I'm a selfish person

So sianz today... Had to wake up early in the morning just to go to school for time practice for 1 hour. Then I guess I PMS so was feeling so damn sucky... No one to play with today so damn sian... somemore later got guitar class... Lucky it's the last lesson... It's not that i hate guitar lessons but it's pretty irritating when you can actually spend the afternoon sleeping instead of hurrying to go for guitar class.

Went to play badminton at Yuhua CC with Xiling, Hongsheng, Weilong, Deric and Ningxin. Then at 5++pm NX's mum kept calling me on my hp while we were still at the CC to ask about NX and NX ask me to tell her that she has left the CC already. And the thing is that her ma come and KP me cuz she say i'm NX's friend and all that shit. And NX refuses to pick her ma's call so her ma kept calling me. What attitude is that lorz? I don't do that to my parents. Then at 6 pm her ma call and KP me again so i ask NX to go home but she give some shit excuse that she doesn't know how to go home. So i ask her to take the 334 to the interchange and take an MRT home. But when i cross the overhead bridge she followed also so i ask her what is she doing and she say that she dunno how to go home. But i already told her... What does she expect me to do? Escort her home? Then when my bus came and i was flagging the bus she started crying at the bus stop and say that she dunno how to go home. So i ask her to cross back the overhead bridge and take 334. Then she cried even more. I can't be bothered... Can you tahan??? Then Xiling msg me at night and aske dme what happened cuz NX walked back to the CC after that. So i related the whole incident to her lorz... I cannot stand her lorz... It's not the first time she's done this, and i don't like the fact that she is using me as a shield against her mother. I hate it. I admit it openly, I'm a selfish person, and i only appreciate people who appreciates me, and although i'm soft-hearted, I cannot stand people like her cuz after all i'm someone with dignity and i 'm not her boyfriend who always has to tolerate her behavior. That's it. I quit.

Rwed Lowwy Yeyyow Lowwy

The Common Test's finally over... Looking back, I almost died along the way... haha... Anyway, I was supposed to go play bball at this time but i'm sitting here cuz my bball kakis all pangseh me... so bad... But can't blame them cuz they still having exam... So relaxed... And the O Levels results will be released tomorrow... means that all the Sec 4s last year will be coming back... Means QingRui coming back!!! Anyway i'm not excited lah... Got him enuff liao... haha... Then today Chengyi a little guo fen cuz he kept saying me and Shaun. Like, what have i got to do with Shaun? I don't like him, and he's a good friend. And i believe all the runours are fake, cuz i trust my classmate.

Cross Country 2004

Today was the cross-country. Haha... Didn't get to do duty this year so i had to run instead. The route was ok, except my foot was hurting because of the uneven terrain of the path. Then there were a couple of slopes here and there. Overall it was ok lah. Then when i got back to the end point, i was shocked. It was a good shock. Alana's 5th, Jiaying 6th, Chun pin 9th, Shuwen 14th, Clara 18th. Haha... The boys had tough competition so it's understandable that it's hard to get into the top 10, or 20. But the thing was, David was running in first place all the time, and even overtook me during the route, but he wasn't first. Cuz the IDIOT marshalls dunno how to lead him to the correct route, and instead of running 4.8km, he ran all around the golf course, which was 7km... What a waste...

Ok i was supposed to post this yesterday but i forgot so i'm going to post it now. Yesterday while i was walking down the stairs for recess, I noticed something real bright and glaring diverting my attention. Guess what? It was Tong Loong's bright orange underwear!!! I didn't mean to go notice his ass, but what can you do if you see a person with an ass like a light bulb?

There's parade tomorrow so i'm going to knock off now and go to sleep. Shut up.

1 day to Cross Country

The Cross-Country's tomorrow. Am i looking forward to it? No, cuz i'm running this year. I looked forward to it last year cuz i didn't have to run but don't look forward to this year's cuz i have to run... What a load of shit...

Anyway today began with Shaun's birthday. So what if it's his birthday? I merely sent him an mms to wish him happy birthday (like i do to everyone) and it got around the class as a point that i like him... god... What a load of shit... Then during Chemistry Mrs Siew was trying to throw me out of the window, and somehow got me unvolunteerily involved with Sherman... She siao already... Didn't take her medicine today... Then i just got very pissed the whole day... she ruined my day and she shall pay for it on prom night...

My Love Patzzi

Mr Foo gave the assembly talk today and people were passing him notes with questions and i was like........ Dunno what to say, but he's a good principal... Anyway, I've started watching the vcd for the Korean show My Love Patzzi and i'm totally addicted to it. I caught a few episodes of it on tv before it ended and I just wanna know what actually happened... Very touching... And it got real embarrassing when i was crying during the show and my sister came in and thought i siao...And the 2 male actors very cute... Haiz...

Just counting, I think i've crushed on him for ALMOST A YEAR... Unbelievable... i still don't see what i like about him... haha...

2 Days to Valentine's

Chemistry test is going to be a sure flunk. And I still have to face up to the remaining 5 hours of the day: 5-7pm -->tuition homework, 7.45pm- 9.45pm --> Tution, 9.45pm- whoever knows what time--> study for Chinese spelling tml and Chinese test on Saturday. So I guess my entries are going to get lesser and lesser and then till I don't post anymore. That's sad.

I hate my life. No matter how hard I study for all my tests of how much I do for a project I always get the bare minimum marks only, and I'm so sick of that. I've tried studying harder or doing more work, but nothing seems to help. And I guess nothing will. Like for the Chemistry test today, I had been slogging my guts out since yesterday afternoon but I handed up a skimpy piece of answer. Or I'll learn my spelling today and forget it the next instance. Forget it. I think I'll go slog my guts out in the army next time. Don’t laugh.

The day after's Valentine's Day, and I don't feel anything at all. The school work's killed the feel. And they're gonna get the class chairman to present flowers to the teachers tomorrow during Assembly. How nice. Why don't the teachers present us with all the answers of our test? That will be the best Valentine's present of all. They're all so dumb. People have been asking me to take the initiative (like I've wrote in the previous entries) but I think that's a stupid thing to do. Cuz even when I didn't take the initiative (2 years ago) I lost a friend. Ha… So I guess for as long as he shows no interest I'll just take it as it is. Besides I have no money to shower him with presents. No regrets.

Am I depressed? Am I?

Felt utterly sick today... Yes, i was laughing and joking, but inside i felt so sick. I don't know what's going on, just know that i was feeling terrible all along. In fact, i felt as if i wanted to walk out of the door and jump down. Totally devastated at what i was thinking of... I didn't want to die, but i just couldn't find a way to stop myself from thinking that way. I'm in no way depressed (although i just flunked my Physics and A-math) but i just keep getting that voice in my head.Face it, i think i'm sick.Anyway school was ok except for the test papers. And I'm gonna get S.H.E's Qi Huan Lu Chen tomorrow!!! So damn happy...

Pretty boys in NH - first time in history

So chuffed... There was SJAB parade today and we had the Sec 1s to come in for orientation. They're so cute... Then the Boys'Brigade also had their orientation today. And the officers who came to do the orientation were so cute. Not all of them, but at least 2 or 3 of them passed the test. Especially the one wearing the black shirt who the word "olympia" on it. Cute... So although the admiration rate of the girls in NH are pretty at stake, at least we have the Boys' Brigade to fill us in... OMG...

Then a few of the NCOs took the Sec 2 squad cuz Jane was busy with the FDC. It was pretty fun except I was quite distracted by the Boys' Brigade. Ya know, boys... I was pretty perked up the moment that BB guy with the "olympia" shirt stepped into the school... OMG... And the fact that the BB is from ACS... OMG... :O I'm more than just chuffed...

I don't hate Tong Loong... Get it right

Clara did the worst thing in the world today. Dun say 'what?'. You know it.Good... You get it from me if anything happens... Anyway, today we had 2 tests... And I believe both were manageable... Then Clara they took my bottle and drew on it... with black permanent marker... Good... First you torture Tweety. Now you torture my bottle. I just wanna say that when I've had enuff, you will die with no peace...

And there's just one point i wanna make clear here. i dun hate Tong Loong NOW. Yes I used to dislike him for whatever reason i dunno. But now we're friends(that is, if he regards me as his classmate).No ill intentions there, just wanna make clear this misconception some people had of me.

I'm single this Valentine's Day... how great... I'm not sad

Someone just told me that I always post sad stuff on my diary. Like, what's there to be happy about? To be in a sucky school with sucky teachers who keep pin-pointing us in the arse. I rather die. But there's someone keeping me going so there's no way am i going to quit. Ha... Anyway today was a sucky day (again)and we got a scolding the moment we stepped into class. Then after assembly we had to stay back to clean the class.Note: To those who didn't stay back after assembly today, you ought to be mauled and shot and hung... Disgrace... And i'm being very straightforward here cuz i know that not everyone play their part in keeping the class clean. I know i sound alot like Mrs Fong or Banana, but I dun want to walk into class hating each and every one of you.Anyway the guys were cooking instant noodles and all that in class today. In fact, i think they're going to do that everyday from the day they bought the electric kettle. Lolz...Today when i was coming to school with Hong Ying we were talking about Valentine's Day and all that and suddenly she asked me if i would ask him out this year. What for? I don't wanna risk losing another friend... Anyway i'm not despo enough to do so, so no thanks...

Time's killing my hopes

Had a discussion about the upcoming Love Fiesta after Economics, right before GP. And Jon apparently got pissed off when we were grumbling about the 300 cookies we’d have to make as an estimated quota. Relax Jon, it’s your first time as a chairman. You’ll have plenty to learn. Lolz.Time’s penalizing my each and every move whenever I think of HIM. I’m fighting back, holding on to the dark secret as my desperation keeps persuading me to surrender it. I have a weak determination, so I don’t know how long can I keep grasp of my porcelain heart, before HE unknowingly shatters it? How much trouble would it have saved me if HE had found out about it from somewhere? I’m not expecting a heart in return, I just want that confirmation. I know you’ve been hurt before, just like me, so why don’t we give each other a chance? Doesn’t it work this way? God I sound so damn desperate.