with Melissa, Fleur and Kian Ming during our 2-hour break regarding marriage. Fleur kept insisting that marriage is like the most beautiful thing in the world and she aspires to get married as soon as possible. Even without money, even that. Now we’re dealing with a true blue bundle of innocence here. No matter how we tried to indoctrinate the unpleasing facts of marriage into her, her pure insistence almost drove the 3 of us crazy. And she was uttering some rather mushy lines like ‘if you truly LOVE the guy, you’ll be willing to spend the rest of your life with him’ and ‘nothing else matters as long we LOVE each other’. LOVE, may I imply again, is a strong word to use for people our age. Yes, I may be trying to coax those 3 words out of my mouth, it’s ‘I like you’, not ‘I LOVE you’.

It’s been some time and I’m feeling for you
Wondering if my thoughts and feelings you’re feeling tooI
’m confused, I’m afraid it hurts to touch
Tell me how could I have loved someone so much

I wish I may I wish I might
You’ll be that certain someone my feelings hold so tight
If I knew what you feel I would have knew what to say
If I knew what you feel we could be together instead
Afraid of breaking my heart and all that might hurt you
I’m praying, yes, if you knew how I feel

Time passes by and all the tears I’ve cried
Full of rejection and fears I have inside
Like some lost soul I feel like I’m all alone
If only you could feel this pain within my heart and soul
Then I wouldn’t have to end this way

If you knew what I feel
Then we could stay right by each other’s side

When will I ever learn to say those words?

Now here's a question to ponder on: What would you do if there's someone you've been liking for a long long time and you wanna tell the person but is just too afraid to voice it out? Perhaps some people out there will understand what I'm trying to say, cuz i'm facing this prob as well. And it's been making me feel like crap for the past week. I really want this thing to be solved, once and for all, so at least i can study in peace.Seriously, is it really that hard to be liked? I don't know, really. I'm not desperate for a stead, cuz i've heard of horror stories regarding failures in relationships before, so i don't hope for a relationship. ALL I WANT IS TLC, CAN'T U PEOPLE SEE? alright, i'm dreaming.

Missing for 13 days

Great. So i was missing-in-action for the past 13 days. Apparently i've been trying hard to adapt to a whole new system of education, as well as the people who come with it. Still would like people to continue posting comments in my diary, as well as use this as a place to keep in touch. Still missing all those back at Nanhua. Study hard and play hard, people. Luv ya.

Love you people!

Okay. I'm finally back on the internet. I was probably missing in action for the past 1 month cuz of my dumb PC. Anyway how's life? I'm doing okay. The JC lectures have just started today so i'm pretty excited to start studying again. (you must be thinking that i'm a pure psycho) Missing loads of people back at school. Hope we can meet up soon so hopefully i don't die from the lack of 4/10 soon!